Ai To Shiawase's

Ch. 60: "I like you, Ai!"

"So as a matter of fact Rey .. a-I did try to stay away from you. Well, maybe you're right, I've changed. But, I did all this for our own good. Besides, didn't you ever say that you would accept and understand my decisions?" With a trembling body, I tried to start this conversation. I mean, this last conversation.

"Why? Why are you trying to get away from me? And what do you mean for our good? Do you think this can make me happy?" rey asked in an angry tone. I know, I would ask the same thing if it was in his position. But I can't answer what he's asking.

I clasped my uniform skirt tightly to hold back the crying. "Nope-no. That's not what I mean .. please, understand what I mean, Rey."

"No. Explain why you tried to stay away from me first. You know that, right? We've been together a long time. Do you want to just leave our relationship?" Rey looked at me with teary eyes. "Did? Why are you keeping quiet? Do you really want to leave me?"

After hearing Rey's question, I fell silent for a moment. He really complicates things .... No, why would I blame Rey? "I ... no ...."

"Sooka. You're having problems. I expected it ...

... tell me, Ai. I will definitely help you. But not in that way. I don't want to leave you" he said. Ah, he's making me even more confused. Leaving a good man like him, hah .. I acted like an antagonist. But my decision is better than staying with Rey. Because it's the same as me asking her into hell.

"That's .. I can't say it all, but if I don't do this .. then my life and your life will be ruined." While looking down to cover my eyes that were about to cry, I explained little by little to Rey. Explain it without saying that Reina started it all. "I don't want that to happen .. You know, I have a dream to be a painter. And you also have a dream of becoming a famous pianist. We both, we both have our own ideals .... So I think it's better to just focus on our ideals and forget about others. Don't you?" I continued, adding an excuse for my words to get stronger.

"No ...

... I'd rather lose my dream than lose you. Do you know how I feel these days when I'm away from you? I feel like I've lost something very important. My heart feels like something is empty. Ai, you are very important to me. Come to think of it, because you are the one I can smile at the moment. Because you are I can be friends with many people. Because you are ...

... I know how much it hurts to feel if someone leaves my life. Please, don't go ..." said Rey, grabbing my hand and holding it. I heard it again, the sentence Rey spoke was very similar to Rin's.

What do they mean I was so helpful in their lives?

I guess, every day I just become a burden and a bother.

I could do nothing but cry, cry, and cry.

"Why don't you like it so much if I leave you? I guess, every day I can only trouble you. Didn't you notice? Kena–"

"Because I like you."

"W-what?" I still can't believe what Rey said. Maybe I heard it wrong.

"Yes. I like you" Rey explained everything. Ah, apparently I didn't hear wrong. Thank goodness it means I can still hear well. Uh wait ....

"I don't know since when I liked you. Emm ... maybe, since the first time. Yes, when I met you I was immediately fascinated by your beautiful face. Hah .. I thought, maybe I won't be able to see you again after that day. But, hey .. it turns out destiny unites us again. I moved to the same school as you, no. Even I can be your class. Do you know that? When I found out that you were at this school, I started to approach you little by little. Do good and make you laugh. Seeing you smile is the best entertainment for me. So I'm going to answer why I've always been loyal to you, because I like you. Aishiteru yoo, Ai." Rey clasped my hand tightly and looked me in the eye like the gaze of a child asking her brother for something.

Without realizing it, my tears flowed back. I also don't know why my tears could spill like this. In fact, I felt that my heart was strong enough to endure the crying. "B-h ...." I took off Rey's hand to wipe my tears.

We were silent for a moment. Until I finally got up the courage to talk. "I actually like you too, Rey ...."

"Huh? H-really? Yossh! Does that mean you'll be my girlfriend? We'll both be a perfect couple forever! Hahaha .. I'm so happy!" The man cheered in excitement, holding both my shoulders.

"Gomen."

"Haaa ..!. .. hem?"

"I can't take it. Rey, I really liked you a long time ago. When we first met. But ... sorry. I really can't, sorry," I said, removing Rey's hands from my shoulders.

His expression slowly turned to disappointment. "Why? Is it because of that? You seriously want to leave me? Hey, tell me it's all just a joke, right?" Rey asked me a lot of questions that made me feel desperate. I'm not strong here anymore. I don't want to see Rey's face for a long time. I don't want to see the face of someone who's sad because of what I've done.

I quickly stood up. "Sorry." For the umpteenth time I say sorry. That's all I can do. I turned and walked away from Rey.

However, just a few steps I walked, Rey shouted, "AI, I REALLY LOVE YOU! REALLY IS! SO DON'T GO! DIDN'T WE PROMISE TO BE TOGETHER!?"

My reflex steps came to a halt when the sound of his cry reached my earlobe. However, I have decided, I have chosen my way of life.

Today, I feel so happy to know Rey likes me. I feel like I want to be here, be Rey's lover and live a happy life. But that I can't do. However, even though we will be separated by distance and circumstances, our hearts are still united. The love for each other will never fade. Rey, I'm sorry .. I did this for both of us. I know, I know it's a hard choice, but I know it's also the best option. I promise I will never forget you, so please trust me! Allow me to change the course of my life to get the happiness I want!