
Axelle looked at Nurul who tonight looks beautiful even though by wearing makeshift clothes, Nurul will always be beautiful in the eyes of this man. He took Nurul to a park, where the friend was quite crowded with families who brought their children to relax. Nurul did not invite Aluna along, because he thought Axelle would talk important things and he did not want Aluna to divulge this conversation to her papi, who was not the only one, considering Aluna was always open to her papi no matter what happened she would always report to the man.
There is a sense of heaviness in Axelle's heart to forget and release the woman he has applied for even though it has not been answered. Without waiting three months, he knew Nurul would definitely reject him and would prefer Alvaro– given he himself saw how much these two loved each other and still wanted each other regardless of the pain the two felt during the four current year.
"Nurul, I want to ask you, please answer me honestly," Axelle said as she stared into Nurul's eyes.
Will we still be able to sit and stare at each other this close? I'm afraid this is the last one for us.
Nurul who was stared at like that by Axelle immediately lowered his head, he was ashamed because Axelle's gaze and the look was full of love, pain and deep sadness. Nurul knows, iy who contributed in making the highlight of the eye become as spoonful as it is.
"Don't duck Nurul, don't make your cheeks red because I'll keep falling for you if you keep doing things like that. You know, I'm trying to express my feelings for you because I know you're the impossibility I've always tried to describe" Axelle said with a bitter smile.
Nurul raised his face, he then returned Axelle's gaze. He smiled stiffly and replied Axelle with a sweet smile. If only Nurul had met Axelle before he landed his heart on Alvaro, maybe he was married to this man without a second thought beside the bad side of Axelle who was always angry and dominated it, he said, this man was so compassionate and Nurul regretted coming late with the wrong time that brought them together.
"All right, I'll listen. Say what you want to talk to me about" Nurul said trying to strengthen her heart so as not to waver before this handsome man.
Axelle smiled wryly, unable to ask this but inevitably had to ask for an answer.
"Have I ever been in Nurul's heart?"
Axelle stared fixedly at Nurul, wanting to see the honesty in those eyes. The answer will hurt him but he will be ready.
Axelle's question just made Nurul speechless. He was really surprised by Axelle's question, he was not ready to answer because he did not know what to answer.
"Please answer, I need that answer. Say honestly Nurul, everything will be a stepping stone for me to step forward. Please answer me Nurul, have I ever been in your heart?" pinta Axelle pleaded, her face so clear and looking so fragile.
Nurul bit her lip, it felt like her tears wanted to spill as soon as she saw Axelle's face. She could see Axelle's eyes glazed over as she looked at him, from which Nurul came to the conclusion that this man had truly fallen in love with her.
The situation that Nurul never imagined, when he was about to open his heart to Axelle, where, at that time his past love that still trapped him in the nostalgic space was present again and Nurul was not able to reject his presence because the love was still there and still so big.
"Axelle me, I …." Nurul could not continue his words because his tears first spilled. She was so sorry for Axelle and herself, why they met at the wrong time.
"Why cry, hmm? Weren't you always tough. Don't show your tears if you don't want me to be sick, Nurul," Axelle said in a trembling voice, using her fingers to wipe away Nurul's tears.
Instead of being silent Nurul even more crying until Axelle brought him into the deck. Axelle raised his head, trying to hold back the rate of tears that were about to break into his defensive dam.
God, just holding her like this, I'm thankful. At least at the end of our story I got a little happiness because I was given the opportunity to hold the woman who already occupies my heart. Can God help me turn this woman's heart around? I love and want it.
Nurul smiled wryly, he was angry at himself for making this good man shed tears for him.
"Why is our time always wrong? Is this called serendipity? But, It's not a serendipity! It's not a pleasant coincidence that we accidentally met without our plans, Nurul. This feeling is real and I do love you. But maybe God is just making drama for us like a joke. But my feelings for you aren't that joking!" axelle said as if angry but the tears explained that this man was in pain.
"Now I want to reverse your words. I don't want to be a coward for hating someone who has made me love and hurt me this deep. I know I'm the one between you two, but this feeling isn't me wanting it. Why did God create hearts only to be broken and hurt like this? Why did He make us both meet and only I fell in love? Is the world trying to take me down and make me a loser?"
Nurul was sobbing to hear Axelle's complaint, he knew it was not easy for this man but Nurul could what if the destiny line was like this. Nurul tries to understand what kind of pain Axelle is feeling. He is the source of the pain but not himself who can be an antidote because Nurul has become a medicine for the hearts of others.
"Can you answer Nurul Aina Emrick's question? Was there ever me in your heart even if only a small part, even if only a speck, even if only briefly and then just disappear? I need your answer Nurul. Please answer me," Axelle pleaded with compassion.
Nurul turned his face away, trying to dig into his own feelings to find every answer from the question Axelle gave.
"Yes, never," answered Nurul. "There was once a Daniyal Axelle Farezta who stayed in my heart and mind for a while" Nurul replied, then he lowered his head. How else, he can not lie because Axelle was once he put in the heart. The sincerity and persistence of Axelle made Nurul had thought to continue living with this man until finally Alvaro came and turned his heart back.
Axelle smiled as she wiped her tears, she then lowered her head. It felt like he asked Nurul's willingness to give him time to melt his heart but he realized it would hurt him even more because he knew full well his love was not up.
"Thank you for your answer, at least I feel relieved that we once had the same feeling but were not on the same fate line. I will always keep this feeling for you, maybe one day we will mate. I know I did a futile thing because your heart has been owned by him. I give up Nurul, continue your life with her, be happy and I will pray for your happiness. But if she hurts you, you should know if there is me who will always stretch out my arms to welcome you" said Axelle who immediately got a hug from Nurul.
The two cried together, hugging tightly. Want both of them to blame the wrong time to meet them. Also want to be angry because their destiny is not in line and the hand line does not describe the matchmaking for both.
Although in the end we can not unite but I am relieved, I am happy because we once had the same feeling.
"I'm sorry," said Nurul after they broke down her embrace.
"It's okay. I still have plenty of time to hunt women. I am handsome and rich, many of whom line up regularly to be my lover. Just relax, at least from you I learned that I have to be more courageous to express love and fight for the love I want. Come back," said Axelle trying to be relaxed when his heart is currently broken, broken into pieces and Axelle can not even describe what kind of pain he feels at this time.
Cupp …
Axelle gently dyed Nurul's forehead until the woman with one child was surprised.
"Bonus to me because you've managed to make this arrogant, conceited, grumpy, domineering and handsome man drop so many tears," said Axelle then he walked first to leave Nurul because he had to hide if now his cheeks wet again will tears.
Unbeknownst to them, behind was a man who was clenching both hands. The man who always tried but now again failed and failed again.