Before He Goes
Why Should Dara?
And for the first time back Pradipta carrying Rayna's body immediately drooped boneless on the sofa when the woman was in severe shock at the state of Eleodra disease that felt slashing breath in the chest cavity. The only precious treasure other than the parents and God that he had for life reinforcement, while going back to be snatched.
Statement that people with leukemia will always be short-lived, unable to make him silent, calm and think clearly to find a solution to what treatment is best for Dara.
Dara, the first baby she gave birth to with all the struggles, until she suffered temporary blindness due to severe pre-eclampsia.
Dara must be born by caesarean at the age of seven months. After entering the NICU one month because his heart had problems after birth.
With all the prayers that he and Pradipta said at that time and indeed Allah willed that Dara should last until this moment, then Dara was able to fight to rise, and indeed God wanted Dara to stand up, where both of his parents feel resigned.
Now then?
The universe seemed to shake Dara.
"Get out, Dipta!" emphatically Mother asked her twin son to come out of the room carrying Dara who was still crying when she found out Rayna had fallen unconscious.
"I'm still here, Mother. Worry alike, Rayna."
"out! Bring children. There's a Mother here with a Aunt."
"Mom's okay, isn't she?" ask Dara who is still in her mother's stomach.
"Gum tired, son. It's the same, Dad, first."
"No ah, I want it here the same, Mother!" Can Mommy see Dara's face paled back.
Mother took a breath as her sick grandson found it hard to tell. It wasn't just Rayna who fainted. Even at the Hospital, when he heard the explanation of Geisha, the twin brother of Dipta who is a Pediatrician if Dara is sick, Mother also fainted and is now trying hard to accept the problem first. Because, by complaining, screaming, crying until tears are mixed with blood, will not be able to solve the problem.
"Will I have tannan nanis .. cup, cup." Noora, who remained holy despite the behavior of her parents who seemed uncivilized, chose to embrace the brother from behind as well as strengthen.
"Mother I'm sick," replied Dara.
"Dad, sick." nodded to justify, rubbing Dara's hair, following how his father if he was pampering himself and Dara.
"Come, take." back Mother then Dipta who still looks sad ex-wife who is still enthroned in the niche of the heart. Dipta quickly grabbed Dara for her to carry and held Noora, out of the room.
"No, Dad. Don't want to!" Dara seemed to be struggling in a sling and Dipta forced the child to remain attached to the chest.
"Run, Dad! I want the same, Mommy!"
"His mother's resting, son. If you wake up, Dara can come here again" said Dipta to spread the child.
"Don't forget to close the door" Mother said. And Mother's room is closed now. Bibik still squeeze the toes in order to stimulate Rayna to gurgle blink the eyes. Mother also began to open Rayna's veil, rubbing eucalyptus oil on both sides of Rayna's forehead and nostrils. Unbuttoning clothes to feel loose.
"Mother! I'm created, cheating!"
"Don't want me to, Mother. No!"
"Why don't you pay a whore, Mas. Why should he? Why should you, NANCY?!"
Mother until down, closed her eyes when the chaos of household problems Dipta and Rayna again imagined filled the head space.
"It's not just Rayna who's lost, Elea, Mother. Me either. But why can't he get up? There's still me and Eleodra he has to take care of."
"Don't try to blame my still disturbed psychic, Mas! If you like him, you say! YOU ARE HONEST!"
"By Allah, I'm just in love with you, Ay!"
Mother shook her head slowly, while expelling the memories. Memories in which Pradipta still wants to defend and eventually Rayna forgives on the condition that Dipta stay away from Nancy and Dipta agrees. But, when she found out later in life that Nancy was pregnant, Rayna finally insisted on asking for a divorce. There's an innocent baby waiting for her husband to be held accountable. And for in honey, sharing the husband openly, he will not be able to.
When everyone thought Dipta really intended to cheat until making Nancy pregnant, Gifali's father beat Dipta to the blood. The man was disappointed, why the child he taught always by faith can still be misguided. Yes, because all children are not always able to bring down the nature of good parents.
There are parents who are religious leaders but their children can also go the wrong way. Such is the test, it will rest on those who are strong to endure it. Satan will continue to tempt man until the end of time. This kind of chilbleness is not only with the Creator whose faith may be thin, but with those who have faith as thick as the skin of a horse.
"DELAY!" quickly poured into the breast of Mother, hugging this woman firmly, back to tear.
"I'm not strong this way, Mother. Not strong."
