Virgines

Sweetest sins

The cry of the blade again exploded hearing Gibran's words.

“how could I possibly know how she felt while she suddenly disappeared without saying anything to me. “ the blade held onto her chest that felt tight.

Gibran stood up and hugged the blade.

“I may not know what really happened. But I just want you to be able to live your long life without having to stumble by these things. Blah, you should know everyone in this world comes and goes, everything is without exception. And now all you can do is just move on and continue your life.” Gibran stroked the hair of the blade whose face was set on Gibran's chest.

Bar thinks maybe Gibran's words have a point. If only that day had never happened. Maybe it would be easier for him to get rid of Romi. But with the condition of him who is not virgin, how can he face his life now. He's not even worth anything anymore. But may he regret everything and hate Romi while Romi never forced him to do that. It was done of his own volition, because for too long he harbored his love for Romi.

The blade released Gibran's embrace and sat back down.

Gibran took out the Blades' stock box.

“eat first, you need to be strong to be able to stop your tears.” Gibran.

Gibran scooped the rice and pointed it at the mouth of the Blade.

“aku can be alone.” Answer Bar .

“already klo can own hunted eaten.” Persuade Gibran.

The blade grabbed the spoon and put the rice into his mouth. Then chew it and cry again. He remembered Romi.

Blade turning fast. “mati?” tanyakanya.

Gibran nodded. “iya dead. He is no more. Think so.”

The blade gulps water from a bottle belonging to the gibran.

Which is better, hating Romi who lost after sleeping with him or thinking he no longer exists. But still it will not make his pride back intact.

The blade bit his lips. She put her dry, wet cheeks back on because she was crying again.

“Just focus on the final exam and choose where to go to college. Stay home, mommy will pay for all your tuition fees. Just think about you from now on, don't think about anything else. You have to be able to get what you want. College, graduate and be what you want to be. Uncle is old, aunt is sickly because of your brother's actions, so you should be fine.” Gibran spoke at length as if he knew all the problems of the Blade.

The blade stared at Gibran.

“Bilah, can you follow my words?”

Gibran said as if bewitching Blah, it was strange that Gibran knew something about Blah and Romi. But the bar refused to ask that. For him only Romi and God knew about what happened at that time. That's all that Blah knows and Blah believes. So that the bar can restore his confidence even if he is no longer virgin.

And one thing that will continue to overshadow Blah's life is that the sin he has committed is the sweetest thing in his life, even though the burden he has to bear is very heavy. What if he gets married later. How he should explain to his parents. But apart from all that.. The events of that day were repeated in his memory.