THE TEARS THAT FLOW BECAUSE OF THE SAD RELATIONSHIP Tears That Flow Because of the Relationship of Sadness

Chapter 9 Rayden's Story

Pov Rayden's

My name is Rayden Lucas Alvero Rafael

My family is a harmonious family made up of my father, mother, and me, we live in the village, although living in the village, we live in moderation.

We lived happily until Dad decided to move to the city, because he said he wanted to realize his little dream of becoming a soldier, he worked hard for it, until finally he managed to become a soldier.

In the eyes of society my father was a great, strong, brave, and kind person.

In my eyes and mother, the father is responsible, but more concerned with work, without attach importance to our feelings, because it is too busy so there is no time for us who are family.

"Dad, let's play with me, just for a second"

"Can't, dad's busy"

"Why do you always say you're busy?"

"Because it's busy"

"But promise me you'll play with me next time"

"Yes"

My father was busy.

Dad always said he was busy.

After that day passed long enough, my father never kept his promise to me, our relationship was stretched.

Even he also did not have time for mother, until mother looks lonely, mother always waits for father like a fool, even mother also often sick because it continues to wait, so I feel sorry for him, she said, and when I was a little big, I rebelled.

"Dad, you still work? even at home?"

"Yes, I'm busy"

"Can't you stop ? Uh! or if you stop working, you'll die? dad's eating is working, I don't care if dad says he's busy when I play, but mom, he's always waiting for you like a fool"

"Rayden, I'm doing this for the country, and for your mother and you"

"Dad is just looking for an excuse right, if you don't like me and mom, please at least don't let us down"

My father was disappointing.

Because a soldier can't always be home all the time, dad always comes home

1 Time a year, just a few days.

The guelder rose is a flower that my mother loved so much, when I asked why? he answered because this flower can eliminate his longing for a father who is more busy with his work, even in this house wherever the eyes will look there is always this flower on every side of the house, because he said this flower is the first gift from the father when proposing to the mother, and the mother became very obsessed with this flower, and the mother became very obsessed with it, even on their wedding anniversary, the father always sends this flower to the mother without coming to see her.

For the father's mother is his love and soul, the mother loves the father so much, and even willing to do anything for his love, the father was the opposite, but their love is blocked by distance.

But, I was not so close to my father, because our relationship was not so good, sometimes my father tried to be close to me, but I always stayed away from him because I was already disappointed and hated him.

- while I was alone

"Rayden you're working on PR, right? I want you to help"

"Not necessary"

"Don't do it, let's see here, it's a way like"

"Go, dad, you can't help me because you're stupid"

My father was stupid.

when I was with my friends

"Rayden, look at that cat on the tree, it's almost falling, let's help!"said friend.

"No, no, the tree's too tall"

"If it's too high, let the father help the cat" said the father.

"Well, there's Rayden's dad, that's great" said my friend.

Father helped the cat, but he also fell from a tree that was too high, and broke his leg, so he had to leave work for several months.

"I said the tree was tall, but why did you go up, look what's going on now!"

"Hahaha my son is worried about his father"

My father was strange and kind.

Then when our relationship began to improve, again my father failed me, he did not come on my birthday, I know I am not a child because I am 14 years old, but at least I just want my dad by my side when I want to, I don't need a birthday cake or a present, I just want him to say happy birthday.

He is also a less understanding person.

as I prepare for the exam

"Rayden dad came home, well, you've been so diligent about learning"

"Because I'm testing, come out dad! you're intruding"

"Dad has just come home and misses his son so much, so I'll be here"

"Hindu? has he? dad didn't even come on my birthday"

"On i-that's sorry, yesterday I didn't come home, yesterday was your birthday, I want to make amends by being close to you" he said.

"Already, after all, this isn't the first time you didn't come home on my birthday, I don't want to be close to you at all, because I hate you"

My father who I hate.

on graduation day, I saw a harmonious family.

"Dad, mom, look I got a 30, great right?"

"You're proud of that achievement?"

"But at least I graduated"

"Yes, yes, what do you want as your graduation gift"

"Spend time with family, eat good food"

"Haha, let's go"

I was wondering? can my family be like that?!

No, actually I'm thinking about it. It would be nice if I were in that family.

"Rayden, congratulations on graduating" said the mother.

"Mother I'm class champion, 1st anniversary"

"That proud mother's son, great"

"That's all? Mom, which father? did he forget again?" my many.

"Maybe, he'll be here soon" replied the mother.

"Hey Rayden, where is your father, what else is your family that comes only your mother" said my friend.

"Rayden, sorry I'm late because there's a car breaking down" said the father in dirty clothes and his hair was a mess.

"What's? hey look at that all! didn't he say Rayden's father was a soldier? but why did he come to his son's graduation show that was Junior High with a shabby shirt and spruce like a beggar haha"my friend's thesis.

"Yes, yes, beggar, haha"desis my other friend.

I was used to all the ridicule from my friends because of my father, I was so ashamed at that time, for having such a shameful father, because he was too kind.

"helpful? Dad, what exactly is that dad? mechanic or soldier?"

"Rayden, helping is mandatory, no matter what we are and who, most importantly when someone is in trouble we have to help him" he said.

