The Timer Me

Chapters. 34. The Timer Me

Hearts that have usually been hurt are very difficult to get back better. Sometimes doing something unreasonable often happens.

Not many people understand this situation.

Very difficult to cure but still trying to quickly eliminate. Entap when the pain will fade, which definitely takes a short time. 

Most of them often go for healing. But not with me who prefers to lock myself up and stay faithful to this pain.

Simply 2 or 3 cups of coffee can make otaku improve again. Even if I was cornered, I would have spent 5 cups of bitter coffee. The bitter taste is exactly the same as my life right now.

I miss the past with him. Now I go back to Indonesia and choose a school that is none other than your school. I was lucky to be in your class when I moved schools.

I still remember that smile. A very sweet smile gives in to shame. It seems that if sugar and honey see it, they will insecure because you exceed their sweetness.

 When I saw the list of names, I was silent for a moment. I was shocked to see the exact same name as your name. I thought the name wasn't you, I braced myself not to remember you back. When I entered the classroom, my heart rate was already irregular.

I thought of the same name as your name, Cantika Reva Kim. I started walking towards my new class with a teacher who served as the homeroom teacher. He waited for me to get into that class. I was told to introduce myself to a new friend.

“Halo, all introduce my name is Nadial Ambertlein. I moved from Germany to Indonesia because I followed my father who wanted to come back here. I beg for help from everyone so that we can be good friends.” 

After my introduction I had a chance to see the exact same woman as the woman who filled my days in Germany. He smiled at me, his smile never changed. It will always look sweet even if I have not seen it a million times.

The memories together make me never forget him. I hate life in Germany, but there's still a reason for me to stay there. A woman named Reva kim was the reason I stayed there.

Every time I was with her, the problem suddenly just vanished. I spent a few years in school together. School time is what I have been waiting for the most. At school I was just playing with him. 

Not because I don't want to play with others, but because only Reva understands my language.

Although I was in a foreign school, my English is still below average. Reva is all I can talk to. Every day I go through with passion even if it is only at school.

The state of the house in Germany made me hell. Because I lived alone with my dad made me feel so depressed.

I prefer to live in Indonesia because I have to manage a branch of a father company based in Indonesia. Because too long living far away from the wife makes Dad stressed.

If I make a mistake then the pay is a lash. Well this has become a routine habit if he is in trouble.

I always wanted to please my father. But that made him even more angry. My passion for basketball even made me dislike it more.

The reason was none other than that he did not like me being born to earth. He wants his child to be a woman, but because God's will says otherwise, I am born to earth. After giving birth to me, my mother had a disorder in her fetus and she was diagnosed as unable to conceive again.

From this point on, my father began to hate me. I know it's not my fault, but why does he always blame me? In the eyes of many I am like a golden boy to my father. Many people want a life like me.

He had a rich father and became an only child. They thought my life would be like in the movies. But it turns out that it's just a movie not real life. 

I never thought the source of my passion would leave me in Germany alone with a Psychopath who was none other than my own father. After Reva's departure her life became colorless. I used to go to bars near the neighborhood just to get drunk.

I had just graduated from junior high school and was going to continue high school. The bar guards never asked me about my age because of my teenage-like posture.

Every Sunday night I always go there Sunday morning for sure I go home drunk. There is no way out but to get drunk.

Who would you like to tell if I like to be alone. Dad who is always busy with his office business until he forgets that he has a child. He often brings different women with him every month.

When he came home he did not see the woman. He also often smells of blood that stings at night. He wanted to think strangely about his father but he knew his father who was afraid of blood.

Even though his father behaved like that, he still loved his father. A few months later Nadial's mother had an accident and His father decided to stay and settle in Indonesia.

All the big families they live in Indonesia so inevitably they have to return to Indonesia. Knowing the news that his mother died made Nadial's little heart sick without bleeding. 9 years he had never met his mother, once got the news his mother had died.

There is a sense of pleasure also because the mother returned to Indonesia. He prayed if he returned to Indonesia, hopefully he could meet his girlfriend, Reva Kim.

It seems that God was kind to Nadial this time, God answered all the requests every night and this time he was able to meet Reva again. The smile he so longed for finally returned as well. After the introduction was over, the homeroom teacher told Nadial to go sit down.

Reva who also missed Nadial went to Nadial. He immediately embraced Nadial as his longing for Nadial.

Nadial was silent while enjoying the first hug he had ever felt.

“ Nadial I did not expect you will go to Indonesia.” Reva opened the conversation.

Nadial still could not believe the scenery in front of him. It's like a dream to see Reva in front of him.

“ I came here because of dad's will. My mother last month had an accident and my father decided to stay in Indonesia” explained Nadial.

“So sad well Nad, Surely you are hit really well. Sorry I didn't go to the temple. This is just me knowing the news. You are patient well, I must always have you Nad” said Reva as a booster so I can return cheerful. He grabbed me by the shoulder and patted me gently to keep me strong.

The day continued to learn and I improved. My drunken habit I finally let go because the healing woman of my heart has returned. I thought that this was the right time so that I could express my feelings to her.

I will use the time to pay a visit to Village X to declare it. But it seems that this time is not right.

I saw clearly that Reva was close to a man I didn't know. He seemed happy when he talked to the man. Before the activity to the plateau looking for flower Y I prayed that it could be a group with Reva but still fate said another.

Reva even got a group with the same guy I saw earlier. I want to be angry, but I'm nobody. I got a group with a woman named Catrin. She was a quiet woman in class. He was the son of my father's co-worker.

During the trip there was no talk that happened until suddenly Catrin fainted do not know what the cause. I panicked and took her to a cottage nearby.

His face was very pale and his body felt so cold. As a group of friends, I felt very panicked. I don't know what I'll do after this.