The Tears of a Wife

Trancey

The pink mortal had dawned, the painting of the universe looked beautifully curved in the sky after the rain had subsided. But my mood is so bad to admire the beauty of nature today. I just drove out my mom and Mira decided to go home. Previously, I planned to stay overnight and talk about my uterus problems that were actually healthy. But, Mas Damian asked them to come home on the grounds of wanting to talk about something important with me. Although Mas Damian said it subtly, mother still felt like she was being chased away. The middle-aged woman came home with an annoyed expression and a cocky feeling.

"Mas." After Mira's car and mother actually left, I immediately went back into the house and approached Mas Damian who was still sitting on the living room sofa. The man looked to be twitching his temples with a tired expression.

"What did Damian mean? Why do you say that to Mom?" sue me for an explanation.

Damian got up from his seat and stood in front of me. He then held both of my shoulders and again put on a hardened face. "I'm sorry, Airin. Mas forced. It is impossible to say that we are going to divorce because it is the barren one. I don't want you to be shocked and get sick."

I'm guessing, here's why.

"But, Mas .. therefore I became angry and disappointed in me. Besides, I don't want to divorce Mas Damian," I replied with both eyes that I felt were heating up. The clear liquid had already filled my eyes and was ready to spill.

"Can't we find another way, Mom? I beg. I love Mas Damian very much. I don't want a divorce."

Mas Damian sighed. His eyes seemed to be red. While his right hand was raised touching my cheek. "Mas actually doesn't want a divorce either, Ai. Mas also still loves you very much," he said.

"Why did Damian decide to divorce?" I held Mas Damian's hand on my cheek. Grasping her tightly as if not wanting to let her go. "I'm fine, Mom, with this situation. I don't care if I can't get pregnant. But I would be very sad if Mas Damian left," I continued with a small sob.

"Airin ...."

"Mas, I really love you. Five years is not a short time. I don't want our marriage to end just like that."

"But ...."

"Children need not be questioned, Mas. We can adopt the child later. Think of him as his own son. That's enough for me. Most importantly, Mas stay with me" I asked with tears running down my cheeks. I see Mas Damian looking doubtful. I know and I'm sure he still loves me. Seen from the look of his eyes that are still filled with affection. However, his current situation made him doubtful. Maybe he felt ashamed and inappropriate for me.

"You still love me, don't you, Mas? Then please don't let me go. I want to stay by Mas Damian's side."

Again, I begged. Keep asking him not to divorce me. I'm really okay with Mas Damian's condition. It doesn't matter if she can't get me pregnant. The child is not a problem that is important to me. There are a lot of kids who don't have parents out there. We can adopt it and think of it like a real child ourselves. For me that's enough. Most importantly, Mas Damian stayed with me forever.

Although Mas Damian has changed lately, not as sweet as before, I'm sure Mas Damian wasn't that good at leaving me. I'm sure he still wants to be with me. But his circumstances had damaged his confidence. Surely his pride as a husband and his ego as a man is hurt. That's why Mas Damian chose to let me go so as not to be ashamed anymore.

"Mas ..you're still Damian who I love so much even though you're slowly starting to change. I didn't even recognize Mas last night. It was not like my husband was warm and gentle. But, I understand the circumstances that made Mas Damian this way. That's why, I said I don't want to part with you, Mom. I want to stay by your side to strengthen each other," I explained at length. Mas Damian looked moved, but he still shook his head and refused.

"Don't, Ai. Don't hang with a guy like me. You deserve a real man, who can make offspring together with you. Not like this sick man."

"Mas, don't talk like that."

"Mas does not want you who are healthy are forced to adopt children because of Mas. Your body is very healthy to be pregnant. You better find another man for your future children."

"Mas, I told you not to talk like that!" I immediately rebuffed Mas Damian's remark. Now it was me who framed his face. Staring at him with nanar, so did Mas Damian. I know we're both emotional here.

"After all, Mas can't bear the shame, Ai. Just look at it Mas even hurt you just for the sake of protecting Mas's own pride. I can't admit it and leave it to you." The man is now really sobbing. Both of his shoulders were shaking violently. I immediately pulled his body to be hugged tightly. I rubbed the straight back of Mas Damian who was now so limp. Really, I am very unbearable with his current state.

"Mas .. If that's what made you give up and let me go, then I'm ready to replace Mas Damian. I'll admit the barren verdict from that doctor. So, Mas Damian did not need to think about it anymore," I added without the slightest hesitation. Damian who heard was surprised. He even let go of our embrace and looked at me.

"What do you mean, Ai? Obviously you're healthy—"

"Airin, don't do this ...."

"It's okay, Mom. I'm sincere. I don't have a problem with that. The most important thing is to stay with me and keep loving me." I really don't mess with my words. My love for Mas Damian is huge. I am ready to sacrifice for him. I am ready to endure the shame of replacing him. Most importantly, my husband stayed with me forever. I don't want to see it destroyed like before.

Meanwhile Mas Damian looked even more moved. He just pulled my body and hugged me so tightly. A warm feeling immediately spread in my heart as she thanked me while crying and saying love, "Thank you, dear. Thank ye. Mas loves you so much. I won't leave you."

"Yes, Mas. I love you too. So stay with me forever."

.........

Waking up from sleep hugged by Mas Damian is a moment I miss. I immediately smiled realizing that the man's burly arms were still coiled in my stomach and my face was right opposite his face.

"Mas ...," called me softly, wiping his face. Mas Damian only replied with a groan while his two eyes remained tightly closed.

"Mas Mian .. wake up, Mas. Soon the dawn." I again tried to wake him up, and again Mas Damian only replied with a groan.

Upset and anxious to see the face of my husband that was so innocent while sleeping, I pinched his nose slowly. Just wanted to pinch, my fingers even hang there flanking Mas Damian's nose until he certainly can't breathe.

"Aiiii," said Mas Damian, and removed my hand from his nose. After that instead of opening his eyes, he even more tightened his embrace on my body.

"Buck, uh. Wakes up. Awakening the dawn."

"There's still a few minutes. I'm still sleepy, Ai."

I pinched his nose again. "But to wake up early. Don't forget we have to take a zunub bath first before praying."

Yes, we just let go of longing after a long feud. But it can't be said to be feuding either, anyway. Because it was Mas Damian who was acting cold. But fortunately, now he was warm again and began to spoiled back to me.

"Yes!" whinekku because Mas Damian never woke up.

"Alright." He finally opened his eyes. "But take a bath together, huh?" his god with a grin on his face.

Jeez, wake up when the hormones go up again, all right?

"How many rounds do you want, Mom? Not satisfied with last night?" tanyaku. Because I was hit all-out last night. Maybe he was nostalgic because it had not channeled his desire for a long time.

"Whatever you're satisfied with, Ai. You're too opium. Make addicted," he whispered while chuckling softly. I hit his chest softly with a red hue running across his face. After that, Mas Damian got up from the bed without caring about his innocent body. The redder this face becomes. Before I could protest, Mas Damian had already tucked up my blanket and lifted my body easily into his carrier.

"Mas!"

"If alternating baths are too stalling, Ai. Better take a shower together. Can all—"

"What?" I immediately interrupted while glancing at him. The man laughed and bowed me down on the closet. Before I could speak again, he immediately silenced my lips and began to do his favorite activity. Huh, you man. There's no satisfaction.

Seriate...