Worshiping Mother, Forgetting Daddy

The world was too heavy for Mother, she even made her ask for forgiveness again

No no no no

The sound of a knife that collided with the wooden cutting board, was heard in the kitchen.

unpretentious to the sound of stir frying vegetables in the pan.

for days Kinan and his mother kept quiet.

The two of them were still helping each other, just that there wasn't much conversation going on between the two.

Kinan was silent looking at his fingers that kept cutting the carrot, while the mother was still busy sauteing.

“Bu”call Kinan smooth, his voice sounds pean calling the mother who is still silent.

occasionally Kinan glanced at his mother, hoping that the two of them would meet.

Still, the mother was busy with herself, as if Kinan was not there

”Bu, sorry-“

”later temenin Mother to the garden yah”sela the Mother, making Kinan silent for a moment.

Then, he can answer the mother's invitation by nodding assent.

Kinan smiled slightly, at least this time the mother denied it.

Long time passed,

Kinan now only looked at the back of the Mother walking in front of him.

he smiled at Aldo, who was held by his mother.

step by step, step by step,

the two passed by slowly and cautiously.

until finally the mother stopped her steps, Kinan looked at the Mother who now lowered the sister from her sling.

“Kinan, take care of ya. I want to clean the garden first”ucap Mother slowly without looking at Kinan.

then Kinan grabbed the brother's arm, and he held it tightly.

While herding her sister, she followed in the footsteps of her mother.

standing behind him who was now busy cleaning the grass with the machete.

Kinan is haunted, he noticed the temple of the mother who poured sweat

”Mothers didn't cape?”ask Kinan

”enggak, you go to the hut aja, let this late mother first”ucap the mother, then Kinan also walked to the wooden hut that is not far from the lake.

The little girl sat herself down,

from the hut, he looked at the mother who continued to move non-stop.

Kasian, mom.

Say it in the heart.

Slowly, time is running.

finally the mother approached him and sat down beside him.

kinan lowered his head in silence, his fingers interlaced uneasily.

The mother looked at him, then heard a sigh from the side of the woman's lips

”Kinan”ucap the mother slowly, there is a pause from her.

“Sorry mother ya”hereinafter, making Kinan now look towards the mother.

from his gaze, I can see how the world revolves in the eyeballs that look at the sky.

“Should be mother did not get angry with you, but you are not wrong anything”ucap the Mother again, Kinan who heard it can only be silent.

The little girl was feeling upset, instead of being satisfied with her mother's forgiveness, but she felt even more guilty.

The world was too hard for her mother, she made her ask for forgiveness again.

“Mother also apologized for lying”ucap the Mother, making Kinan back down staring at her swinging legs.

“Actually father does not work out of town, but father and mother mutuskan to split”ucap mother again.

I don't know what happened, Kinan's heart felt stifled. His chest became claustrophobic just like someone pounding his chest with wood.

His eyes were trembling at the words of his mother

”and I don't know anymore how to explain to you”as well as the voice of the mother who now sounds softly withholding a hug.

“Nothing bu”sahut Kinan slowly, then he looked up at the mother who was watching him.

”for as long as there is a mother, Kinan is nothing no matter what the circumstances of”ucap Kinan again, making the mother unable to hold back.

The body of the princess,

his chin resting on the top of the princess's head, made Kinan able to feel the mother's trembling as unwillingly.

Let it go, let it go.

inwardly, Kinan continued to say that this was the best.

just let the mother complain more to the world, let the whole full know how fragile the mother has been.

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Now, the three are back home.

with a good feeling, Kinan held hands with his mother.

Lightweight,

today the steps are light, though,

I don't know what it was, but it felt like the burden he felt was almost unfeeling.

At least for today it is okay he is happy, although he will return to betting with tomorrow.

at least today passed comfortably.

She looked at the smile of her mother. Which is the thing he likes to look at most every day.

“Mother”call Kinan, and she can see her mother saying it with a smile

”engga nothing hehe”sutu again while shaking his head.

the three walked for a long time, finally they reached the house.

their shelter all this time,

the most comfortable place after the embrace of loved ones.

Kinan threw his body on the sofa, and,

the mother led her sister to the bathroom.

her net was staring at the ceiling of the living room.

Usually the father would sit here watching the news on television.

but let alone his presence, though,

his clothes were no longer in the closet.

All that was left was his jacket hanging in the kitchen, he said,

still smelling the father's body, though,

at least there are things that make it able to treat his longing.

Because he also does not know for sure when the father will come home, it could be tomorrow, tomorrow, or many years to come.

“Kinan, wash your feet first”

the little girl was shocked to hear the cry of the mother from the bathroom, she who was now sitting down moved towards the bathroom.

And there she could see her mother bathing her sister,

usually the father will hold the body of the sister, then the mother will clean her body.

But now, Aldo inevitably rested his hands on the mother's shoulders, making the clothes a little wet because of it.

kinan sighed, again he missed the figure of the father who he had not met for days.

however, he was more grateful because his sister was no longer crying for the existence of the head of the family.

Kinan returned to the living room, from the threshold between the living room and the living room, he could see a picture frame of them and their family taking pictures together.

At least there's something left.

he said in his heart.

Anyway, life goes on.

and it will continue to live tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and beyond.

so, drag on with the sadness will be the same.

in the end, he had to move forward, though,

face what comes next.

Kinan only hoped, hopefully, that he could become an adult, so that he could quickly do all he could to help his mother.

It felt like he was slashed to see sweat flowing from the forehead towards the mother's temple,

he did it for a bite of rice and school fees.

It seemed, thousands of thanks were also lacking for him to utter.