Two-Baby Widow

chapter 4

Bu Ayu sat beside Adelia, she looked on with a sad look. Occasionally his hand rubbed Adelia's arm that was still crying, very upset her situation. Bude Ayu himself could not imagine if he was in the position of Adelia might be the same fate, sad all the time.

" You who are patient, Del, we pray that Adam may be received with God. If you continue to be sad to cry like this, I am sure Adam will not be happy to see your situation as it is now, he must be very sad. Let him go, Del." 

It may be easy to say, but living it will be very difficult especially to mengikhlaskan and it is the same as forgetting all the good memories with the deceased. However, Bude Ayu could not say anything but remember to send the deceased to Adelia who was now truly like an undead. Slightly angry to see it because the days are always crying, crying and crying endlessly as if the stock of tears is so much.

 There have been dozens of times mbak Bude Ayu reminded to be considerate and pray for Adam who is there, but this woman is always sad as if she does not accept fate. Hearing the words of Bude Ayu, Adelia lifted her face and looked at the woman who was looking at her sadly. Then came back her tears.

" Mr. .. "Adelia cried, Bude Ayu hugged her tightly so that this woman could shed everything.

" Why did Adam leave me. What wrong? Didn't he promise to be together until old age, but why did Adam lie?" Adelia cries as much as she needs bude Ayu. Here bude Ayu can only rub Adelia's back gently and listen to the uneg-uneg Adelia who still can not accept fate.

" I told him not to go, but Adam still wanted to go too. Did Adam deliberately want to leave me?" 

" You are patient Del, this is God's destiny." Unable to say anything more, Bude Ayu could only remind him.

" But I can't live without Adam, ma'am. I can't live my life without Adam. I don't think I'm really strong, Adam, everything for me, without which I can't do anything?" 

Bude Ayu immediately let go of his embrace and looked at Adelia. " Don't be like that Adelia, you have to be strong, you have to be sincere with Adam's departure. I'm sure there must be wisdom behind all these trials, not like this, Adam would be sad to see you like this." 

" I've tried to be sincere, but I can't. My life feels empty. I'm really not strong, I want to die Ma'am, I want to catch up with Adam. I …" 

Plaaaak .. Adelia's speech stopped because of the palm stamp attached to her cheek, not too painful but a little sore and hot. Adelia touched her cheek and looked at Bude Ayu who was currently looking very angry looking at her.

" Want to die, hem? Please if you want to die. Do you need to get a kitchen knife now so you can slice your pulse!" Bude Ayu was very angry. Adelia remained silent.

" If you die maybe Adam will be glad you caught up with him, is that your mind? If so please, Ma'am will not prohibit your stupid actions. Instead Mbak will be happy, so Nazwa and Fatih do not have parents anymore, Mbak can sell him at a high price. You know now this is again excited by the sale of human organs and the most popular are children. It just so happens that the situation is no longer the money difficulty right now." 

" Nazwa, Fatih." Adelia said.

" Yes right, Nazwa and Fatih. Wh why? Remember now if you still have children? Children you should calm down because of their mental loss of the father, but instead they are the ones who often calm you." Bude Ayu said in a mocking tone.

" If you are no longer able to live, please. Want to cry every day, even you want to die please. Ma'am no longer cares, anyway free to remind if all this is fate." 

" You should be happy because God loved Adam very much. Adam was a good, gentle and very patient man. I'm sure Adam was very happy there, but you were constantly crying and ignoring his children, Adam must have been very sad and disappointed with you." Bude Ayu was furious, he even said rudely hoping to resuscitate the extremely stubborn Adelia.

Bude Ayu sighed and then got up from her seat. Bude Ayu looked at Adelia who was currently bowing her head, Adelia cried without a sound.

" Kids are young, they desperately need the figure of a mother. They had not been very understanding of fate, especially Fatih. They are so sad about you being like this Adelia, you keep crying do you think they are not crying? You always feel the saddest man on earth, when it should be your children who should be very sad, especially at their very young age, they need you Adelia." 

Bude Ayu touched Adelia's shoulder, realising that her children should be the most pitied.

" Don't break their minds with this pointless sadness of yours. If you don't strengthen them, then who else? At least try to live for them, for their future. Ma'am is sure that Allah must have a plan that is far more beautiful than all these trials, Allah will not give trials to his people to exceed the limits" advice bude Ayu. 

" Let's wake up Adelia, come with Ma'am for a second." Bude Ayu pulled Adelia's hand, Adelia got up and followed Ayu's bude in confusion because Ayu's bude took her out of the room.

" Look at them, Adelia. They are very smart children, when you faint, sick, crying they are the ones who call Mbak and ask Mbak for help in order to calm you down. They are very worried about your situation" said Bude Ayu.

Adelia cries to see her two children who are sleeping soundly, Adelia sees Nazwa hugging Fatih. Adelia realized she continued to feel sad about the departure of her husband to forget the existence of her two children. Adelia's too lingering in the slump. 

" I'm sorry Mother Nak, forgive Mother …"