A Light Fountain

Anxiety and doubt

"You crying??" ask Assena.

But Yumna kept quiet, there was no word from her.

"You crying again??" assena asked again, after she got up to sit her body. Staring at the body of his cousin who was curled back to him.

Yumna, who was caught crying, could not hide it anymore. He rubbed his cheek with the back of his hand, then got up to sit down.

Although the room with a dim light alone, but can still be seen the rest of the tears on Yumna's cheeks.

"Why are you crying?" for the third time Assena voiced the same question. He stared at the face of Yumna who was now sitting opposite him.

"I can't stop crying when I remember". Lirih Yumna who returned sobbed and bowed. Although the light was dark, but he did not dare to show his face. He felt so ashamed of his face.

Assena had guessed that was the reason. He breathed in with his eyes closed. Honestly, he felt sorry for Yumna, but he could do nothing.

And behold, the jolly Yumna is now in her sorrow.

"I see, it won't be that easy to forget. But I don't want to see you keep crying like this." Said Assena who was still staring at Yumna.

"You're right, it's not easy. I already hate him, but if I remember how he betrayed me. It hurts so much..." Yumna still sobbed and did not dare to raise her face.

"How not, I've been with him since he sat in high school. We've been in a relationship for almost three years." Yumna continued, he gave a pause. Because honestly it's so hard to bring it up.

"But it's that easy he betrayed me......"

"I think.. I think I'm a bar to him. As I consider it so meaningful..." Yumna continued to speak still sobbing. Until not infrequently he pauses every word, because it holds back his stuffing.

Again, Assena looked on pity.

Suddenly he remembered Petter. "Bringing a relationship for three years alone does not guarantee loyalty. What else am I with Petter who only knew in a short time? Do I have to believe that he's coming back? Should I wait for him? Or should I stop hoping?" Assena was deepened, anxiety encircling her heart. Doubt infiltrated his mind. It has to be how? what he feared was that he would feel pain like Yumna if he still wished for Petter and if in reality Petter would not return or be unfaithful to him.

He grew increasingly bitter, when he saw Yumna who did not stop crying as a result of being betrayed like that.

Yumna's still-sounding sobbing voice resuscitated Assena from her troubled mind.

Assena is aware that she has to put her feelings aside, the most important thing now is to calm her cousin down.

"I beg you not to cry anymore. I'm also sad to see you like this." Assena's two outstretched hands touched both of Yumna's shoulders, and gave a swipe there. As if Assena wanted to give her peace.

"I myself don't want this, even I hate myself who doesn't stop crying over that damn guy." Yumna's voice was heard suppressing the words of her last passage. It was as if a deep hatred.

It seems like the night will be long for them. For Yumna with all her disappointment, also for Assena who had to accompany her.

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The same night, in the same place as someone different.

Altur was sitting on the edge of his bed. For a moment he stood up, then walked back and forth and returned again to sit down. So next.

Altur was agitated, occasionally staring at his phone screen. Like looking back at what's on his phone's screen.

"How's this? Do I have to go see him?" Sluggishly.

Yes, Altur was thinking about Jessy's invitation to meet. And that time is tomorrow Saturday night.

How he's not fidgeting, this is the first time he's met a girl, or it could be his first date with a girl. Although this is not his desire, but it seems he did not have to refuse the invitation of a sweet girl like Jessy.

Altur is not a man who likes to look for opportunities, he just pity Jessy. If other men would probably gladly accept such a sweet girl's invitation and would take advantage of it. But Altur had no such thoughts. If he had to decide to meet the girl, he was sincere in considering her a friend.

It felt like Altur was so tired of thinking about his meeting plan with Jessy. And tomorrow there's still time to think about it.

Both of his eyes also felt tired, until it was seen open not wide. Then he decided to sleep, lay on the bed, it did not take long he fell asleep soundly.

**

After a long night, Yumna accompanied in her grief.

Assena blinked her eyes as the sunlight coming through the window slit hit her face. He rubbed his eyes, then glanced at the wall clock. It turned out to be 08:00 in the morning.

Today is saturday. Today is a college holiday, because Saturdays and Sundays are his holidays.

He glanced at Yumna who was still sound asleep beside him. Assena commented with a smile, "Surely she was tired from crying all night."

Actually, he was still sleepy and tired, but he wanted to see the state of his father. He got out of his bed, walked to the bathroom to wash his face.

Then he proceeded to get out of his room, and down one by one the stairs.

In the kitchen, he found Evelin preparing breakfast. Also seen at the dining table Isabella was sitting eating breakfast, with already wearing her school uniform. It's different with Assena. Isabella who is still in elementary school, Saturday is still her schedule to go to school.

"Good morning, dear.." Sapa Evelin, he took the time to raise his gaze to review her smile. Even though his hands were busy arranging food on the table.

"Isn't this a college day??" ask Evelin.

Assena just nodded. Then his gaze was shifted to a bowl of porridge that was already on the tray. He knew it was for his father.

"What's that for dad?" assena asked, staring at the porridge then looked at Evelin.

"Yes, this is for me, are you going to line it up again?" Evelin while reviewing the smile, he could already expect it.

Assena nodded, and walked over to get a tray of porridge and a tall glass of water.

Then he walked to his father's room. A moment after the door that was not tightly closed, he pushed. Arkan was sitting on his bed.

The pale, wrinkled face smiled at his eldest daughter.

Assena smiled at her father's warm smile. Although the smile was only painted on Arkan's pale lips, Assena saw it as the most beautiful smile like the bright morning sun. How not, after he saw his father's condition deteriorating in the last few days. Creating a sense of overwhelming anxiety and fear struck. And when he saw his father smiling like this, Assena was very happy.

"Dad I brought you breakfast." Assena stepped closer.

After Assena put her body on the edge of her father's bed. "How are you today?" tanyakanya.

"Good dad baby, especially if you see your daughter coming here you feel better." Arkan smiled looking at Assena's face.