"Patience, Son. Patience." the sentence that came out felt ambiguous once to hear. Mother whose chest is also not full because she continues to think about the state of Dara, joined in crying again like Rayna.
"I lost Elea, Mas Dipta and now, Dara. Why doesn't God stop torturing me, Mother?" smoothing the fabric on the chest of the Mother because while not strong to remove tightness in the chest. The nose feels short to breathe.
"They will heal. You must be sure of God."
"I've always been convinced that I can be happy from the difficult times of the last three years. Why did God test me again? Why, Mother? Why?" rayna's body trembled along with the base of her shaky shoulders. Her cries continued to thunder over the room space that felt filled with tears.
Mother who was able to stand in her seat, still holding Rayna, asked Bibik to go outside to bring warm tea.
Along with the gentle rubbing that Mother gave on Rayna's back as if Rayna was the biological child of Mother, able to make Rayna's sobs a little smaller.
"By cry, can. Want as loud as anything, please. The origin of which Rayna must not forget. There is still God, where we ask for solutions to this problem. Never doubt, never feel unfair. As long as the heart is still beating, then we as his servants will always be tested, son. The test is a form of God's love for the servant whom he is pleased with. If God had not loved, He would have allowed his servant to continue in error."
"But, it's all taken, Mother. Huh!" Rayna still has trouble thinking clearly. "Yesterday I was strong. But now? I don't think I can" he slowly began to look up at the wall.
The turmoil in the marriage of Dipta and Rayna occurred after they lost a second baby named Elea, Dara's sister, at the age of five months after birth.
Be beaten. Rayna was torn apart to the point of not recognizing herself. Behave like a mad person because he continues to abuse himself, assuming he is not good at looking after his child. Elea died purely from illness. The child had severe diarrhea until severe dehydration.
Losing Elea seems to close the way Rayna's mind to return to live a long life and continue to walk.
Since then, Rayna began not to pay attention to Dara and Dipta, people who were also disappointed to lose Elea. Rayna often shut herself in Elea's nursery, talking alone, crying and laughing alone. Eleodra and Dipta were afraid of her.
At the time Rayna was busy undergoing therapy with a Psychiatrician for her mental condition. Nancy, the son of her Mother, came to Indonesia just want to visit because she got bad news about the disaster that Rayna was experiencing.
Nancy, who had been in college since she began to take heart with Pradipta, was happy because she had a gap to separate Dipta from Rayna. And it all worked. When Dipta felt neglected from the touch of women he no longer got from Rayna for seven months after the death of Elea.
Nancy was able to pull the pseudo love from her heart. The woman was able to tempt the already longing Dipta to let go of desire. Created is just an ordinary man who is not as perfect as the Angels and the Prophets. He had a point where he was able to be consumed with the temptations of the devil. Finally he was caught and caught. Swim into adultery that contains only a moment of happiness and eventually disintegrate.
The Prophet also strictly forbids someone to disturb the harmony of the household of others. From Abu Hurairah RA, he said that the Prophet said
it is not a part of us, a man who deceives a woman over her husband or a slave over her master, '" (HR Abu Dawud).
His love was attached only to Rayna, but his lust was then bigger, while closing. He did not expect, when once doing and wanted to quickly repent, Nancy immediately became pregnant.
Nancy was able to turn away from Pradipta when their marriage felt crisp and tough. He realized that the love of the Creator would never be achieved.
"Why are all my children taken, Mother? Are not enough Elea and Mas Dipta gone from my life? Why Dara too? Why?" crying again.
How Rayna was not shocked and down, when she was about to go to a happy day with Adjie, she was faced with Dara's disease that seemed to suddenly, strangling her neck to want to break up.
Hearing Rayna's moans, Pradipta ventured to peek out of the doorway she opened slightly. Looking at the woman he still wanted to hug, to stay by his side when everyone did not believe the reason could do prostitution.
Everyone kept looking at himself dirty, determining Hell for him. Without wanting to know, that all this time he was also depressed, already regretted himself.
There is a lot of wisdom in the controversy of their homes. There will be no smoke without fire. The Pradipta would not deviate if Rayna could be friendly to God's terms. Do not drag on in trouble to ignore people who still need affection.
And Pradipta who, if he could subdue his gaze, fill the days of hardship with faith, In Shea Allah, he would be far from the temptations of Satan. The most important thing is not to increase taqwa. But, at war with the passion that continues to rumble.
The weakness of most men is that they cannot bend their eyes. So, the role of the wife here is very large.
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