Before He Goes

May Happy.

"Dad! Yeah ...." Pradipta jumped from a poignant daydream when his cheeks were patted softly by Dara because he continued to pensively look at Rayna who was still crying in the arms of Mother Maura.

The heart of Dipta swayed violently because he had time to shadow to ask Rayna back together, and in the daydream, the ex-wife refused with a response to the word menohok.

"Dad why are you dumb? Why do you keep crying?" Dara asked as she turned to Rayna who began to relieve tears, wiping the wetness on the face with the tip of the pasmina.

Rayna turned her head, smilingly looking at Dara while waving her hands to approach her. Inevitably Dipta released a hug on his daughter's body so that Dara stepped over to Rayna.

"We're going home, yuk, son," Rayna asked in a dumb-ass voice.

Dara's face quickly turned sad. "Well, Mom, it's time for me to stay with Dad, seven days. It's only been five days." Dara shows three fingers in the air that make Rayna back nelangsa.

"The five are like this .." he fixed Dara's finger to be right.

"If these three." now, it was Dipta who added by showing three fingers in the air, making Rayna and Dara turn their heads. Only Dara smiled at Dipta and Rayna chose to pull Dara's chin to look back at her.

Only Rayna knows why some time recently, Dara's capture seems to change. The intelligence of the lesson as it declined, it turns out that this child is very sick. Rayna regretted, because lately too, she was busy.

"Let Dara here first, Ay. She's still at home, son." Dipta heaved a sigh of relief because Gifa's father had met to ask the grandson to be allowed.

"Tomorrow we will go to the Hospital again, the same meeting, Geisha. Want to discuss the continuation of treatment," Mother's timpal strengthens.

"What kind of treatment, Grandma? Am I the one who's sick?" because everyone has not given an understanding of the pain he desires. Dara focused on playing with Noora when Dipta and Bunda were consulting with Geisha.

"Yes, right, it's still a cold. Tomorrow we go to the Hospital again, yes," Mother. Dara who innocently nodded while wiping snot that really wanted to come out of her nose.

Rayna could not say anything but accept. He chose to embrace the child alone by closing the eyes that felt very painful when the petals were tightened.

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At first Rayna wanted to call a taxi to take her home because she came here with Adjie without her private car.

Dipta, Mother and Father, even Dara had asked him to stay at home. And Rayna won't. He said he wanted to go home first, wanted to also call his parents with a feeling that had calmed down a little.

Dipta volunteered to drive his ex-wife home. At first, Rayna refused heavily. But, when the taxi he ordered had not come an hour, making Rayna tired because she wanted to lie down immediately. Wanting him to also contact Adjie, the man must be willing to pick up. But Rayna pity. Adjie must be tired.

Finally, with the situation cornered, Rayna would nod her head to inter.

"Sorry, yes, Mas. So trouble you." Dipta, who had been itching since, wanted to open the chat, smiled happily in his heart because Rayna finally opened her voice.

While twirling the steering wheel, down the road that tumbennya felt a bit lonely, nodding a smile. "It's my duty, Ay."

"Hem." Rayna nodded slowly, saying yes.

"What have you been busy all this time?"

Rayna who feels her world feels collapsed from this afternoon, can be a little bit discouraged because of the question of Dipta that feels ridiculous. "Don't you know, Mom, what I've been busy all this time? You know who, too, Adjie?"

Created to take a breath to refresh the chest that suddenly drooled because Rayna immediately thrust out the reality. As if his ex-wife knew that all this time Dipta was still pegging her from afar.

"Yes, I just don't want you to meet the wrong person .. anymore." very slowly at the end of the sentence, Dipta admitted that he was wrong.

"It's Allah, Mas Adjie, well, Mas." Without having to say that they were engaged, Rayna knew, Dipta must have known. The ring of red gems that is circular on the finger, is also a symbol.

Rayna knows marrying Adjie isn't easy either. Adjie's mother still disagrees. He wants Adjie to get a girl. Not a widow, especially one child. Not to mention that his mother knew, Dara's son was sick. Yesterday when they got engaged in London, the mother did not come for illness. Only Father and Brother and Adjie's sister attended. Even Dara who during the course of the application looked at Adjie's frown.

