Wiry

01. Grieved

ANA...... ANA." shouted someone from afar.

"ANAAAAA.

"Yes.." look at the woman who had been called by her name.

"Let's... Are you all right?" ask the person who called the woman named Ana earlier with a face full of worry

"Mama??" it looked like the woman named Ana was confused as she saw what she should not have seen in this world

"Ah... Thank goodness you're okay, mama just wanted to visit ana for a while, later mama had to go back there again. Ana's fine here, mama won't go far from ana so don't worry about mama ya ana" said the woman named mama with a half-crying face but seemed to smile sweetly which made the woman named Ana still not move in the slightest

".........."  ana was swept away in a perplexing sense, ana feels strange with her feelings like there are things she should not say and longs deeply for the person in front of her. Ana felt pain, pain, upset, longing and tightness at the same time

"Ana.." said the woman woke Ana who had been staring at her with a surprised face.

"Ma..... Ma...." said slowly with a face that had been shed tears while looking at the entire state of the woman in front of him

"Why don't you wear sandals? Doesn't it hurt to walk or run around not wearing footwear?, mama can't be like this anymore. This is my sandals first, ana it does not matter if ana does not use sandals, mama pakelah" continued ana while giving and putting her joints to the woman

Yes since then the woman did not wear footwear at all somehow the woman named mama looked very sad and rushed

"Eumm mama forgot about mama's hurry earlier" she replied with a gentle smile

"What is Mom doing here? Didn't my mom leave?" ask ana curiously

"Let's.... (Switch your head gently) mama want to take some things at home that are left behind, because the mama wants to go far so it needs a lot of stuff" he replied with a warm smile

"Ma... Didn't you want to take Anna away with you mom?, ana also wants to come with you to go!!" pinta ana doesn't want her mom to go far away from her

"Sorry ana mama can not take ana, let alone go with mama, mama tau ana strong child, without mama ana can certainly live life well, mama always doain ana from afar. Mama does not go far away when mama is always there beside ana" said the woman with eyes that glistened while holding tightly to both hands ana who was shaking earlier

"Alright, sorry if ana asked for it, it's just that the world is too difficult for ana to live without mama" said Ana with full pain in her eyes who was expecting someone beside her

"Mama tau ana is very difficult, no one wants to hear her complaints, no one knows she is lonely, alone in the mind and holding back tears every day. Mama knows everything that ana feels that's why mama came today to see ana, mama wants ana forget all the pain ana about mama, pain ana about this life, do not make the small space ana becomes increasingly narrow with thoughts that only hurt ana more deeply, mama wants ana can be happier living life, ana is not alone, there is papa, bang anggi, and, bang deden, dedi, and other ana friends." said mama who was cut by ana.

"But..... They..." cut back hesitantly saying it with a slightly irritated and sad look on his face.

"Huuff..... Ana you just need to be open to them, tell them all your complaints, mama sure they will understand and listen well, he said, and they are not always by your side because they also have their own lives, so you only doubt them and even plant a wall every day to them, he said, ana don't get colder on the world or you'll freeze, try to be a little warmer not just outside but inside you too" continued mama more firmly on ana. Trying to convince ana that her heart was already like ice cubes.it was very cold.

"............." ana who dissolves in thought to be unable to say the word, all that her mother said was true but like ana wanted to deny it but she did not know how

"Have you gone if you have brought the necessary items, thank you for coming, be careful on the road, please mama do not come again like this or ana will miss more" said Ana lowered her head because she hesitated to see the eyes of her mother

"Eum... Well, if that's what you want, I'm sorry.... Mama go first yes" replied the woman as she stepped away from ana who was seen holding back tears from falling, as well as herself who held back tears until her eyes turned red, which she said, step by step that was very hard for him.

Kriiing....... Cring..... Crings...... (Anna hp alarm sounds)

"Eukkkkp.... Eum.... Huwaaaaahhhhh" ana who just woke up from her sleep

"Eukhh what is this? I cried?? Aaahhh must be because of that dream. It sucks!" he murmured while wiping away his flowing tears without him noticing

On Monday, at 8 am it is time for ana to start working again, ana with the real name Berliana Suherman son of Father Named Suherman and Mother named Ade Nendah. He is the 3rd of 4 children he has 2 brothers named Anggi Suherman and Deden Suherman and has 1 sister named Dedi Suherman, arguably ana is the only daughter.

ana works in the store as a shopkeeper at one of the Mobile Accessories stores with 3 other people, namely gendis, tanti and lusi. According to Ana work here included in the list of boring in her life, if in a day you can work in 3 places maybe she will do it. But ana can't do it because finding a job is harder than making people fall in love with her let alone this is an Indonesian country that is not like South Korea which provides a lot of part time places. 

