Before He Goes

Struggle.

God is never wrong in creating destiny. He was never mistaken to choose whose shoulder to give the test to. Allah knows well the capacity of every servant. Our job is to be patient and accepting. It feels hard. Sometimes we want to give up, why? Because if every servant knew that a test based on patience would bear great rewards in the time of interceding, they would all be bound to ask for the test in order to gain the reward of patience.

"Is this a test again from you, Rabb? Or is it a pleasure for me?" rayna's daydream was blown away when his ears heard the cheers of the SAH word from the crowd. Because he did not feel the beauty of the road of akad, he was daydreaming, not paying attention to how Dipta spoke loudly, firmly and straightforwardly in one breath to say ijab kabul over himself to Papi.

Right in Dara's nursery, Dipta remarried Rayna after three more years of separation. Mami Agnes initially refused firmly, she did not want to give her blessing. But, when Dara who rested on both feet Mami. That woman is not. Mami and Papi cried, asking for a promise to Dipta so as not to hurt her son anymore.

"I will be the guarantee for Rayna ..." Not the Creator who said. But, Gifali's father who was able to install the body for the son to both his iron. Dad was so happy when he found out Rayna wanted to go back. Even with Mother who continues to give thanks.

"Darling ...." Dipta turned his head full of tears on his cheeks, staring at Rayna, thrusting the back of his hand to be sniffed by his wife. Rayna just smiled thinly not returning a greeting that felt still bland to bring into the chest, she just looked down, kissed the hand of her husband who used to be always held everywhere.

"I love you, Ay."

With the white kebaya and the patchy makeup that Geisha gave on Rayna's cheeks, the woman nodded. All the audience who heard, can only understand that Rayna's heart must not be upright for the Creator.

"Yes, Dad. I love you the same, Dad." Dara who replied. When Dipta said Ijab, Dara was on his lap, accompanying him.

Everyone laughed to hear Dara who had been treated for three days, looked better, especially Mother and Father had managed to refer.

"Thank you, yeah, Mom. I want to fulfill my wish." Dara rises from her father's lap, moves into Rayna's arms.

Rayna who was at the end of her heart still had a hard time accepting this marriage but for the sake of her daughter recovered, nodding a smile. "Together, Son. Most importantly, Dara must be healed. Must be the spirit of taking drugs and undergoing chemo." like his mother who had to fight against trauma to want to live again with Dipta. Dara was finally encouraged to follow the chemo back.

He whispered in Rayna's ear. "Next week, I'm gonna donate my spinal cord to him."

"Maa Shaa Allah, is it true, Mommy?" words so happy according to Rayna, until he looked at Dipta haru. His smile was perfect. Heartbroken because succumbing to Dipta will this marriage as if healed.

"Yes, Honey. Dara will heal." Behind the smile that was returned, stored a sense of anxiety about the risk after he became a donor.

"If I had to go. At least, I can hold you back to be my wife again. I will use the time as I can, to repay your former sorrow," muttered Dipta promised in his heart.

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In this marriage there are several conditions that Rayna proposed to the Creator. Some are accepted, some are rejected.

First, the rejected conditions are created. That is, Rayna said that she did not want Noora in their household. Strictly, Dipta shook his head.

"Noora is also my son. He is present because he has the will, God. I never wanted her in our marriage at all. I'm with Dara. Just as fair, to Noora. So if you want me to marry you have to accept it too. Noora is innocent. He doesn't know anything. From birth he was already lacking the affection of his mother. I want to ask for your compassion to be able to be a connecting mother for Noora. Get rid of that grudge, Ay."

"I don't want to be far from Adek, Mom. I love her." Dara also insisted that Rayna would accept the toddler.

There was nothing Rayna could do, other than to sincerely accept the child, although in her daily life no one could guarantee, how the treatment she would give to Noora, he said, whose face is very attached to the fusion of the faces of Nancy and Dipta. It will hurt a lot and continue to sting. But, for the sake of Dara's smile that was once dim because of her problems with Adjie that felt selfish. So, Rayna followed.

Second, the terms agreed upon. Namely, Rayna asks for no physical connection between them until love really grows in Rayna's heart.

"Until this second, I'm still in love, Mas Adjie. So I hope, you understand."

With chest throbbing pain upon hearing it, Dipta nodded legowo. "I will fight to return your love to me again."

"Yes, fight."

May Dipta have time to give Rayna back her love.

On the fifth day of the wedding. Dara was home again after one week of treatment. It was created to buy a new house with a large yard, full of greenery. Which he knows Rayna's favorite in addition to taking care of the house is arranging plants. Whatever Rayna likes, it fills everything. Starting with the shape of the house building, the color of wall paint, the latest furniture, all Dipta prepared in an instant. The old house is no longer occupied, left empty.

At home, Dipta and Rayna remain roommates. However, apart from the distance if it is in bed, there is Dara as the separator. While Noora, Rayna told him to sleep in the other room, alone.

"Where are you going?" the steps of Dipta are static with the chest chuckling in shock, he thought this room was quiet because Rayna and Dara were already sound, in fact the wife woke up and blocked her steps that were settling like a thief.

Dipta looked over, smiling clumsyly. "You drink."

"That's ...." Rayna pointed at the glass filled with water above the nightstand.

Dipta. "Well, cold."

