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The news that I most did not want to hear was spoken by the Doctor, making my whole body feel limp and as if boneless.
I dropped myself on the waiting chair that was in front of the room where Kania was getting treatment while bowing my head, I cursed myself, she said, alone in the heart because it can not take care of Kania and our prospective children properly.
I also cursed the man who caused all this to happen, if only killing would not get the punishment I wanted to kill him in a very painful way.
I lost my son-in-law when I hadn't seen him.
Just a moment ago I felt a great happiness because I would have a baby with Kania. But, now all of that must be buried deeply along with the loss of my son.
I wanted to scream as hard as I could, venting out the emotions that were in my heart, but, I wouldn't be able to do that.
My tears almost fell if no one rubbed my back and made me wipe the edge of my eyes immediately.
"You must be strong if you show your sadness in front of Kania, it will make her even more sad and hurt," Mom rubbed my back.
I looked at Mom who was trying to give a constriction, nothing came out of this mouth just a nod of the head that I did in response.
My mouth seems locked, the words that want to be spoken are stuck in the esophagus because of the tightness that feels in the heart.
"This all must not be easy for Kania to accept, so try to make Kania slowly forget her sadness."
Right, what Mom said I should indeed be strong, Kania currently needs me to be the source of her strength.
If I was weak like this, if I was too sad like this, who would comfort her, the person she needed the most right now was me her husband.
"Ras has failed to take care of Kania, Pa, sorry Ras who has failed to keep Kania and make her in this situation," I said staring at Mom and Papa alternately.
"Don't blame yourself like that, this is not the right time for that. Now the most important thing is to make Kania come back like before," Papa replied looking at me.
Shortly thereafter the nurse gave word that Kania was conscious. I looked at my parents one by one.
They nod their heads. "Go, meet Kania first, we will enter later when the condition of his heart is better," said Papa patted my shoulder.
"Yes, right now Kania will really need you please calm her down," said Mama who also looked at me.
I nodded my head and without waiting any longer I immediately entered the room and saw Kania was staring blankly in front of her.
Right now there was only her own in the room since the Doctor and Sister had already left first.
"Yang," called me, to her while standing beside her bed.
"Our children are already .. nothing," he said stammeringly and disconnectedly, he looked at me with a hurt look and tears beginning to pour down his cheek.
I immediately hugged her tightly to calm her down, I let her spill her grief first so that she could feel calmer.
"Cry for now, but later I won't let you cry anymore."
I tried to stop myself from crying, I blinked my eyes many times as I felt my eyes heat up.
There were no words spoken between the two of us, only the sound of her sobbing made my heart feel tight.
How sad I feel now enough I know but, I believe God has a plan in the future in place of this sadness.
"I didn't take good care of him, I'm sorry, I tried to take care of him, but, it turns out that he'd rather leave when we haven't even seen him, he doesn't want to be with us," racau Kania still buried her face in my chest.
My chest felt soaked by her tears but, I let it go and listened to every word she wanted to say.
I rubbed her wet cheeks and tidied her messy hair while looking at her, she looked at me without eyes that were almost invisible because her eyes were swollen.
I don't know how many days she's been crying. That's the question in my mind.
His face was pale, the face I longed for was now in front of me again, staring at me with a sad look.
"Do you know, it seems that God wants us to spend more time together deh. he took our future children not because he does not trust us to take care of him, God wants to give us time to date first, we've never been together before, God also wants to give us more time to learn first before we are really ready to be parents, do you understand." I said it was not only to comfort Kania but, also to amuse myself.
Kania was still looking at me and nodding her head, even though the sound of crying was no longer coming out of her mouth.
I know it's not easy for her, getting mistreatment from people she doesn't know at all, plus losing their child-to-be because of it.
It's not an easy thing to forget either for him or for me, but, I'll try to make things come back the way they were before.
I will make my wife come back and forget this problem that has happened slowly, that is my promise now.
"Aren't you going to leave me, we've lost our future son and me...." He stopped his words and lowered his head as if he had no more confidence.
This is not Kania, my wife I know, the Kania I know is the woman who never bowed her head in front of her interlocutor, she always raised her face so confidently.
I held both of her cheeks that looked bruised, not only was her neck and both of her wrists also looking bluish purple, visible traces of mistreatment.
I rubbed his cheeks slowly and smiled at him, I kissed all the scars gently.
"I have no reason to leave my wife, I'm not a fool who would leave my loved ones, people I've taken so hard for granted, not 'I'd lose a lot if I left you" I said chuckling.
She hugged me tightly and shed her tears again, I could only rub her back very gently.
I really don't care what has happened between Kania and the man, I don't want to confuse the truth of the man's words.
Right now I only care about Kania who is now with me again and I can hug her again as much as possible.
"Have not cried anymore your eyes are swollen, you must have cried long enough, right."
Kania just nodded her head slowly and I rubbed her cheek again and kissed her forehead.
"I forgot the others were still waiting outside."
I decided to call my family to enter the room because I saw my wife was starting to calm down.
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