About Dad, Love, And His Friends

Fear of Losing

"How the hell! You said you weren't jealous?"ask Enny still laughing.

"I don't think a friend would want to do something like that!"

"When did that happen?"

"That means he's been beating the war drums! But Asrul's son is good, he won't do such a thing.I'm sure of it!"

"Did Asrul have a girlfriend?"ask Enny to move on to another topic.

"That question has entered her prepacy area, I never asked her.But as far as I'm concerned she doesn't have a girl."

"Speed! My best friend Arumi is also single."

"I mean want to match their match, is that it?"

"Yes! Who knows if they're a match?"

"I don't like projects like that!"

"That's a project?"

Rayyan chuckled,"Hahaha ... Whatever you call it, I don't like doing it!"

"What's wrong?"ask Enny.

"Being a matchmaker it takes a strong mental.Ready to be a pea skin and willing to be a scapegoat."

"meaning?"

"When happy, many couples who forget the matchmaker's share like beans forget the skin.But when disappointed, the matchmaker is targeted and used as a scapegoat."

"Where is the profit?"continued Rayyan.

"Does every doing something have to see its loss profit?"

"Sure! God gave man reason one of his functions for it.Whatever action to be performed must consider both aspects."

"Enny, even though Asrul and Arumi are in a match, I hope it's not because they're being mugged.Let them both find love in their own way." Rayyan continued.

Inevitably Enny had to agree to what Rayyan said, because he felt he had no gap to deny.

Besides being handsome and good Rayyan also has a brilliant mindset, but why is love reluctant to come? enny's heart cries out again.

***

Like last night, Rayyan also took Enny to the city park after picking her up from campus.Lately the two togetherness is getting more intense.

Almost a month Rayyan had been mengurutinkan themselves to bring Enny.Sometimes immediately drive her home, but sometimes Rayyan invites Enny to spend time in the park, as today.

"Yes! By taking me every day, why not interfere with your other activities?"enny asked after the two sat in the garden.

"It is precisely my passion in doing other activities will be disturbed if you do not meet with you."

Enny smiled while enjoying the dimsum that Rayyan had to buy two servings and two bottles of mineral water before they went to the park.

"Koq nanya like that? Don't-don't you feel disturbed." Rayyan continued.

"Yes! As long as you do not feel troubled, I love to be picked up and delivered with you, I honestly feel comfortable next to you.But you also have to remember in the next few months you will go to college,so like you said before, of course you have to prepare many things including costs."

"If every day you spend time with me, I'm afraid you can't fulfill it!"connect Enny.

"Enny, I have a little savings.God willing enough for college entrance fees and fees for the next four semesters, the rest of which I will go to college while working."

"What are your ideals Yan?"ask Enny.

Rayyan did not immediately answer.Rayyan looked at Enny first.

Enny smiled.

"Create ...?"ask Enny rada jokingly.

"I want to have a child with you!"rayyan replied seriously.He did not care about Enny's gesture who seemed to be joking.

"Create ...?"asked Enny again by remaining half-joking.He also did not care about Rayyan's eyes that seemed to demand him to be serious.

"I want to be happy with you!"rayyan replied with a serious face, not wanting to lose.

"Create ...?"ask Enny keep joking.He also does not want to lose.

"I want to live and die with you!"

"Create ...?"

Rayyan was silent, not trying to answer him again, but her eyes still looked at Enny sharply.

Stared at like that, Johnny felt clumsy and misbehaved.

"Yes! Your eyes Yan!"enny said as she waved her hands close to Rayyan's eyes.

Rayyan did not care.He kept staring at Enny sharply.

Enny was unable to challenge the eye, he lowered his head to hide his face on both knees.His long black hair that always looked like it was being rebonded it fell down to help his hide.

"Yes! I can't be looked at like that." said Enny while maintaining her position, bowing down.

Rayyan did not budge, but remained in her position, looking at Enny even though the one she was looking at had buried her face to her knees.

"Am I wrong Yan?"ask Enny to wait.

"You think?"answer Rayyan flatly.

"Yes! Maybe I was wrong for not taking your words seriously."

"No Enny! I'm not looking at you for that mistake, I'm doing it because I'm afraid of losing you!"

"Even though we are not lovers, why every time you are with you the fear of loss always haunts my mind." Rayyan continued.

Enny lifted her face and looked at Rayyan who no longer looked at her like that.After feeling the same, even though the seed of love had not grown for Rayyan, but she was also afraid of losing the man.

"Yes! Take me home!"pinta Enny with eyes that seemed to have been shrouded in cloudiness.

Enny does not want to cry in front of Rayyan.Enny does not want to look fragile in his eyes.He wants to look strong with all the decisions he takes about their relationship.

***

Three days after their last meeting, Rayyan never once met the girl again.Enny was never in the usual place he waited when Rayyan picked her up.

This morning Rayyan tried to come faster so as not to miss like the day before.But the effort he did was still in vain,Enny nothing seemed to be waiting as he hoped.

Am I first angkot?thought Rayyan.But impossible, he arrived even before a single angkot passed by at that place

Where's Enny? Is he trying to avoid me? What mistake did I make that he did all this? Various kinds of questions disturb Rayyan's mind that he can not solve.

With a deep sense of disappointment, Rayyan left the place after suspecting Enny would not come again.

The matic train that he was driving drove in an addressless direction.With an erratic mind, he did not realize that he had traced an endless path.

After remembering his plan to meet Enny at the current campus, then he realized that he had gone a long way.Rayyan turned his train back to the direction he had come.

Rayyan deliberately took a position a little far from the campus gate.He did not want his presence made Enny surprised if it was too close to the gate.Keven so Rayyan still set the ideal distance in order to still be able to recognize Enny on her way out of the campus.

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