The Ugly Duckling's

47

"No, we're not doing that. I'm still holy, I'm still staying" I said with a big smile.

"No need to smile if you can't smile." Kenjiro knows me best. I looked into his eyes, he remained the same as before. But I immediately brushed off those thoughts and feelings before my heart again became indecisive.

"I'm just confused as to what my life will be like tomorrow after marriage. Marrying the Yakuza chief who must be related to blood and women." I'm looking down lethargic.

"If you don't want to, say it. Or we run away, I can work to live you," said Ken eagerly.

I smiled gently at him, "Sorry Ken, I can't. My heart belongs to him."

"You can't love her! You had to, right?" ken said, he still cannot accept the reality.

I shook my head slowly, "I mean it" I said later.

Kenjiro turned away angrily, he picked up his bike and turned it on. He pushed hard and drove his bike fast, making the quiet streets noisy. I closed my eyes tightly, letting it go was all I had to do.

Yama came up to me, she pecked at the tip of my head dearly and stopped me from going inside. Mama is seen watching television, Yama and I join her. The atmosphere became awkward, Mama did not take out a word.

It was time to go back to the room. I glanced slightly outside, there was no sign of Kenjiro. Yama stroked my back dear, she apparently knew what I was thinking. He invited me to rest.

"Sleep, I'll sleep on the couch" Yama said. He took his pillow. I nodded and tried to close my eyes, but could not. Then I called him.

"Yama .. " call me by saying something.

"Hmm" he answered.

It was clear Yama was overjoyed by my request, she got on the bed and kept her attitude. I looked at him and looked at him strangely, not as usual. "Why you?" I asked Yama.

"I don't want to force you, you're crying because of that, right?" ask Yama. I took his hand, I laid it on my side.

"Not only that, I can't imagine being the wife of the Yakuza chairman and owner of a large company that has a myriad of women" I said facing the opposite direction from her.

"Why? All the women are pursuing this position," she asked confusedly at me.

"Not all women, I don't like possessions and positions. I want genuine affection, honesty, and trust. I want a harmonious household, so that someday all our children grow well," I said with a bright look.

"I'm sorry, relinquishing the post of Yakuza chairman isn't that easy. I have to go through life or death challenges. But if it makes you happy, then I'll do it" Yama said.

I looked quickly at him, our eyes clashing. " No! I don't want anything bad to happen to you" I said with tears piling up in my eyes.

"I'm sorry, I promise to take care of you. I won't let anything bad happen to you" Yama promised me.

The kiss this time felt different, I gave up. I gave my whole self to him. I countered every move. But then he stopped, "Sleep, I don't want to do it before you're ready" Yama said.

I hugged her tightly "Thank you baby, I'll keep loving you" I said.

Yama kissed my forehead before she headed for the bathroom to finish something there, I was a little relieved by this decision. Afterwards, the two of us slept hugging in peace.