THE TIRED EYES

Episode 17's

    With all my might I kicked the person who was trying to hold me back. Without me knowing what I've done, I just want to wake my dad up. He must be just playing around.

“This father is not funny. Abirah will never forgive me if I don't wake up right now. I beg you to wake up.”

“Dad promised to go on tour if you go home. But father's promise first. Hurry come dad let's get ready” I wake up without caring that my head hurts from crying. I went to my room and I took a shower. I don't want to miss a vacation with my beloved father. I kept bathing and after that I wore my father's clothes when I was in high school. I prepared the bag and filled it with the things I needed.

    I went down and saw many people gathered. Are they not ready. I saw my father who was still asleep.

“you why not take a shower. Mom's gonna take a shower in a minute, we're gonna be gone. Dad's up, I want to go at night

it's also” while pulling my father's hand.I keep shouting wake him up. It's been a very night maybe daddy's sleepy but dad already promised not. I don't want you to break your promise. I was sitting too weakly so fucked up. My mind is so fucked. I tried to hug my father and whisper it

“dad, abirah wait daddy very long. I want to spend time with my dad for a long time. I made a lot of promises you'd break if you fell asleep now. You promised not to leave me. Dad where all the promises are. Look at dad's mom. Mom just kept crying and mom was a little unconscious because of what. Is it joking like this. And pretending to die like this is fun for dad. Why don't you just die. Hahahhahha” my chaotic heart moved me away towards the kitchen. Everyone seems to care less about my movements. I came with a knife in my hand. That time too

everyone was surprised. Right, I wanted to kill my father so he would stop pretending like that. My uncles tried to hold me back, holding me back as much as they could. I saw my mother growing into my cry when I saw her. Even my mother was unconscious again, with a troubled heart, an empty mind and a tired body, I completely lost my sight. I feel all empty. Hollowly. Darkened. I was carried away into the dark alleys once in a while I heard the sound of laughter and back me

hearing cries. There was a stranger who came to see me in this dark alley. He was not clear but his voice was clearly heard within the passageway. Suddenly a woman was standing right in front of me. And he is so

similar me. He laughed so happily, as if he were my enemy who was so happy to see me if I was sad, where I am! Who's he! That's what I was thinking. There was fear covering my broken heart. The woman suddenly cried and said “You ruined my life, and I will destroy your life” she choked my neck. Actually I want to fight but somehow my hands can't be moved as well as my whole body. Sickness.please.it suddenly went away and I opened my eyes. It turned out that I was in a room that had been decorated by my father's hands.I looked around no one. I tried to sit up but my head still hurt. This room used to be the most comfortable room for me but the day feels so full of sadness if I am in this room.