ALVARO BETTING GIRL

Nurul Aina POV's

Finally after so long, this foot rested again in the city where I grew up and later I knew that in this city also I was born and in this city there was him, too, she who made my life suddenly turned upside down because of a game and ended with me being a mother before marriage.

I came to take a diploma that has long been stored on campus and maybe if I do not come to take it, my diploma has been museumed. But that's not possible.

After taking my diploma actually wanted to go to Flora's house, I already miss her. But I say it because I can't stay here for long and the job is waiting there. I worked in Papa Deen's office and became their lawyer. But without this diploma, as good as I will be, I have no diploma so there is no evidence of that.

We don't wear it for long, we go back. And something I didn't expect happened. This chest was pounding when he saw his figure. The person I loved and longed for in silence. The figure that currently looks much different and more mature plus he is more handsome with his suit. Ah yes, he must have been a young executive and he might have been married.

These eyes bulged as soon as Aluna accidentally bumped into him. I'm afraid Alvaro will recognize him because their faces are so similar. I was also afraid that Alvaro would scold him for not being careful to hit him. But all I thought was wrong, Alvaro squatted down and smiled at him instead.

That smile, that smile that always made me melt and he smiled at Aluna, our son. Aluna held her cheek and my heart rippled as Alvaro rubbed Aluna's head.

I wanted to scream right then and there, "Aluna, that's your daddy baby. His name is Alvaro Genta Prayoga and he's very handsome isn't he?"

But I say, I'm afraid that my little boy will get a rejection. He was too small to feel the pain of being unwanted.

I wanted to come and run into his arms. This vow of love and longing was never lost and instead I felt more and more after I saw how he is now and how he is so good to Aluna. I want to scream and say, "Alvaro, I miss. I love you same. Are you also in love with me?"

But I am not brave. He who now is not impossible does not have a lover. What do I mean, a nursing home girl and just a bet girl Alvaro doang. But it's okay, with me seeing that he's in good shape is enough. I looked at him from a distance. Love does not have to have.

Is not sincerity and sincerity in loving it is when we are able to smile when we see it even from a distance and hold this feeling as long as we see him happy even though he is not with us? I don't know if my words are true or false, but that's my principle.

Aluna ran back to her father when her brother Danish took her away. Maybe his intuition if it was his father, I don't understand. I don't know what the boy said to his father, which I can definitely look at again and hear again the laughter of Alvaro.

"Thank you Aluna." That's what I can say to my son that helps me hear that laugh.

"Alvaro, if you'd seen me here. And if you were also in love with me, I'd surely run and hug you. I will reveal this unlimited love only to you. I miss and I languish. You know, until this second still you who reign in my heart regardless of my pain when I know that your love is fake. I'm still in love. Hope you know about this feeling."

I hurried to wipe away the tears as Sister Danish and Aluna came over.

"Nurul, what are you doing? Is something wrong?"

Danish's question I can only answer with a headband. I can't answer the truth.

On the plane, I was quiet and daydreaming again. A happy life with Alvaro and Aluna. Well, I like my delusion. Only in this delusion can I have a beautiful love story with Alvaro. Although I finally returned to reality because Alvaro does not love me, but I am not kapok! Every day of work I just remember him and my fool, I don't dare to make it to him.

"Mother, Aluna met Dad!"

Deg ...

My heart was beating fast, from where this little boy knew that it was his father. Suddenly I was daydreaming about forgetting everything and focused on looking at Aluna. I looked into those clear eyes and that smile was so soothing to the soul.

"Dad? Whose dad?" ask me with my chest pounding.

"Dad Aluna. He's so handsome" he whispered, and I couldn't control this heart any more.

"Don't fret!" shanka.

Oh my gosh my heart was almost dislodged and it turned out Aluna was just dreaming. But how can his dream fit the facts. Did Alvaro also want this child until he came to his dream? If it were, a rainstorm and even a somersault I'd go to Alvaro and say, "I love you Alvaro Genta Prayoga!"

I brought Aluna into the deck and tried to put her to sleep. Suddenly my heart became melancholy. I keep wondering, is it true that Alvaro wants this child? Would Alvaro not reject him? But what about his family? What about Miranda? He could not accept Aluna.

Until the landing plane I was still daydreaming. Good thing Danish sister wants to hold Aluna. I got home and looked at Aluna's face. The face that I often secretly admire and the face that a little more can help release the longing on Alvaro.

"Son, why are you so similar to your father? Is this how God punishes you? Run away from your father and hide without solving any problems. God gave you that face and you remember him more and more."

These disrespectful tears wet my cheeks again. Especially now that I'm playing music that has recently become my favorite again.

He was the first to make me love.

He was also the first to disappoint me.

I fumed deeply in the lyrics and along with it these tears broke again.

Why is there still, the rest of the taste in the chest

When you just leave

Can I survive

Without you, dear

God says he misses her.

Already know the song is getting heartbreaking, I even sang it. Crazy, these songs from the initials singer Mahalini really fit my feelings.

How about me, love you

Who come give hope, then go and disappear

Unthinkable to you, my heart breaks because of you

Without a reason, leave without saying goodbye

I won't take your momentary love

"Hiks ... My God, is this path I took right by running away from trouble? Is this wrong? Why is my heart so attached to him that I have been so far and all this time from him? Is it possible that he is the same as me? Is he looking for me and missing me? Why do I always feel the love of Alvaro every day even without seeing him? Why is it that every day I always get up early and it's as if someone is whispering to me if Alvaro misses me and his love for me is just as great as mine?"

I wiped away these tears. I look at my son's face with a stick and I shadow the face of Alvaro and both like a betel in two. I took a deep breath and slowly exited. I will make a decision. It's been four years.

"Well Nurul Aina Emrick, it's time you came out of hiding and got it all done. About this feeling, about all the reality and about the status of my son Aluna. I'll come by lu Alvaro. I will ask all the questions that I can only answer by myself and it cannot make me feel satisfied. Well, bitter sweet answer I will accept. Alvaro, I'm coming!"