The Waves That Never Exit

Trying to hold on

Day after day I passed by full of loneliness.no more joking with mamah and papah and no more I heard their call with my mamah's fussiness, no more, there really is no day that can make me smile right now "Yes....Help me to be able to rise from all this!". Not once have I tried to rise from this crash but I cannot, my life was destroyed from the first I could live happily without feeling short of finally my life like a person who fell and then crashed violently, he said, I sometimes wonder if I can finish my school up to high school because I don't have the spirit anymore, the next day I woke up early and went to school and was announced by my teacher that soon we would be trying out at school before our national exam, heart palpitations because I know my condition is still unstable because it was shaken because of the accident.My brain really difficult to digest what I learned at that time. One day I closed my parents' house to my grandfather's house, where I met my aunt and we talked

said my aunt "Oh yeah Ra you want no Hp?"

I said "What kind of hp is te...?"

aunty "yes...hp Nokia 1600 Ra...hp aunty, happens to be aunty again need money Ra rp800,000 aja, how do you want to Ra you buy hp aunty?"

I said "yes I've bought te.cidentally I want long punyq hp but not yet bought"

after the conversation I bought my aunt's cellphone and because I was still new to make hp it so aga gaptek at that time, then the first no. I put it on my phone is my new cousin no. The next one followed, when I was entering the hp no. ago

my cousin said "eh Ra...kok you don't want to date anyway?, whereas many guys like you but why do you always reject them....why are you lesbian yes...?"

I said "you don't talk that way because they're my type bokan.., I'm still sane"

I said "don't.. I don't need a land crocodile man whose life status is unclear.Wika., I'd rather be alone than harassed same guy ganjeng ga clear".

then I quickly got up from my seat and left my cousin, I went home and did my activities that afternoon, come night after I eat I watch tv and suddenly something strange at home, out of nowhere there was a gust of ice-cold wind passing beside my body and making the horden of the room to wave, waving, because I was shocked then I got up from where I was lying and saw that I really did not see anyone, in my heart I muttered "what was that...ghosts or spirits mamah and papah go home" after that I go back to watch tv and through my eyes I see the shadow of my mother who is busy wanting to prepare something, and then I look at my mother who is busy, clearly I saw it and when I turned my head the shadow was not there but when I looked at the tv the shadow was there again but I could only see through my eyes....then I said, "Well, what are you doing in the kitchen....? I've eaten mah, don't worry Dira can take care of myself" and suddenly the shadow turned to me and disappeared from the kitchen, until there was not the slightest fear at that time and I took back the phone that I bought to look at what the usefulness of the features in it and again I felt there was something strangely suddenly there was an icy cold wind back past my side and again made the room horden wave, I pu muttered "mah pah, mah pah, don't worry I'll try to live well as you still are, I'll be the strong and strongest kid someday so don't worry about me, I know you guys aren't calm about having to leave us but please pray for us so that we can pass this test", every time I experience it I must always talk at home, I sometimes think maybe my neighbors think I'm really crazy ah. This stupid time has not been 40 days yes must be mamah and papah can still go home to accompany me. When the time of the announcement for our class rested before the exam, I marched at that time and I thought.."jeez....God will face holidays and trials?" I felt a sharp pulse in my heart.I thought about my rice alone at home, when we came home from school.

my cousin said "oh yeah Ra I came home today.welcome to see you again huh...."

I said "he..I know.have a good way.May your holiday be happy for leaving me alone"

my cousin said "are you gonna text me when I get there"

then when we got home from school we immediately went to class and packed the books into a bag, in the middle of the trip my cousin said "oh yes Ra later you can go to my grandfather's house to accompany me, because I'm gonna pack my things" I said "he....". Then when I got run down I immediately went to my grandfather's house to meet him and take him home. A very annoying holiday it feels like all my friends at home live alone with my loneliness, upon our arrival in school again and my cousin came home we immediately continue the struggle in Junior High School, my cousin said when we were at school "Ra no hp you I love you..to my friend yqng single, I hope there is one of them that could be your girlfriend" I said "let's see if there's any, it's better we prepare for tomorrow's exam...", that tiring day we passed with great enthusiasm and upon our arrival home hp I somehow always ring with a different no hp really make dizzy, dizzy, when I raise sure men continue to make mumet only.yes that's the work of my cousin who spread my no hp and announce my singles who never dated hah...., bergonta replace people express love by phone I always refuse until in time because I cape in sms and on the phone there continues to be one of the no hp that I work, I work, I give false hope hahaaaaa really think I am cruel. Tomorrow I pass the day eagerly facing the test, upon arrival we want our national exam rested again and rested again....during the holidays I spend my time visiting my grandfather in the fields, yes....and learning to suck rubber in my parents' garden, which must have been accompanied by my aunt and om, too.I was so happy to get through the day, because I could always meet my grandfather and one day I met someone who was going fishing and a white man with a smile, I immediately threw away my face because I was annoyed that they were going to fish in the same river as me, then I went with my aunt and om to sip rubber, after that as usual I went straight to my grandfather's cottage.and joked there.heard a fairy tale from my grandfather and then enjoyed my grandfather's delicious cuisine, slowly, my wounds stopped bleeding.