"That!" Rayna lifted her head from the pillow but did not release Dara's hold on her chest while pointing towards the refrigerator in the room.

Dipta sighed, looking at Rayna straight. "I heard Noora's voice crying in the next room. I think he's a nightmare---"

"Sleep!" Rayna put on a face no matter what she complained about.

"Any second, Ay. I'll be back here again."

Rayna. "Go back to bed and sleep!" sometimes he wants to give up on accepting Noora, befriending the past. But, if his mood was down, he would hate the child all the way to the bones. Before stepping into the dream, Dara would accompany Noora in the room. Then they'll settle together. And after that, Rayna will carry Dara to be moved, leaving Noora alone.

"I didn't have long, just a minute." Dipta kept going outside, meeting Noora whose voice was still crying, calling for Father and Dara.

Seeing Dipta disregarding his wishes, Rayna snorted in annoyance. He took off Dara's arms slowly, to get up down the bed. When you want to close the door and lock it so that Dipta can no longer sleep in the room with her and Dara. Dipta quickly returned but while holding a crying Noora.

"Did you bring it here?!" Rayna looks up on a black.

"Please tonight, Ay. The body is quite warm," said Dipta memelas.

"No! You're boboin' in his room!" Rayna pushed Dipta away from the door. Every time I saw Noora's long, jet-colored hair, there was envy in Rayna's heart because Dara was no longer like that.

"Next to his ac busted, Ay. It's a little hot, Noora's hard not to be cold."

"I don't care! Tell her to sleep on the floor cold, "Rayna said no mercy.

"Subhanallah, Ay. How you are like a little boy."

Rayna laughed arrogantly. "His mother also has the heart for me, Mas! Destroying our marriage first."

"That let it pass, is it still to be fussed?"

Rayna scoffed cynically, quick to glare sharply.

"It's not that easy, Mom! Here I am your victim, it is certainly difficult to be that light at peace! You are the perpetrators, of course it is easy to say 'forget' !"

Dipta shook his head faintly, choosing to stop the debate, Dipta kept stepping in, passing Rayna towards the bed. Dara woke up because Noora's sobs were unable to be extinguished.

"What's wrong, Dad?" Dara tried to hug her sister, calming, rubbing Noora's wet cheeks.

"The nightmare. My sister is sleeping again. Hugged his dick." She pulled out a blanket to wrap herself and her two children. Lekas turned to the sofa where Rayna was sitting with a sour face.

"Come, baby here. We're sleeping again." Dipta waved his hand.

Rayna was still pouting, lazy to respond.

"Dad."

"... Ma."

The father and son kept calling for him. Finally, Rayna got up, headed for the bed. But before long, Dipta and Dara's smile deflated which they were happy if Rayna stopped sulking when Rayna chose to take a pillow and bolster for her to take to the sofa.

"Where are you going, Ay?" ask Dipta Dara.

"Narrow-foursome sleep. Mom, on the couch, Dara." Rayna only answered Dara's question but not to the Creator.

Dipta rubbed his frustrated face, he got up from the bed and approached Rayna who would start laying on the sofa.

"Four is enough, Ay. The mattress is big."

Rayna brushed off Dipta's hand rough on her arm, staring firmly. "Move Noora if you want to go to bed with me!"

Dipta let out a heavy sigh, shaking slowly. "For tonight, Ay." keep begging.

Rayna remained as strong as Dipta who also firmly defended Noora. "I'm staying here! Hugged your son with Nancy!"

"Astaghfirullahaladzim ..." apparently refer to Rayna, repeating the household, it is not easy as usual.

Mother offers to take care of Noora by Mother and Father. However, Dipta attacked. He did not want Noora psychologically disturbed because he felt driven. Although in reality, he also does not want the psychological Rayna who will return to chaos because it continues to be close to Noora. But trauma has to be treated. He was convinced that Rayna would eventually accept Noora.

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There was a group of chickens crowing far away. Along with the sound of the morning prayer that was reverberating, and Dara's hand that wriggled in front of Rayna's face, making the woman wake up.

Then

Deg.

Rayna's heart immediately slipped, like wanting to jump far to the bottom of the ocean. There was a shock that just came when he just slowly blinked his eyelids to open. There was a gasp of breath from behind the neck and a hand coiled over his stomach.

It is certain who is now behind his frail body. Not to mention there was a spear that felt pulsating touching Rayna's butt. He knew it was the center of the body of the Creator that always contracts in the morning.

"Mas .." jolted Rayna. He pinched Dipta's thigh with his sharp fingernails. Dipta who is still sleepy just squirms slowly and falls asleep again.

"Wake, Mom! Why are you hugging me!" Rayna kept herself a little ahead. He does not want himself to intersect with the property of the Creator who continues to pulsate. When Rayna fell asleep, Dipta held the woman to be put back in bed.

There was no answer from the interlocutor, Rayna decided to turn her body to look at the Creata. At first he wanted to wake the man up with a curse, but his intention was uncooked. I don't know why I looked at Dipta in a sleeping position. Make Rayna's heart calm. But, Noora muttered that was wriggling, disperse all that. Rayna was upset.

"WAKE, MAS! WAKEUP!" Rayna pulled the sidebar of Dipta's hair until the man screamed pain. Dara and Noora also blinked suddenly.

"What's up, Mom?" dara asked, holding her chest.

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