urbanites

urban 04

megan yudistira is that you?

I admire myself in the makeup mirror of my salon

It's perfect in my opinion...

My hair finished being dyed straight and dangled long covering my chest..

Very beautiful minimalist makeup

No thick eyebrows like shinchan ...

No thick foundation and shading

Everything looks natural I hold my beautiful lips thick wrapped in this nude lipstick...

I suddenly thought of myself back in elementary school

my face is so in a poke

Perhaps the word today is bully

I was bullied by my friend...

Where I was the son of the founder of that school...

But with all humility my heart accepted the ridicule of my friend

That I got the class champion is not because of my brain but my father's position

How I was made fun of because my short, curly hair was like a bird's nest, my skin was dark and my face was not shining.

complete already with my fat body, making me a material plumbing my friend

I remember when my classmate had a birthday party at her house

Although I was invited, no one invited me to play or reprimanded me

They think of me as if I don't exist

How I was on class break

They were busy eating in the cafeteria and I stayed alone in the corner eating my food

No one looked at me and asked me to talk...

I don't have many friends

I'm just playing with my dad's staff mom

Maybe because I'm the school's founding son or because they're sorry I don't really have any friends...

I was really alone...

Miss megy..

Oh oh yeah ma sorry I daydreamed

Your treatment is done..

Oh well thank you dad

I am always satisfied with your service...

As I waited for my car in the parking valet

my eyes were fixed with a snack shop in front of the salon . I decided there.

Because my car hasn't come yet *I think...

When I was busy choosing a snack

There's a woman from behind reprimanding me..

"Megan ?

You're megan, right?

Oh ... iyah hmmm iyah mbak kok know my name ?

I'm your schoolmate I was lii.. Remember?

Ohhh hahaha hahah

(i laughed fakely looking at it

pretending to be happy to meet him)

Of course I remember

(my inner self certainly I remember you're an unlucky woman

one of the people who used to make fun of me)

Hmmm what's the news...?

Oh very good meg...

And you look amazing meg ..

Haha haha

(i laughed at the expression of Lii who looked at me in amazement)

You're so pretty and fashionable

I smiled at him too, seeing him

(Inwardly of course I am beautiful as a result of the ceaselessness of my salon treatments and exercise

I wear a set of chanel-branded office dresses

jennie blackpink or kristen stewart artist ambassador chanel

,This press can make me very elegant and cool)

Where do you work, Lii? How come it's here?

His face was cheerful and smiling...

(my inner what did you say? The general champion woman of my discolour works here ...

haha hahah what an absolute victory for me...

I laughed at him who he used to think I was a fool to capitalize on my father's position to be ranked class but now he can see I can produce a month's salary worth two digits a number that is very visible from my appearance now and he might just be able to make his monthly salary for a one-treatment payment at my salon)

And look how shabby and unkempt her clothes really are like 32 years old and I'm the opposite ..

Meg...

hmm iyah lii...

I-I.want to apologize.

We meet here...

Sorry why lii...

I-I used to make fun of you and friends 

You must be hurt by our behavior...

We were once just as small

Not enough for that problem...

Haha hahah you're right

(my mind but I know stupid .. although I was a child but I know that the act is very depraved and uncivilized ..)

But why did my heart suddenly melow to see him put on such a face

I may forgive you, but I can't forget it

How it keeps on ringing in my head

How that changed my character

I used to be a cheerful and sociable kid

But now I have a hard time trusting people and I'm very picky about making friends

Even people's compliments I can't respond to sincerely

You know that's all because of your behavior in our childhood...

I cried remembering that

My tears can't I can't hold any more makeup from my salon is a mess

I don't give a shit

I just wanted to express my feelings to this little friend of mine...

I went back to feeling my feelings

before speaking again

.

.

it's called bully ..

I'm a successful bully victim

Haha haha you lied now I'm fine ...

I've forgiven that for a long time...

You take it easy, Lii...

Meg ...

Really sorry ...

I didn't know you kept that feeling this deep...

If time could play out I'd like to go back to our childhood and be best friends with you...

I rubbed my cry with my finger

Never mind I hope I don't meet you or any of your other friends..

I'd go crazy remembering those bad memories ...

May there be a good life with all of us

Hmmm thanks for understanding

Excuse me, lii...

I stepped out of the shop to my car that was parked sweetly for me to drive..

One thing I realized

That I was the victim of the mockery my friend used to be

I can't change that situation

To be a part of me that I have to live with

I am a chosen person who is considered strong to live it

How I react to it is what matters

Not to get away from the world

It is precisely such a thing that makes me have to rise from the slump and show the world that I exist and only need to be appreciated by fellow humans..

I smiled proudly at myself through it.....