Ai To Shiawase's

Ch. 32: Sadness

...It is better to express anger and sadness to yourself...

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As the day grew dark, Rey decided to forget about Ryuji and take me home. Ryu returns home with Rin. I don't know what will happen to them later.

It didn't take long, we got to my house. As usual, I got off the bike and took off Rey's sakura-patterned pink helmet that was set aside for me. That helmet I've been thinking of as my own. Why that? Yeah, I used Rey's helmet more than mine. Totally unique.

"Alright, Ai. I'll go home first, okay? Hikari was waiting at home" Rey said as she closed her helmet's transparent windshield.

"Hm hm's. Drugs, be careful on the road, yes!" With a smile, I waved my hand to the right and to the left.

Rey turned on the engine. "Sayonara nee, Ai-chan! Haha ...." Rey turned on the motor, then moved away from where he was.

Meanwhile, I walked into the house. When I was just a few steps away, my steps suddenly stopped. A memory of the incident just now is the reason I stopped. Rey mentioned the name 'Hikari', didn't she? Then, who is he. Is she Rey's boyfriend? Emm .. could be. Hikari is often used as a female name. So, Rey already has a boyfriend, yeah. Hah .. Never mind, tomorrow I will ask him directly.

I walked to open the entrance of the house. "I'm home!" While taking off my shoes, I shouted in a voice that was not too loud.

"Onee-saaan!" A little boy seemed to be running towards me. With short footsteps, he approached and hugged my feet. Yes, he is Miku. "Sister, Miku is waiting for brother Daritadi. But, sister came home long ago. Miku got tired of knowing ...," he said annoyed while puffing his cheeks.

I crouched down to equalize my height with her. "Hey hey .. Brother sorry, yeah. Today my sister experienced many confusing events at school" I said, wiping her unraveling black hair.

"Comprehensive events? What's your sister doing today?" ask Miku plain.

I was silent because I was confused to respond to how. "Bu-not like that. Yes ... eemm ...." I held the nape of my head. However, at the same time, I remembered that there was something lacking here. "Eh ... Miku, by the way, where's mom?" ask him. I realized that mom wasn't here.

My mouth is close to my ear. "Mother is sleeping in the room, sister. Earlier, after making food for Miku, I suddenly felt dizzy. So, my mother slept again. Miku plays alone from the background, Miku's friends do not have hah ..," he said in a lethargic tone.

I lowered my eyebrows because I felt sorry for him. Since then, Miku has always been lied to by her peers. They did it out of fear of being scolded by mom. Miku always played with my mother and me at home. "Emm ... play with brother, yuk! We're gonna play dolls, okay?" I invited Miku to get her back in spirit.

Miku's facial expression immediately turned cheerful. His mouth was wide open with enthusiasm. "I want to, Brother. Miku wants ...."

"Yes, Brother!" Quickly, Miku ran inside her room to pick up the doll. I decided to go into my mother's room and check on her condition.

Nataly ...

I opened the door to my mother's room slowly. It turned out to be true, the mother was still asleep with her entire body wrapped in a warm blanket. Because I was worried, I walked over to him. "Mother ... are you okay ...?" just whisper

"Hm ...? The ai? I'm doing fine. No need to worry. Get changed there!" mom's orders are hard.

"No. I-I'll give mom some medicine first. Just a minute." I turned my gaze around the room to look for the medicine box.

"No need! Mom is fine! Quickly change your clothes there and please take care of Miku ...!" mother's orders. It seems, he did not want to be treated by me. Well, there's nothing I can do right now but obey his orders.

"Well, Mom." I walked out of the room carrying a deep sense of disappointment and guilt. I was disappointed that my mother didn't want me to treat. On the other hand, I felt guilty for being a bad child in the eyes of mother. I shouldn't have been born in this world.

I opened the door to my room and stepped inside. Step by step I walked towards the closet where I kept all my precious clothes. After a long time looking for the right clothes to wear at this time, I immediately took it. I took it carefully so that the folds of the clothes on it remained neat and did not fall.

When I was about to wear clothes, somehow my attention was attracted to the mirror glass located not far from where I was at this time. I approached the mirror that reflected my face at this moment. I approached the mirror and asked my reflection, "Hey, what's wrong with you? Why are you so hated here? What did you do that your mother wouldn't help you?" I asked with an annoyed face.

But not even answering. He even imitated the expression of my face. "Hey, answer!" I beat the mirror with anger. My punch gradually lost steam as this heartache arose. I was crying in front of the mirror. My shadow in the mirror also cried as if I felt my sadness here. Yeah, I know I'm crazy now. But, my madness this is someone's fault.

About fifteen minutes had passed, I decided to stop crying even though my heart still felt very sad. My eyes seemed to want to shed tears and begin my cry once more. "Hhhh ...." But, as Rin said. 'There is no point in crying, it is better to get up and be happy. Because life is short, we cannot always dissolve in sadness.' The motivational words he gave back then I still remember to this day. I think he's right. It is better that I accompany Miku to play instead of being sad like this.

I opened my hair pigtail and then opened my chest. However, from the side, I heard strange noises. "Enmm ... Heem ...." I don't care about it, maybe it's just a cat.

I was about to take off my shirt, but I stopped moving when I heard a knock on the window.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

I saw a hand knocking on my window. I just blinked my eyes in confusion. After the hand knocked, there appeared a handsome man in uniform with a face adorned with a smile. "Hello, A .. i ...!" the man then fell silent. He looked at me who was about to undress with a blank look.