When That Taste Is Present
EPISODE 63
Before pregnancy and miscarriage, Clarissa was already convicted by doctors that she was exposed to the mental disorder Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) Or commonly referred to as an anxiety disorder that causes her to always feel worried and anxious overuse.
Actually, Clarissa had experienced excessive anxiety disorder for a long time, but she could always hide her anxiety from her mother and Dafri.
However, the peak of his anxiety disorder was increasingly sticking to the surface when his relationship with Dafri was not sanctioned by their parents. Clarissa felt stressed, afraid, and anxious that her relationship with Dafri would end. Because Clarissa had loved Dafri so much for a long time.
Therefore, Clarissa was determined to invite Dafri to marry her quietly. That way, this anxiety and fear in his heart could be slightly gone. However, even so.. After Siri married, the anxiety was still there. Although Clarissa never showed it when she was with Dafri, it was at Mamanyah's house that witnessed how she expressed excessive anxiety, which was marked by Clarissa having trouble sleeping, shortness of breath, and difficulty in sleeping, headache, nausea to vomiting.
Seeing her son every night like that, made Siska suspicious and then took him to the doctor. From the results of the doctor's examination, they only found out that Clarissa had a mental disorder. At that time, the Doctor gave the medicine to Clarissa. But, even though Calrissa never took the medicine even though she always told her mother the medicine had been taken.
Until finally, when Dafri was betrothed to Chayra and they married, there was also the peak of Clarissa's anxiety became - so. He was afraid that Dafri would turn away from him and instead make men fall in love with Chayra. At that time, Clarissa was more sensitive, emotional and often angry for no reason. However, this is all only seen at home. Siska and her housemaid are always exposed to explosive anger - the blasts of Clarissa.
And it turns out, what Clarissa was afraid of finally happened as well. When Clarissa saw Dafri's spirit that began to love Chayra, Clarissa was very depressed. He called Mama Dafri and begged
so that Mama Dafri bless their relationship and he asked Mama Dafri to ask Dafri to divorce Chayra. At first there was a small fight between them. Mama Dafri remained in her stance. Clarissa who had run out of patience and panic at that moment just unpacked all about the marriage series they had done with words full of emotion and exploded - explosive. So that made Mama Dafri shocked and eventually fell unconscious.
Clarissa came to her senses seconds after she said the emotion-filled words to Dafri, and then she felt anxious again, afraid that Dafri knew that it was the trigger that made Mama Dafri lie weak in the ICU room.
Again and again what Clarissa feared came true. When Dafri finds out that Clarissa has caused her mother's death, Clarissa's mental illness worsens. Dafri had truly divorced her and no longer cared about her. That was the moment - the moment of decline for Clar remainsi. He was very depressed, stressed and like not the spirit of life anymore. Siska who was worried to see her child like that was looking for a way so that Dafri could return to marry Clarissa by making up stories that Calrissa had pregnant her son Dafri.
However, many times Clarissa again slumped into the same hole. Although she was briefly happy with her pregnancy, but it turns out the happy news did not last long. Clarissa had to accept the harsh reality again that her fetus was not developing properly and until she miscarried.
A few hours after being locked up, Clarissa who already knew what happened to her at that time, immediately fell silent. As if I couldn't say anything else. His mind drifted somewhere, his eyes blank. His face was pale and moody, his passion was lost. Siska tried to comfort and invite Clarissa to chat, but none of the words that came out of Siska's speech were not heard at all.
That's why, on the same day Siska invited Dafri to speak seriously at the hospital. Siska intends to ask Dafri for help to make Clarissa enjoy her life again.
Hearing the story of Mama Clarissa, made Dafri immediately stunned by surprise. Because Dafri did not know all along that the woman he had loved before had a mental disorder. And the disturbance has only gotten worse since she left Clarissa and preferred Chayra.
Dafri was concerned and pityed Clarissa. And also could not bear to see Mama Clarissa pleading to him to restore the spirit of Clarissa's life. Dafri agrees to Siska's request to comfort Clarissa and persuade her to take medicine.
"InshaAllah, Dafri will pay more attention to Clarissa. And most importantly, Dafri would persuade Clarissa to take the medicine" Dafri said upon agreeing to Siska's request.
"Thank you Dafri, and one more.. Mama also mintak help you not too show your affection with Chayra in front of Clarissa, either directly or by phone. Because Clarissa's current feelings were so sensitive, she couldn't accept and see it all. He was even willing to hurt himself the moment the disturbance appeared. Hence, Mama does not want Chayra to come home to you. Let him be where his parents used to be." continued Siska again at that time.
Dafri immediately fell silent, for a long time he was silent and seemed to be thinking long. On the one hand, he misses Chayra very much and wants to meet his wife. However, on the other hand he also has to take care of his mental health Clarissa. Because Dafri is also unlikely to let Clarissa get worse due to mental disorders.
"Dafri, Mama please. Even though you no longer love Clarissa. But at least you have mercy on him.. Give her a little attention from you so she feels more appreciated and cared for." ask Clarissa again.
"Yes, good Ma. Dafri will try to do what Mama asked for. But, if it's more than that... Sorry, a thousand times sorry, Dafri could not give any more to Clarissa. Dafri hoped Mama could understand" Dafri said.
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