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"Ana you will be the cashier today" said gendis who had previously been a cashier but because if he did not enter it would be very difficult for us who do not know how to become a cashier, but because if he did not enter it would be very difficult for us who do not know how to become a cashier, because of that, we were assigned by superiors to learn to be a cashier guard for a week

"Eum" said Ana briefly with a face looking lazy and tired

gendis is the one who brought ana into this work because gendis is temen ana since Junior High together and included in the members of EDAN4 made erna since Junior High along with 2 other people, including 2 others, gendis includes friends and family in ana's life who may not realize it.

Ding... (WA Message Enter)

"Ana the cave wants to be just like you" - nia

"what?" - ana

"But you don't feel good and you want to refuse it so you accept him to be your girlfriend, because you also want to try to walkin the same he might your feelings can grow the same he, because you also want to, but in fact, you can grow too, how is na?" - nia

"Well, if you don't like how anymore, the feeling can't be forced" ana

"Yes anyway, tapikan him the same people we na, want to tell you like it can make him hurt na" - nia

"If you know the end is so, why do you give hope to him? With you receiving love he's not getting deeper?" -ana

"And the cave wants to try na, the feeling of the cave changes with him, but in fact the more here and the more complicated the cave" -nia

"Nia, gua tau you mean well, but remember the person who eli says is uncomfortable, he has a heart and feelings not an inanimate object or a puppet he is human if you want to experiment not the heart, moreover, someone who sincerely likes you" -ana

"Yes the hell you really, how to make the cave nanya you how to mutusin him without painin him na?" - nia

"The cave is confused, what the cave says gini aja ya na" - nia

"Sorry ka not nia does not like the brother but nia actually nganggep that brother as sister nia, senior brother in a good job as nia doang no more. Nia has tried to give a chance for nia to like her sister but in fact nia emang just nganggep sister as nia aja sister, nia aja, not that nia wants to hurt sister but nia really can not live this relationship any longer with sister, I hope you know what nia means, again nia apologize" - nia

"So many times ya na" - nia

"Eum is decent, but it's better if you say directly the same to him, talking directly personally is the most polite way let alone he's a person who is close to you" - ana

"Eumm yes too but it's really not so gpp?" - nia

"eum grotto kalo kalo you say with your honest heart with a polite word surely he will understand you, you know, if he does not understand it is also your fault because you give the same hope he during the courtship and now he becomes more like you" - ana

"Let's end as soon as he doesn't fall too deep again, don't do something if it's not with a sincere heart or it will hurt someone else's heart, and try to think first before making a decision or action look from two sides not only from one side, eyes only two why only see from one eye?, remember ga nia" - ana

"Yes, sorry.." - nia.

"Gua knows the cave is wrong, the cave will not be kayak gini again, thanks to his advice, emang ana doang deh the best muahh" - nia

"Love ana (emotic love, affection, kiss)" - nia

"Don't apologize to the cave, you broke your heart" - ana

"Yes yes" - nia

"A cave so relieved if you have asked the same you na, the cave will not hesitate anymore" - nia

"Yes" - ana

"Hehe"- nia

.......

"Especially what this child does sometimes he is very pretentious but in fact even like a child, I hope he can finish it well" Ana thought in her heart

Nia he was ana's friend since childhood but had separated when ana was 5 years old and met again when they entered the same Junior High School, which was, nia is the one who understands ana the most, but she knows someone who doesn't like her heart to be known by others, maybe because it is also what makes nia prefer silence and better not to know anything. Nia is also one of Ana's friends who entered into the EDAN 4 grub with gendis and one other person.

Actually asking for advice and venting like this often happens to ana all friends who know the ana policy will continue to believe in ana's speech and the advice that ana gives them. including EDAN4 who strongly believes in ana even the slightest thing that disturbs their minds, they will ask Ana and ask for her advice.

Because this is also his friend whenever if they are sad they will remember ana for the first time. Ana is even the person with the nickname of the best listener and a very comfortable person to confide in when first meeting.

But on the contrary for ana, maybe she is a good listener for everyone but no one can listen to all her heart. Because this is also what makes Ana sometimes become cooler but can not blame anyone.

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"Aisshh was very sleepy yak huwaaahhh.." said ana who was holding back her sleepiness.

"Emang you don't sleep semalem?" ask gendis because she saw ana who kept yawning

"Ana mah every day is also sleepy mah" cetus tanti snatched the conversation by glancing a little ana

"..........."