AFTER YOU GO ~Story About Farrel~

How Strong to Try

Before dawn appeared to reveal its light, Farrel had already arrived at the train stop station he was riding. When Farrel got off the train, a cold chill rushed in through his pores.

Ah, this place is really cold.

Farrel tidied up the jacket he wore then walked looking for transportation that might have been operating. Sometimes Farrel was confused as to why it always happened to come home or go at night. It's time for people to sleep.

Hadeuh Farrel suddenly remembered on his pillow, regardless that Farrel returned to focus on Uwa's health.

Not long after, Farrel found an ojeg who was willing to drive him. Farrel's goal was a hospital.

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Arriving at the hospital, Farrel rushes to find the room Uwa occupied. Farrel had asked Ahmad over the phone.

Enter him in Uwa's room, there was Ahmad who faithfully accompanied his mother. Uwa is weakly rubbed with an infusion hose in her hand.

Slowly Farrel opened the door, apparently Ahmad was disturbed and opened his eyes. His smile grew as Farrel stood before him.

"Have you arrived?"

Farrel nodded then his gaze turned to his dearest Uwa.

"How is Uwa now?" ask Farrel without further ado. Oh really his heart ached to see Uwa lying weak helpless like that.

"Alhamdulillah is stable, I miss you, he said. Ah maybe I'm sick because nahan misses her like."

"Neuro." Farrel responded coldly to his cousin's joke.

Farrel stepped towards the side of the bed occupied by Uwa to shift the position that had been occupied by Ahmad. Ahmad was willing to shift, from the first he was willing to give up. Ahmad had always been a sidelined child if Farrel had gone home.

But his heart was relieved, Ahmad knew his mother must be very happy to see Farrel. Ahmad knew how unfortunately the mother of his nephew was.

Not wanting to wake the Uwa, Farrel did not say much and just stared at the face of the Uwa.

The woman who had been his mother's successor, Uwa's role was perfect. Farrel got enough affection from this woman.

Uwa was always the first person to wipe her back. Now what he saw, this woman who had always supported him was helpless. Oh I want it to feel like Farrel took his place as a patient.

"Your mother continues, she must be happy to see you here."

Farrell glanced at Ahmad, before looking back at Uwa.

"You noisy Mad, come out gih! Buy breakfast!"

Ahmad chuckles then leaves Farrel with his mother. He knew what his cousin meant.

After Ahmad's death, Farrel returned to focus on Uwa. At that moment, his gaze clashed with the woman who had just woken up from her sleep.

Smile expands instantly, grabbed by the weak hand that leads him to his forehead and rubbed gently.

"Farrel comes home Wa."

Uwa nodded weakly. "Sorry Uwa made you come all the way."

Uwa's voice was a little raucous.

Farrel shook his head then smiled gently, "Farrel kangen Uwa."

A speck of clear liquid appeared in the corner of the Uwa's eye. How much Uwa loved Farrel, Uwa was proud of his nephew's achievements and changes. But his heart is still not calm because Farrel has not found a substitute life companion Sofia.

"Why is Uwa silent? What's sick Wa?"

Farrel got closer to Uwa because Uwa was not usually silent after hearing the word miss from Farrel.

Suddenly Uwa changed her position to sit down, Farrel helped her.

"Let's sleep, don't get up!"

"Let's keep pegel, Rail." Uwa stared out the window.

Farrel followed the direction of his disciple and agreed to his wish.

After exiting the room, Farrel pushed the wheelchair he occupied slowly.

"Where is your workshop Rel?" ask Uwa.

"Alhamdulillah rame, Uwa cepet healed! Come with me to Jogja."

"Can?" asked Uwa again this time very excited.

Farrel smiled even though he was invisible to his disciple, "Why can't you? Yes you can."

"Let's be weird, you've never been to Jogja before."

"Wa's time anyway?" Farrel scratched his nape while laughing at a glance.

"Well, right? Uwa doesn't know where you live? How's the workshop? Because Uwa has never been there."

Farrel stopped pushing Uwa, then changed his position to crouch in front of his disciple.

"Sorry Farrel, now the important Uwa is healed. Later we go to Jogja with Ahmad, Siti also pounded me. I'll be here until Uwa recovers and then we leave." said Farrel with a gentle smile.

Uwa nodded happily, at least she would know of her nephew's life elsewhere.

Farrel pushed back the wheelchair, "uh but Uwa was still surprised you were convinced, is there anything you want to know to Uwa there?"

Farrel was stunned for a moment, "Yes many I will know, my employees. Uwa doesn't know them yet."

"Oh yes." Uwa laughed even though she was weak. Farrel was happy to see her laughing, so he smiled.

"By the way, is your employee a girl? who knows if there's a soul mate you're stuck there."

Uh.

Farrel suddenly remembered Hanun. No. .. no .... Farrel shook his head strongly, how could he remember that person whom he even considered insignificant. After all Hanun was not his employee, Hanun was just a thief who was paying for his mistake.

At least that's what Farrel thinks for the beautiful hair Raihanun.

"There is, but only an apprentice."

Farrel and his wife take a walk around a hospital that is still quiet. They exchanged stories and let go of longing.

"Oh yes Rel, some time ago Uwa met Mama Haji. He asked your news, if you have time to play to the pesantren. Let Ahmad be with." Uwa was very careful when discussing things he considered sensitive for Farrel.

Farrel smiled faintly, "inshaalloh Wa."

Uwa seems happy, Farrel is not as cold as usual when discussing pesantren. Farrell has changed a lot. Uwa was relieved.

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Two weeks later Uwa's condition was much better and even went home. The family regrouped with joy.

Today Farrel and Ahmad went to the pesantren. The atmosphere that was still the same as before made strange vibrations in Farrel reappear, a piercing pain slowly felt in his heart. Farrel clenched his palms to strengthen the body that now goes hand in hand with Ahmad down one by one kobong to arrive at the residence of Mama Haji.

"You're okay, aren't you?" Ahmad realized something was wrong with Farrel until he tried to get him to talk after a few steps. Farrel replied with a nod.

I don't know until when Farrel kept being haunted by this feeling. No matter how hard Farrel tried to keep the guilt was already rooted in his heart.

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