
I'm an ordinary person who doesn't know the future. So I tried as much as possible from the beginning. If the result is still disappointing, it means I have to be more patient again. At least I'm serious about living this life. And may my patience produce good results for the future. I wish it was.
Rain, see you again.
Perhaps as time went on, my heart could choose who would be my husband. Because for this reason the vibration when with Rain is stronger than others. Our closeness is not hindered by anything except the blessing of his mother. And Rain is always there for me in every joy and sorrow. It's not appropriate for me not to love him. Because he was the one who sacrificed so much for me. His love is so great and I appreciate it so much. I also wish we were meant to be together. Loved her.
Departure to the Land of Flowers...
An hour passed and finally all the palace had finished preparing for my departure to the Land of Flowers. It turns out that I did not go alone, but with Mr. Shane who also accompanied. The Secretary of State of Space took me to a country that has many beautiful women. Whether true or not, I don't know yet. But it feels like Rain didn't lie to me.
It may be that the term flower is indeed worth pinning for a country dominated by many women. But after hearing the story from Rain, it seemed like the country had a dark side that was known only to the upper class. I gasped as he said that many crown princes from the west came and partied there. I don't want my mind fixed on negative things. Understandably women, think too much.
This was my first overseas assignment. I have to give my best for Space.
Now I was waiting in the carriage while sipping ginger wedang packed in a plastic bottle by the palace kitchen. I also brought a very good pastry. Pastry itself is a kind of cake made from a mixture of wheat flour, butter and eggs. And it tastes really good, especially if added chocolate and raisins. Sweet sour delicious.
"Fine." Suddenly Cloud came entering this horse carriage.
"cloud? You want to come and take me?" ask her.
Cloud sat down next to me and smiled. "I thought so, Ara. But the job I can't leave. Later Mr. Shane will accompany you," he said.
"One horse carriage?" ask again.
Cloud shook his head. "No. You two separate trains. So you can rest on the way. Don't worry, yeah." He poked the tip of my nose.
I nodded while smiling at him.
"It." He gave me a black box.
"What's this?" my question was pointing at him.
Cloud opened the black box for me. And how surprised I was when I saw what it was. "Butterfly clamp when you first came to this palace. I'm going to hand it back as a sign of state duty" he said, then put the butterfly flops on me.
I lowered my head a little. Cloud immediately put it on. On the left side of this hair he wears emerald green butterfly clasps. And I don't know why, when I wear it, I feel so weird. The nerves in my brain are connected quickly. Functioning unusually. The neutron network in my brain seems to work optimally so I can remember anything very quickly.
"Ara, are you okay?" ask Cloud.
Cloud looked. He's holding my face. He put his lips to mine and then kissed her. I felt a warm kiss this morning. At that moment, I felt a tremor back in my body. I kissed her whole heart. Until finally the sparkle inside my body rose.
Cloud ....
Cloud stopped his kiss. He opened his eyes slowly and looked at me. As if implying his feelings at this moment.
"Ara .. somehow I say it. But, I beg you to understand about my duties and responsibilities as the future king of this land. As much as possible I will be fair to you and my people. I can't leave them, but I can't let you go either. So I beg your understanding." He revealed his current state.
I nodded, trying to understand his situation.
He lowered his head. "Sometimes I also hate myself for not having much time for you. But believe..." He lifted his face, saw me. "I want to be like other lovers. Always together at every opportunity. But, that I can't do. I have a lot to do. So ... I beg you. Again, please understand my work."
He asked me with tears. The implied blue eyeballs don't want this. But, he was also a future king who could not abandon his people. On the other hand, he wanted a long time together with me.
I held his red-white face. I swiped slowly and he put his head in my hand. Like accepting with all my heart this touch.
"You don't have to worry about it, Cloud. As much as I can I'll help." I strengthened.
Cloud smiled happily. Then she hugged me. "Thank you, Ara. Thank you." Thank you." His embrace was felt up to this heart niche.
As a woman, I have logic. Though my feelings are more dominating. But under these circumstances I cannot be selfish let alone selfish. Cloud is busy. Moreover, he will be appointed as king. I feel like if that happens, he will have no time for me. And it will definitely affect my feelings. But on the other hand I also have to understand him. Because Cloud could not leave his people.
Cloud is a typical responsible man. He wanted to be like his grandfather. A just and wise king, but also a dear family. Even Cloud once said that in the midst of busyness the grandfather still had time to play with him. And he admired his grandfather. So that patriot's sense is so high embedded in his soul.
Maybe if it wasn't for the nightmares that plagued his country, Cloud wouldn't be reckless to cross the space and time portal to pick me up either. We are different earth and very far away. But now our steps have come so far. It's impossible to back off again. One round of the sun we've been through.
"The spirit, Cloud. You can do it." I strengthened.
Cloud smiled. He let go of his embrace and kissed me on this forehead. An old kiss that felt through the recesses of my heart. I also gladly accepted it.
"Be careful, Ara. Take care of yourself there." He told me.
I'm nodding. Don't know why I feel like he's not really willing to go. But for the sake of the country, he had to give it up. Because he is a future king who works for his country.