
Kara was shocked when her bedroom door was knocked. Only one person always knocks on the door of his room, Sandy his brother. The girl immediately ran towards the door.
And he was even more surprised to see the figure of his father there staring at him flat. "Bian downstairs, he wants to meet you," said the man. "Dad remind me, if you have a problem, you should be more patient and give up. Don't act and act!" remember his father before he left.
Kara pecked for a few minutes at her door before slowly walking downstairs. But just one step down the stairs, Bian was already standing in front of him.
Bian's eyes looked teary like a puppy left alone by his master. It looks so sad.
"I want to talk and explain everything in your room, we need privacy" Kara said. As long as there are parents, he will never be allowed to make his own choices. He still obeyed Bian, even though his heart was currently angry and upset with the man.
"Ra, I was wrong. I knew I was wrong, I couldn't control myself, Ra," Bian said as soon as the door closed. "I-I'm sorry, Ra, I'm sorry, don't go, okay?" bian's teary eyes pleaded.
Kara chose to sit at the end of the bed, sighing harshly. "Bi, I'm actually sick of all this. You always promise but you always deny, I'm tired, Bi. I don't want anyone to get hurt because of me" he said.
Bian crouched down in front of Kara, looking at the girl sadly. "But you too, you promised not to leave me, but several times have tried to get away from me" he said.
"But you started it all, you know I hate seeing you hurt other people, Bi, I hate." Kara couldn't help her hands shaking violently, she was crying. "Sometimes I think, what else should I do to make you stop hurting others? I'm tormented to see it, especially if it's because of me, I feel guilty, Bi!" kara cried, taking out all her current burden.
Bian was fixated for a moment, then he hugged the girl's waist, drowning her head in Kara's stomach. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Ra, I know I was wrong, I sometimes lose control of the same things you're related to."
"After this, I want to consult you more often, I beg you" said Kara lirih.
Bian nodded, adding to drown his head. "Don't ever run away again, Ra, I beg you, you know? I almost died when I saw you leave earlier, I thought you were really disappointed and decided to run away again."
"I'm really disappointed with you, I don't like seeing you killing people... I don't like it." Because Bian's killing gaze was the same when he was about to eliminate someone a few years ago. Kara's scariest memory.
"I promise to be the best man for you, I will obey you and I will really try to reduce emotions" he said. "But, Ra, it depends on you too. You're my world, you're my happiness and you're the source of my emotions" he said slowly.
"All your actions will produce something. Either good or bad. It all depends on you."
Kara stiffened, Bian's eyes looking at her sharply for a moment. The man threatened him.
***
Today is Bian's consultation schedule, Kara accompanies. In the midst of Bian's conversation with her doctor, Kara asks for permission to go to the bathroom.
And when he came back, there was a tense silence there, making Kara inevitably look at Bian asking. "Why, Bi?"
The man seemed to think of something. Then smile thinly. "No, today's consultation is over" he said.
The girl stared at the clock on her wrist. "Usually an hour, this is only twenty minutes—,"
"It's over, isn't it, doctor?" now Bian seemed to be looking for affirmation. The doctor looked at Kara and Bian alternately before nodding. "Yes, today's quite up here,"
"Thank you doctor" said Kara, and she pulled Bian out of the room. Word frowned looking at the silent Bian with a blank look.
"You why? What was the examination result? Was bad? You're thinking again, aren't you? If I'm going to leave when I know?" ask Kara carefully.
Bian looked at her for a moment before smiling slightly. "No, instead of the opposite, I started rather well than before, said the doctor so that more effective should often consult again."
Kara nodded in understanding. "When's the next schedule?"
"You don't know" he said. "After this we have lunch at a regular restaurant, huh?"
Bian just nodded obediently. They stopped at one mall, bought some groceries and snacks there. The girl thought that she might need to stay for a few days in Bian's apartment, considering that the condition of her house has been so uncomfortable lately.
"Bi, you take fruits, yes, I want to find some snacks for a while there," said Kara pointed to the snack place. The man nodded. "OK, when I'm done there."
They also separated. Kara took some of her favorite snacks and Bian put them in a trolley. Amidst his activity, a hand restrained his arm that was about to reach out to the brown snack.
"You—,"
"At last we meet again, I've been waiting for you in this mall for days hoping we meet," the figure looked relieved. "Kara, can you come with me for a second? Jody waited for you, she needed a lot of explanation from you." this time the man did not make any further pleasantries, he spoke straightforwardly.
Kara glanced anxiously towards the direction Bian was. "Joddy?" tanyakanya. "G-gue knows, but I'm really sorry, I can't do it right now, I really can't," if studied further, Kara also wants to meet Jody, I really can't, there was a lot he wanted to talk about, but his current condition was not possible. "Gue's sorry." said Kara regretfully.
Since being with Bian, Kara's social circle has narrowed. The girl only befriends and interacts with people Bian deems non-threatening.
Bian's activities govern everything. Kara never came out without Bian, she never dared to leave without Bian's permission. Because he knows how crazy Bian is.
Of all the madness, Kara was convinced, it might be that the man was listening to the talk. Bian and his madness to Kara.
The man in front of Kara looked angry. "But you have to explain a lot of things to him! He's been tormented for years and you can only apologize?! I'm just asking you to find him and talk!" said the man was angry.
Kara shakes a little. "Lo wouldn't understand if I explained, but I'm sorry I couldn't see Jody."
"But—,"
Bian suddenly comes to the head, pushing the man away from Kara's body. The man almost hit the figure in front of him if Kara didn't touch his other hand.
Yeah, his goddamn promise not to hurt anyone else. Bian lowered his hand staring at the figure.
"Gue hope you leave soon, before I lose my temper" said Bian coldly, his eyes sharpening.
The man was silent for a while, realizing that the figure in front of him was not an opponent that deserved him, he chose to leave, but before that he looked at Kara who was hiding behind Bian's body angrily.
As soon as the figure left, Bian twisted his body, staring at Kara. "He who?" he said slowly but sharply.
Kara shook her head strongly. "I don't know and I don't understand either" he said slowly. "Udah, huh? Despite this problem, he was just a strange guy who had suddenly come," Kara rubbed Bian's hand slowly.
The man clearly still looked angry.
"Bi" whispered Kara. "Please? I don't want any fights today."
Bian gave in, he sighed. "OK," break. "You're staying in the apartment, aren't you?"
Kara nodded small. "Yes, I'm gonna spend a few days with you, we've been having too much trouble lately."
Bian finally smiled. Then kiss the girl's fingers, taking a peek at Kara's neck inhaling her favorite scent.
Only Kara can make him feel like a madman.
***