The Youth Life Maze
Hope?!
Meanwhile, the event became very lively I also dissolved in my mind.
Ahahhahaha, akuu, for sure, I failed right???!!? Ahahahahaha, somehow my fate in the future, akuu, hahaha, this, is too fucking painful. My tears came out, I couldn't help it.
I could only see the champions taking pictures with their trophies, charters, medals and novels.
Did I give up on being a novelist?? Such thoughts filled my head.
The event continued, I just fell silent and could not think of doing what I would do next, I feel desperate for failing to win 3rd place, I was very ambitious to get the 3rd champion, but, I failed.
Now is the time for the announcement of the champion of hope, I am still stuck in my own mind. Me, failing, me, failing, me... It was all my head after the big 3 announcement, I lost my hope, purpose, and also my dream.
When the announcement of the champion of hope began, I was still immersed in my negative thoughts.
"Alright, time for the announcement of the champions of hope," I faintly heard what Akira-Sensei said.
I tried to calm my mind and listen to this announcement until it was over.
The atmosphere in the room became silent, I heard a glimpse that there were 5 people who got this champion of hope, and a hint of hope started to grow in me. I wish I could at least win this champion of hope..
Then, Akira-Sensei enthusiastically mentioned the names of the winners, vaguely heard the name of Elina. Well, he deserved it. Before finally reaching the 5th participant. The voice echoed in the room, "And, the last participant to win the title of hope for the novel category was... Alvaro Nagiru!"
My heart and mind were immediately shocked. I was glued to my place, unable to believe what I had just heard. I succeeded! I got the champion of hope!
A loud voice rang out as applause filled the room. I stood up, my steps trembling towards the stage. Seen by me Elina, she smiled warmly at me, gave support and congratulated me.
While I was on stage, Akira-Sensei handed me the medal and the award charter. I really can't believe the present moment, this, is too unbelievable, even if it's not the 3rd champion I won, at least I'll try to negotiate with my parents.
"Hehe, you're great, when you say it's your first time in a race" Elina whispered.
"I'm not that good" I replied.
"Hahaha, you're humbling you know, when you're really great" he said to me.
"Well, thank you, then" I replied with a slight smile.
"Alright, well, soro soro jikan da, we take pictures first with the champions of hope ini," said Akira-Sensei enthusiastically. There were several Akira-Sensei assistants who brought us our own novels.
The photographer took some photos of the five of us, we held our charters, medals, and novels.
Then, I got off the stage with Elina, and before long, the race was closed.
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I decided to have lunch with Elina, because it was lunchtime. Elina agreed to my invitation, and we decided to eat at the restaurant when we first met.
In the middle of the trip we wanted to go to the restaurant too, Akira-Sensei who seemed to be alone appeared in front of me and Elina, "Ohh, shounen and shoujo, the champion of hope," Akira-Sensei looks very happy when he meets me with Elina.
"About-Sensei? I didn't expect that I would meet with Sensei again" I said.
"I'm happy to see Akira-Sensei again" Elina said.
Akira-Sensei immediately approached the two of us and said, "You two, yahh??"
I was surprised by what Akira-Sensei said, "Yeahh, we are both actually friends, no more really, hehe," I replied casually.
"Yes, Alvaro is right, we don't have that kind of relationship anyway" replied Elina with her distinctive flat face.
"That's it, what a pity," somehow Akira-Sensei looks disappointed.
Even Elina and I did not mind Akira-Sensei's invitation, because of that, I was able to learn a little from the experts.
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We were all in a pretty fancy restaurant, Elina and I were sitting next to each other, and across the table was Akira-Sensei.
"So how long have you known each other?" questions from Akira-Sensei can always amaze me.
"Uhh.. We didn't, just got here, Sensei, how about a simple question?" reveal me.
Hearing my answer, Akira-Sensei just laughed, "Okay, okay, so, how long have you guys liked novels?"
The question this time makes more sense, "If I had been, since SD, well, about 4 years ago."
"Ohh, it's been a long time, too, Alvaro. If I was, maybe 6 years ago," replied Elina.
Elina has even liked novels for longer than me, well that probably makes sense.
"Hm.. I see, you guys seem to be very talented well in making novels," the phrase from Akira-Sensei made me a little surprised.
Me? A talent? It was impossible, I almost lost my hope of becoming a writer. So, how could I possibly be talented...
"Well, if Elina might be very talented, but that doesn't seem to apply to me, ahahah," I said with a faint laugh.
"No, no, no, I'm not talented, I just write what I think, nothing more" Elina said.
Akira-Sensei just laughed at the interaction between the two of us. "Hahaha, you are really attractive young people, you call yourself untalented, when you are very talented."
"Did Sensei really think like that?" ask Elina.
"Yupp, of course 100%"
"After all, you can make a story as good as that just from your thinking, how could it not be a talent??" akira-sensei.
"Sensei is right Elina, you may be a talented genius, an ordinary person who might be able to make a good story because of ideas that arise from his thinking" I said.
Elina seemed a little happy, and she smiled at the praise of Akira-Sensei and myself, perhaps.
After that we talked for a long time, I asked for some advice and novel input from Akira-Sensei, and we both ate.
After almost 1 hour of eating and talking, I decided to go home first, because my mother had told me to go home. I said "until I see you again" then parted with the two of them, waved my hand, not forgetting I asked for Akira-Sensei's HP number.
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On the way home, I was prepared to argue a little with my mother, because I failed to win the 3rd place and only managed to get a champion of hope, he said, I definitely had to ask permission and argue a little with my mother, to become a novelist. I got ready, I got to my doorstep, holding the charter of the champion of hope.
Then, Aruna came out of the house, surprised by my presence at the door.
I entered the house with a thumping heart, holding the charter of the champion of hope tightly. Aruna called mom, and I knew this was a good time to talk about my dreams. Mom came out of the living room with a serious look that made me even more nervous.
"Did he win 3rd place?" mother asked Aruna, while her eyes were fixed on the charter I was holding. .
Me, ready! "Mother, I failed to win 3rd place, but, I managed to get a champion of hope, let alone this is still my first race, so-"
Not finished my sentence, my mother immediately defied loudly, "Ohh, so you failed to win 3 right?? That means, it's time you gave up on your dream of becoming a novelist, right?" my mother snapped a few questions I could not answer.
Siall's... What, did you get here???
