Ambiguity Between Us

Eleven

Azki started looking for movies on youtube that they had not seen. Finally he made his choice on a Malaysian horror film. Nayra entered the room with a glass of kopy that Azki wanted. Still with the robe and long headscarf she sat on the mattress, watching Azki.

The film begins with a frightening dream from someone about his past. Nayra began to focus on the film even though she actually felt sleepy and wanted to sleep. Azki repeatedly looked at Nayra who was raising her head propped up with a pillow.

Azki went for a while to turn off the room lights replace them with sleep lights. Nayra, who was already sleepy, became more and more sleepy with the dark state of the room. But he is still trying to stay awake.

"Nay" call Azki

"yes" answered Nayra softly, because of her drowsiness

"You can be honest, I have started to feel heavy lately" Azki said, Nayra listened to Azki's remarks seriously. Look at the man's face.

"I was disinclined by the teachers at the lodge, especially Ustadz Rahman, about our relationship. They keep saying your name, but I'm like a liar. Continue to refuse as if you do not want you" said Azki cirih

They're silent

"what better" said Nayra, his words were cut off by Azki

"Will I do anything?" Azki seemed to think

"Maybe it will be fine" Nayra said.

"It's good, if we both meet him. At least I'm not the only one who will be lectured" Azki said,

Nayra nodded and smiled, hearing the end of the sentence Azki said to her. Nayra, pay attention to the laptop screen again, as well as Azki. The film continues with the state of a man who has died but is possessed by demons to be able to live again and haunt the residents of the house which is only inhabited by an adult woman and a girl inside dark night.

Azki looked towards Nayra, who was lying on the pillow still wearing a long headscarf. Nayra looked well, but she was already asleep. Seeing that Nayra had fallen asleep, Azindangan had no intention of finishing the film. He also chose to sleep.

Nayra wakes up to an alarm she set to wake up every 3 hours. She found herself no longer wearing a hijab. His gaze moved on Azki who was fast asleep. Quickly she used her headscarf. Then berwudhu.

"Ustadz" Call Nayra quietly. However, Azki has not budged

"Ustadz" Nayra repeated again

"Old Tumben wake up. Ordinary in the ketok one time already answered" Inner Nayra

"Ustadz" repeated Nayra with a slightly stronger tone

Azki opened her eyes, with the room already turned on. He squinted because of the glare.

He smiled to find that Nayra had used mukena.

"Nay, have you prayed?" Azki asked while getting out of bed.

Sure enough, Azki finished with his business after Nayra completed 2 rakaat hajatnya prayer.

Azki stood in front of Nayra, preparing to pray tahajud that night.

***

" Ustadz, when do you get back to the boarding school?" Nayra asked with her hands still busy stirring the fried rice. Meanwhile, Azki was stirring 1 small pot of tea.

"Why?" Azki asked back

"no, anything. It's just that if Ustadz is here too long, maybe the other Ustad will look for ustadz, especially Ustadz Rahman." Nayra said, he tried to choose a good word so that the man did not touch with his words.

"Maybe a watch. Sorry, Nay, I can play it for a long time" Azki said. Hugging Nayra from behind, and taking over the spatula that was in Nayra's hands.

"Nay, just prepare the plate so I can finish this" Azki said.

Nayra, according to Azki's words took a medium-sized plate, and 1 large, and a glass.

Azki stuffed all the fried rice into a large plate. Nayra, scoop into a medium-sized plate. It has become a habit of them to use 1 plate and 1 glass both.

" Nay, I can ask you something" Azki asked suddenly in between their meals

"did you hate me?"

" Do not hate one another, have one another (sickened), turn your back on one another. And be ye servants of the brotherly God. It is not permissible for a Muslim to stay away from his brother for more than three days, Shohih Bukhori" Bener gk?" Nayra grinned to reveal her teeth.

"Thank God" Azki said looking relieved

"Just then" Azki noticed Nayra

"Nay, just think about why Nay was treated that way. Though at that time the word marriage was not in Nayra's mind" said Nayra, remembering her feelings first.

"I'm sorry, my silence is Nay" Azki said slowly.

Nayra smiled knot

"I'm trying to understand you slowly, I can also feel how you try to avoid me, even seeing me is something you should avoid. Besides without you saying I already know, that you don't like me as a man towards women, but rather respect me as a woman" Inner Nayra.

Azki was still chewing her food

"May what you say be true, and there is nothing you hide from me, especially your feelings, to me" Azki said