"Go, dad, you're embarrassing me in front of my friends"

"Rayden you can't" said mother.

"Rayden's"

Dad's a shameful man.

Then another time, when I locked myself in my room.

"Rayden you're mad about having a father like me, aren't you?"

"Yes, I hate having a father like you"

"Rayden, I just want you to be happy~

to make you happy I'll do everything, whatever it is"

"Whatever it is? you're gonna do everything?"

"Yes, I'll do everything"

"Then get out of my life and out of my mother's life forever!!! and don't ever show up in front of me again"

'Lying, I'm lying, because I want you to be at least more understanding, don't upset me, don't make me angry, don't make me hate you.

And I'm sorry I've been saying things that hurt dad all this time '

After that dad left my room, the next morning he went to work as a soldier again.

Then the time passed, the father did not go home, and the time passed again, passed and passed, the father disappeared and never returned home, he only sent flowers, letters, ' he said , and money for my needs and mother without appearing before us.

I kept waiting for you like a fool.

"Mom, stop waiting for me like a fool"

Then it was a picture frame hanging on the wall, a picture of our family, falling to the floor and breaking.

Prawn

Glass cracks in the photo on the head of the father.

"Why did this fall, Rayden mom's feeling bad, how is this?"

"Why ask me, maybe dad is dead ~" I said spontaneously.

"Rayden why do you say that,"

Mom screamed and slapped my face.

"After all, he's not my father" I said, then I locked myself in my room.

3 Days later, on January 1, 2016, in the afternoon, I was sitting on a single bench in the living room while watching television.

'Good afternoon viewers News Update Now, I Liora Queen Cheriesta report directly from the scene, as per the report on January 1, 2016, when the sun slips at 16:30 p.m, there has been a shooting of a 'Soldier' soldier who was killed in military training, a man about 35 years old, named T_ _ _ _ _ _ N, was shot while trying to wound his colleague who had been bickering, he was shot by his own partner accidentally while holding a gun, now his condition is keritis and is trying to be handled, I Liora Queen Cheriesta resigned, so and thank you'

When I saw the news, I thought about my father, and soon I heard the sound of mother's crying, the sound coming from his room, I went to my mother's room and saw her crying with her phone in her hand.

"Mom, are you okay?"

Mom came up to me and hugged me tightly and her tears wetted my shoulders, she just kept quiet when I asked and cried like that.

The next day my mother took me to a place, an unusual cemetery, there were many tombs with a state flag, and then I saw one tomb with a familiar photograph, my father's tomb was surrounded by people, at that time I realized...

"Dad" I said softly as I shed tears, then I came to the tomb, screaming, crying, screaming, cursing, my chest tight and my heart was very sick.

As a result of that incident, I felt very devastated, and considered myself a monster and I decided to close the door of my heart.

I was still sobbing with all the pain that whipped, my memory spinning, remembering the events that had passed, I realized all this time I was living selfishly, talking all I wanted without thinking about my father's feelings, my heart was very sick, I was so sad, living like a monster, squeezing me to attack ****, my ego makes a pain because it cuts my whole body, so it feels like just wanting to die.

then I realized...

Realizing regret...

Regret that I just found out how valuable the person in my arms, who is now lying on the ground.

Regretting is useless because my father has really left me and my mother, because of my words...

Now I understand that people can feel "regret", because they really understand that there is no way to reverse the error.

Busy dad, disappointing dad, stupid dad, weird and overly kind dad, annoying and embarrassing dad, dad I hate...

I miss my father's figure...

"Please, please come back even if only in a dream"

ay ah never came back, even in a dream, maybe now he "hates me".

His hatred tore my heart to pieces.

I endured regret and continued to blame myself, for me this incident caused a gray cloud that covered my heart, nothing that could heal my feelings, she said, from that moment on I decided not to be close to anyone else, so that there would be nothing else I hurt.

I have always been careful that my anger does not make others misunderstand me and keeping my distance has become my habit...

get to.

Spring, five months later, on my first day of high school, when everyone was busy looking for friends, I was alone so as not to hurt anyone else again, I thought....

Why do I add to my suffering?

Many tried to get close to me, but I was always cold and unfriendly to keep them away from me.

Time passed, The middle of the semester began, I lived by keeping my distance from others.

Until he invited me to talk and smiled warmly, his aura shone all around him, his warm radiance was different from my gloomy one, therefore I liked it....

"Hello, your name is Rayden? I'm Olivia, Rayden, do you want to take a break with me"

"......."

The next day.

"Rayden good morning, today is quite sunny... Would you like to go to the school garden to see flowers?"

"....."

The next day again.

"Rayden's gonna be a semester soon, if you want to study with me in the school library"

"......"

That's how it goes.

Although he was friendly and always greeted me, I never answered and just kept quiet, I thought if it was like that, he would leave like the others and would eventually stay away from me, but contrary to my expectations, he even more tried to get close to me.

I don't want to hurt her, therefore, it would be best if I kept my distance from her.

That's how my first new love grew,

Olivia cute and pretty girl, I loved it for 3 years, I liked it in silence.

SERIATE.