Asa Herself

Don't Have Too Many Thoughts

Liza opened the window curtain. Looking at the flash of lightning that had struck and split the dark night sky. Heavy rain fell to hit the earth accompanied by thunder booming so loud that it was heard from inside the penthouse of Rafael. Pensive solitary to calm his mind and heart that is still shackled by sadness. I don't know what Liza has to do again to calm the sadness and loss that is raging inside her.

Liza has been doing psychotherapy, pouring out her heart and mind to one of the pastors, praying, shopping with her friends, refreshing her friends, taking medicine, eating chocolate, and so on, follow the practice of yoga and meditation so that he returns to calm. But all of those efforts up until now have been fruitless. Liza was still swept away in the maelstrom of sadness. Suddenly Liza cried without a sound when remembering the fetus she conceived for six weeks. He stroked his flat stomach.

"Madam, it's night, it's time to rest anyway you should still bed rest, not soy sauce" said Melinda softly.

"I'm still not sleepy" said Liza.

"But Nyo —."

"Give me a minute to look at the sky" said Liza who cut off Melinda's words.

Melinda walked over to the figure of Liza who was standing facing the large window of her penthouse family room Rafael. Melinda leaned Liza's head against her right shoulder affectionately. Melinda rubbed Liza's right shoulder gently. Melinda also felt the sadness experienced by Liza.

"I also lost a son" Melinda said softly, looking at the overcast sky.

"Your son died?"

"Yes, he died from being killed by a gang of mobsters."

"Your son is a cop?"

"Yes. At that time I felt very lost and sad, but I sincerely accepted the ordeal so that I could live my life properly. And I'm sure there's a rainbow after the storm hits us."

Liza did not respond to Melinda's words, she instead daydreamed. Instantly the atmosphere became silent, only the sound of lightning flashes could be heard. A few minutes later, Melinda realized about Liza's daydreaming state. His face Melinda looked at Liza's face. Melinda looked at the blank gazes from her two eyes Liza who was letting out tears of sadness. Melinda carried Liza's body, and took her into Rafael's penthouse.

During her cradle, Liza still remained dreamy with blank eyes. Melinda laid Liza's body on top of the bed. Enveloping Liza's body that was toppled helplessly like an undead. Swiping the top of Liza's head lovingly. Melinda straightened her body, then turned around. Melinda was a little surprised to see the figure of Rafael who was standing in the doorway with suspicious eyes.

"What's Miss Melinda doing here?" ask Rafael to investigate.

"I brought Miss Liza here."

"What's wrong with him?" rafael asked as he walked into the room.

"From now until now Mrs Liza daydreams continuously. Finally I took the initiative to bring her here, after all it was night time for Mrs Liza to rest."

"Why is he daydreaming?" rafael asked while looking pityfully at Liza.

"Before daydreaming she remembered her son's fetus."

"Oh yes, tomorrow Ms. Melinda does not need to come. I'm going to go alone with my wife."

"Good Sir. Hopefully the therapy will work tomorrow, sir."

"Aamiin's."

"I'll excuse you, sir."

"Yes." Yeah."

Shortly after, Melinda walked to the door. He stepped out, and closed the door. Raphael approached Liza, then sat down on the right side of the bed. Rafael kissed Liza's forehead which was able to disperse the Liza reverie. Liza turned to Rafael with a flat face. Rafael smiled sweetly at Liza.

"Have you come home?" ask Liza slowly.

"It has. Why haven't you slept?"

"I can't sleep."

"Why can't you sleep?"

"I remember our son" said Liza.

"You must sincerely carry this out so that you may come back cheerful."

Rafael hugged Liza tightly, then whispered, "I'm sorry."

The atmosphere became overwhelmed. Suddenly, Liza cried sobbing - sobs in Rafael's arms. Rafael rubbed Liza's back gently over and over again to calm Liza down. Shortly after, Liza released Rafael's embrace while crying. He stretched out his body, and turned his back to Raphael. Raphael heard Liza's crying and saw Liza's back go up and down.

"Tomorrow morning I will accompany you to the psychologist, after which we go for a walk" said Rafael gently as he rubbed Liza's back gently.

Instantly the tempo of the movement went up and down Liza's back and the sound of Liza's crying became slow. Liza changed her position by turning her body so that she and Rafael faced each other. Rafael stroked Liza's face gently. Rafael saw clearly an aura of sadness from Liza's face. Rafael smiled sweetly again to Liza.

"really?" ask Liza slowly.

"Yes." Yeah."

Liza smiled sweetly. Raphael kissed Liza's little lips gently. Rafael's right hand rubbed the top of Liza's head repeatedly gently. While his left hand tightly grasped Liza's palm. Over time, Liza fell asleep. After Liza closed her eyes, Rafael stopped his activities. Slowly Rafael released his hand from Liza's head and hand. Raphael stood up from the bed. He turned his back, then stepped his foot onto the long sofa. Sitting his body on the couch. Picked his smartphone out of the bag in his suit. Touch some icons to open a reply message from Aisyah one month ago.

Yes I'm sorry. You should also apologize to Liza. Give her a nice bouquet and a lot of flowers. Give her some chocolate and whatever she likes. Help him to heal himself. Give more attention to Liza. Take care of her feelings and respect her like a wife. Often take Liza on the street. Don't play with other women anymore. Learn to love Liza. And always pray to God for the good of your marriage.

"Sorry Ai, I haven't been able to follow your advice all, yet" Rafael murmured softly.

Accidentally, Rafael saw a pile of invitations in the right corner of the room. Rafael stood up in curiosity with the pile of invitations. He took one of the invitations. He opened the invitation. It turned out that the invitation was their wedding invitation. Rafael smiled wryly at the sight of his name on the invitation. Rafael put the invitation back in its original place.

"Two weeks away from our wedding reception, where are the preparations?" muttered Rafael monologue.

"Bang El," said Liza who stopped her step Rafael who was heading to the bathroom.

Rafael turned his body. His feet came to Liza. Raphael sat on the right side of the bed. Clasped Liza's hand tightly. Rafael stroked Liza's face with a sweet smile. Liza's heart is very happy since Rafael did a sweet against her tonight. Liza doesn't want Rafael to stop that for now. A sweet smile was engraved on Liza's lips.

"What's wrong?" rafael asked as he rubbed the top of Liza's head.

"I want to, Bang El is here" said Liza slowly.

"OKs. Why do you want me here?"

"I'm so glad we're close together like this. Yesterday - yesterday Bang El never did anything like this to me. I want every night to be like this. Is Bang El going to try to love me?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Is that at Mami Papi's request?"

"No."

"Bang El, have you apologized to Ayesha?"

"You don't have to think about that, Liz."

"I'm sure he must have been hurt."

"You don't have too much thought."

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