Why Don't You Hate Me..?

Episode 17's

Khenin POVs

Today my school is off, I am still in the room sitting on my prayer mat with my face still attached to my body from the morning prayer. I read the letters of Yasin and the holy verses of the Qur'an because my heart was not calm, I don't know since last night I kept thinking about my late parents and I just remembered that today coincided with the date and month that the accident occurred that had claimed the lives of both my parents.

Papa, Mama may you be calm and happy in heaven. My prayer.

I continued to read the holy verses until my ears heard a noise like the sound of slamming things falling on the floor. I immediately folded my face after finishing the recitation of the holy verse I read. Slowly my feet stepped out of the room, I realized that the noise was coming from Eagle's room when I saw Henry and Nisa's mother and a doctor coming into the room of Eagle's sister who was next to my room.

I felt confused and curious, I also ventured to continue my footsteps that had been restrained, approached and entered the room Eagle Brother. I stared around the room of the Eagle that had fallen apart, shards of stuff strewn everywhere. I saw Brother Eagle sitting on the floor leaning against the corner of the wall of the room with his hands covered with blood, and, there was Henry and a doctor nearby while Nisa's mother was crying hugging Eagle's brother whose gaze was empty and her lips were unceasingly uttering sentences. "I'm sorry.I didn't intentionally,".

From there I realized that Brother Eagle was really depressed due to the accident that had claimed the lives of my parents. I did not feel my tears flowing, the incident still remembered clearly in my mind, so clear that it was difficult for me to forget it even a little.

My hands were shaking, cold sweat was already flowing down my forehead. "Hiks...hiks....." I clenched my mouth crying softly and immediately came out of the Eagle's room. I took a quick step back to my room, I had to calm myself down before the depression of fear that I was also experiencing like that Eagle Brother naturally reappeared.

"I'm afraid of Ma, Pa...hiks...hiks," Tangisku grabbed the bed sheet beside me because I was sitting on the floor next to the bed.

"Oh my god, why Non," Worried that the Sumi bi had just entered my room, the middle-aged woman immediately hugged me tightly. "There's nothing non don't cry..there's aunty here,”.

"Dira fear ma..pa...don't leave Dira...." I was crying more, lucky that my crying voice was held in the middle-aged woman until it was not heard coming out of the room.

Long bi Sumi was silent letting me cry in her arms until she slowly let go of her embrace when she saw myself a little calm and my crying subsided. "Drink non, let it calm down," Bi Sumi gave water in a glass. I drank it immediately too.

"Thank you bi" I still tried to calm my heart and mind. I looked at the middle-aged woman beside me, her hands raised rubbing the sweat on my forehead with the tissue she just picked up.

"Non is okay?" Tanya lirih bi sumi, I shook my head it felt like my body was very weak. Lucky depression this time is not excessive, first when I relapse experienced trauma I can faint. "What's the Non?" Bi Sumi asked me worried looking at me looking sincerity in her eyes like my mother Nisa's sincerity to me.

"I miss my parents bi," I answered not wanting bi Sumi to know why I was crying.

"Worship Non, if you miss. Aunty if misses aunty child is also often crying but aunty does not want to be too late later pity aunty's child," said bi Sumi his hand raised tucked some strands of my hair that decomposed, and I was not happy, to the back of the ear then the touch of her hand gently caressed my head. "Often read al-fatihah non if you remember the parents of non Khenin," He said reminded me and I nodded and then spread my head on the edge of the bed with my body still sitting on the floor.

"Yes, don't be sad anymore, if there's anything call aunt. Aunty wants to prepare breakfast first," said bi Sumi I angguki then he slowly came out of my room.

The day started in the afternoon when I came out of the room when my stomach started to sound because from morning, I didn't eat anything. I stepped out of the room and glimpsed at the room of the Eagle who looked lonely after the departure of the doctor. "Surely Brother Eagle is still asleep after taking the medicine from the doctor" I said in my heart.

Bi Sumi this afternoon had returned to my room and said that every year on the same date and month as today, brother Eagle always experienced something like this until Henry and Mama Nisa did not go out of the house at all.

I continued my steps down the stairs until when I wanted to go to the dinner table, I vaguely heard the talk of Henry and Nisa's mother. I also stepped in to follow the origin of their voices until I was now in front of the door of Henry's work room that was not closed.

"We must how else pa, so that every time on the same date and month this Eagle depression does not recur," said Nisa's mother crying.

"I also don't know ma, we should pray for the Eagle to heal" Seen Om Henry tried to calm Mama Nisa. "If there is no date and the same month as the accident," said Om Henry made me a little jerked and unconsciously my lips said the last sentence om Henry to mama Nisa.

"If there is no date and the same month as today, surely Papa and my mother are still alive om...." My voice began to sob and made the two men turn at once towards me who was standing near the door of Henry's study.

"Son...." Henry approached me too. "Don't you know?" Ask Henry to hold my shoulder, while Nisa's mom takes me into her arms.

I was still sobbing trying to endure my sadness. "From the beginning of seeing Brother Eagle, I know om, I recognize him. He was the same brother who caused the accident until my parents were gone" I replied, making both of them feel even more guilty.

Henry now took my hand. "If you will, I will kneel before you now son so that you will forgive the wrongs my son has made" The despair and guilt of the middle-aged man is obvious.

"Don't om" I cried when Henry had bent his knees before me and I immediately aligned my body with Henry to bend my knees, this is not what I wanted, a good man whom I consider to be my late papa's successor is on his knees apologizing to me for his son's mistake.

"We were also so shocked when our only child had left both of your parents dead and what was most surprising to us was that both of your parents were our best friends who had helped us so much," It was seen that Henry's eyelids had passed droplets of clear liquid past his cheeks. The man who looked very handsome in his 50s was crying. "Elang has also been punished for his mistakes, from the accident he was depressed for a full year we took him to a psychiatrist and until now he has to control once a month" said Henry. "Elang has been trying to find your existence but we cover it because the doctor who handles the Eagle says it is better for the Eagle to forget his past and also yourself so that his depression does not get worse" Imbuh om Henry.

"I'm sorry for our son's mistake, baby," Mama Nisa, who was crying, now aligns her body with us.

"Om, ma. I've never had the slightest grudge against her even I love her Om, Ma," My answer is to calm the heart of a father and mother who are friends of both my parents who are sincerely apologizing for the mistakes of their children.

"Thank you son," the two of them hugged me tightly.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Seriate........

Hawk.: Why are you telling me today, where is the author?

Khenin : No longer busy author, traveling......

Eagle : Wander through🤔??

Khenin : Yes told his mother to wander nyari cheap cooking oil with emak² neighbor🤣🤣.

Eagle : Oh, my