The Tears of a Wife

Debate on the Bed

"Airin," called Mas Damian upon entering our room. I didn't answer his call. Acting as if you do not hear a sound and do not feel its presence. I, who was lying on my bed and turned my back to the door, was busy sobbing.

"Darling ...."

Then I felt the bed move, indicating that Mas Damian was now filling the empty space beside me. A few seconds later, his arm wrapped around my stomach. The man slowly pulled my body, bringing it closer to his own body until now my back is in contact with the chest of his field. I still did not respond in the slightest even as Mas Damian drowned his face in the recess of my neck.

"Ai ..," he whispered softly, "honey, I'm sorry."

I don't need your forgiveness, Mom! All I need is your firm rejection of mother's will!

"Airin, don't silence Mas like this." Damian's getting his arms tightened. His breath that hit my neck was hot. It looks like Mas Damian is still not feeling well.

Ah ... Even when I was angry and disappointed like this, I was still thinking about the situation.

"Mas sorry, Ai. Sorry for keeping you in this position. Sorry for being selfish."

"I'm sorry to be quiet when I'm insulted, too. Then reject the polygamy request. I'm not really willing." I finally replied even though my voice sounded weak and raucous.

"Ai .. know Mas also do not like you to be treated like that earlier. Mas trying to hold back—"

"Why should you hold back, Mom?" as a circus, "let's just say you don't dare to go against your mother's words."

"Darling ... Please forgive me." He immediately begged to be forgiven. I'm sure Mas Damian is actually aware of his mistake. But then again, he was indeed helpless when it came to his mother.

"Don't cry anymore, Airin. I can't bear to see you like this" he said. Instead of making me stop, these tears are falling even more. I sobbed and my body shook. Mas Damian hugged me tighter until I felt a little claustrophobic.

"You're not going to reject your mother's will, are you, Mas?" tanyaku. "I know you'll obey him. Even if it destroys me."

Damian Mas Silence. I'm sure he can't avoid it because that's exactly what he's going to do. Back then, when Mom gave that absurd choice, instead of answering, I preferred to go to the room in tears. Damian didn't come right after me, I'm sure mom forbade him and kept talking about the continuation of the polygamy he planned. It is even possible, Mas Damian has finished choosing the woman prepared by his mother to be his second wife.

"I can't stand it, Mas ... I can't stand it if I'm being cheated on," I said late. But I'm sure Mas Damian can still hear it. "I beg you, this time, refuse Mom's request. I don't want to be polygamous. I can't see you have another woman."

"Airin ... Please, understand."

"Do I still not understand you, Mom?" I asked rhetorically, "I have sacrificed to save your pride. Do I have to sacrifice again?"

"Honey, I don't want this either. I tried to reject it."

"Mas was just trying to resist it. Not reject it absolutely without being inviolable. I always acted in my mother's decision." I breathe heavily. Trying to neutralize my breath and stop crying. "If I choose the first option from what Mom has to offer, what do you think, Mas?" Instantly Mas Damian pulled my body to his back. A second later the man was already on top of me and looking at me sternly. "You want a divorce with Mas, Ai?"

Wait, didn't he even intend to divorce me? Why does he not seem to want a divorce?

"Forced, Mas. I have no other choice."

"Watery!" Damian is really angry right now. "You promised you wouldn't leave Mas no matter what! You want to break your promise last night?"

"Want I should be sincerely polygamous? That, Mas? After everything I've done for you?"

Damian looks offended because I was impressed to insinuate him. "We'll find a way out first, Ai. We think with a cold head."

"Airin," reprimanded Mas Damian. But I replied with a bitter smile, "I give up, Mas."

He does not reply with words. His mouth is now used to silence my lips. His kiss was quite rude and rushed. I tried to throw my face to the side to release this gap, but Mas Damian held my face so that I could not avoid it anymore.

Why is he suddenly like this? Is this how you express your emotions now?

My mood is so bad, and I'm still very emotional. I don't like this treatment. Then I immediately pushed his body with both hands as hard as I could. When the hot kiss came off, I immediately snorted at him while panting. While Mas Damian .. was not who I thought he was, he looked like he was going to cry now.

Gosh, why is he putting on such a pathetic expression? I'm the one who should be expressing that way now!

"Mas—"

"Mas loves you, Ai. I love you so much" it's fast. His voice sounded great. His face was so red with tears welling up in the eye peluk. "Mas doesn't want you to go ...."

"Mas .. please don't be like this. Don't make myself in any more difficult situations" I said softly.

Mas Damian turned back, "Please don't go, Ai. Don't leave Mas. I realized how much I loved you after our fight last night. I don't want to lose you" he said with tears falling down my face.

If Mas Damian is weak with his mother's words, then I am weak with his request. But ... I really can't be combined. What woman would her beloved husband have with another woman?

"Sorry, Mas. If the choice was only divorced or combined, then I was forced to choose the first option. I can't watch you marry another woman later. I'd rather .. go."

Again, Mas Damian did not answer through words. He kissed me in a hurry. Even now it feels more rough than before. For this one I can really feel an emotion in him.

"M-mas," my great-grandson, tried to stop him from doing more. Her hand had already entered my shirt and was caressing the surface of my skin sensually. Her lips have even moved to my neck. Before, when we made love I always forbade him to make a mark there because I had to teach the next day. But now Mas Damian did not care at all, he fiercely kissed and even bit my nape to cause a reddish rash there.

"Mas, no!"

Although I forbid him to continue this and continue to thrash, Mas Damian did not care and remained busy with his work. Somehow his emotions now even like mixed with lust.

I also decided to resign. Free to fight, he even more violently touched me violently. I finally chose silence and could only cry while whimpering.

"You belong to Mas, Ai. Mas Belong. So don't think about leaving Mas because you promised to stay by Mas's side no matter what the situation," he said before entering me. "Mas will keep you."

.........

Azan Maghrib reverberated when Mas Damian got his release for the umpteenth time. I, who was so tired, pushed his weak body and asked him to let me go. This time, he just wanted to comply. Maybe I'm tired too.

I was trying to neutralize my heart rate and breathing that was still burning. Mas Damian's game was different than usual. I was overwhelmed because he did it so rudely. My body hurts all the time.

"Airin," he called again as he raised the blanket to cover our bodies. After that his hand again touched my face and put away the hair child that was attached to the face because it was wet with sweat. "You know that it's the barren one here, Ai. That means, want to marry again is also free."

"So you don't have to worry. If later Mas still forced to marry another woman, the woman will still not be able to get pregnant. Mother will certainly realize by itself who is in trouble here. After that, we will return to life together without anyone bothering," said Mas Damian. I could only look at him with a smile. Not having the energy even just to answer his words. "So please hold on a little bit more. Stay by my side. Mas promised your position will not be disturbed by anyone let alone new people. When the facts reveal themselves later, maybe Mas is ready to admit it to people. After that Mas will make amends to you and we will both live happily ever after. Just the two."

Seriate...