"That's what, Ay."

"Thank you, Mom."

"When's the show? Can I help you?" pretend to be strong to offer. His soul felt broken. Because of his stupidity, he took off the golden-hearted woman for another man.

Dipta. "Don't cry, stupid!" Created as if cursing themselves in a heart that feels weak, broken and bleeding.

"Mas, how?"

"What, how?" turning around to ask because he was starting to be inconsistent, the fingers that gripped the steering wheel it felt suddenly cold all.

"Who's close to you?"

Dipta laughs cunt. "Jones."

"The candidate's name, Jones?" Rayna made it clear with a strange look. What kind of woman's name is that?

Dipta laughs more and more over the wounds of Rayna's innocence that has not changed since long ago. "Jomblo ngenes, Ay."

"Nr ...." Rayna laughed because she was comforted by the long time he had not heard of Dipta. With Adjie he only gets seriousness. It is rarely as hard as it once was. Rayna is so cute, her world never stopped about the Creator. And so, when the man went the wrong way, Rayna seemed to have a seizure. Even when the man was still her husband if he was going out of town for work, Rayna would always come and accompany him.

"I still want to be alone. Taking care of the kids tastes better than marriage anymore" Reply Dipta.

Rayna put on a wry smile and nodded her head. "Hopefully, Mas Dipta, could have a better woman than me and ..." paused, it felt like calling Nancy's name, she still did not want to.

"Aamiin." hurriedly replied, because Dipta knew Rayna would carry the name Nancy which she too was lazy to hear.

"Learning from experience, yes, Mas. Don't be a khilaf again."

"Definitely." trying hard, trying to promise not to be misguided again. Every night, Dad would go to the room of Dipta to remind the boy not to miss to teach Surah As-Sajadah before going to bed to regulate the air of the evil whisper. And Al-Mulk to hinder the torment of the grave.

The car speed was stopped right in front of the house with two floors that were once light gray has now been changed with orange yellow. The newly created first came here again, opening their eyes to find the shadow where the good memories once resided. Bringing Rayna after marriage, brings Dara the newborn from the Hospital and bad memories as Rayna goes to take Dara because of her problems with Nancy.

"I'm down, yeah, Mas. Thanks a lot."

"Together, Ay. Rest, yes. Don't cry anymore. If we are sick, we are weak. Her virgin, how is it?" though lying. It's not strong either. "Because we need our smiles."

Rayna who had removed the seat belt just smiled faintly. "In the Lord, Mas. Thanks a lot, yeah. Dara Titip. Assalammualaikum."

"Waalaikumsallam, Ay ...."

Rayna who had stepped static and turned her head because she was called back.

"Yes, Mom?"

"Don't forget the evening prayer, we pray for Dara together."

"In Shayah Allah, Mas." again stepped towards the main door. Stay waiting until Rayna enters the house. And after that, Dipta lowered his head on the steering wheel, he sobbed slowly, shedding tears again.

Their divorce was three years. He has tried to take down Rayna who never wanted to return. But, now? When he finds out Rayna has really moved on from him and is having a serious relationship with Adjie, why does it feel so hard?

Dipta lifts her head from the steering wheel, opens the dashboard drawer, grabs a family photo between herself and Rayna who is staring at the camera while holding Eleodra and Elea, leaning weakly on the back of the seat with shaky shoulders.

"If only I had not been affected. Maybe his smile is still mine" Dipta said touching Rayna's face. He could only resign, asking Rayna back would never happen. It ruined Rayna's happiness.

"May you be happy together, Adjie, Ay." then looked up at the sky from the car. "Punish my sin, O Lord." The characteristic of repentance received by God is when the sinner feels disgusted when reminded again of the act of vice that has been done.

Relax, Dipta. The mercy of God is far greater than its glory. Then pursue the love of God, God will come back after you. Because God loves the repentance of the sinner more than the servant who feels holy never feels that he sinned.

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So don't be naughty, Gasendra Pradipta Hadnan!