The Story At Dusk And Rain

Section 11

I sat on the bed, staring at the ceiling of my room.

"Sister Ritcher, doesn't feel yes. It's been a year, it feels like just how many months ago we were still throwing greetings. And it feels like just how many months ago we had a fight." I muttered.

Him, someone who managed to amaze me. For whatever reason, I always managed to find him in every crowd, an unassailable eye, a desire to be always around him, my curiosity about him, everything about him. I do not understand what this feeling is, a face that feels warm when talking to him, a heart that beats fast if with him. I always felt strange things that I had never experienced while with him. I was always amazed at him, his friendly attitude towards everyone, his gentle way of speaking. I really admire him.

As the days passed, I began to realize my feelings. I love it, I love Ritcher's sister. And subconsciously I kept trying to be around him, doing things with him. I really enjoyed it, the days I spent were different, I started to feel happy when I was with him. I don't want to miss times like this. I kept my feelings close to her, I knew what would happen if she knew my true feelings. Days passed, and my feelings were piling up. Too bad, those piles were meaningless anymore, the day the pile of feelings was wasted arrived. At the school anniversary festival, at that time..

"Anu Yona!" call brother Ritcher, please,

"Yeah.?" reply,

"Who's the girl?" ask Ritcher while pointing at someone,

"Ahh him? She was my friend in class 10-1, her name was Iana. What's up?" my tofu, my,

"Anuu, can you introduce us?" ask Ritcher, brother,

"What?" I was surprised, though,

"Yes.. I thought since you were close to her, maybe I could ask you for help. Can't it?" ask Ritcher, brother,

"Ah.. I-iya, te-of course I can. Wh-why not?" I said stiff, though,

"really?" ask brother Ritcher happy,

"L-yes." I tried to smile,

[Bright.. Now what? Am I still going to like you? How'this? My chest felt tight,] I thought,

We walked over to Iana who was tidying up her class booth.

"Hey Iana!" call me, man,

"Ehh, Yona? What's up?" reply, reply,

"Anu, there's a friend of mine who wants to know you" I'm trying to look normal,

"He. uh.?" he was surprised, though,

"Bright.. Iana this is Ritcher's sister, she's from class 11-2. Ritcher's sister Iana from 10-1" I said trying to smile,

[Gosh this is so hard, I can't help it. My eyes are hot.]

"Ahh. anu I still haven't finished cleaning my classroom booth, excuse me!" say

"YOU CONTINUE TO TALK!!" I screamed to look normal.

I rushed to the toilet, trying to cover my face so that no other students could be seen.

Huhh.. Huhh.. My breathing is irregular. My tears began to drip, trying to hold the sobs from being heard.

[What's wrong with me! What did you expect? Who are you? You're just a mean little underclassman to him! Do you deserve it? Akkhh ] thought I.

After that day, I began to confine myself to Ritcher's brother. I'm no longer clinging to him, it's just that we still go out together a lot. The next weekend we went to the night market. I was pretty excited that night, I thought it was just the two of us. I still hope for the no-no.

"Ahh yes," I said,

I ran towards Brother Ritcher, my steps slowly became slow as Iana appeared from inside the accessories store. I couldn't help but face my surprise,

"Ehhh.?" I said spontaneously,

"I'm sorry I took Iana away together, but I promised you" Ritcher apologized,

"Ehh. It's okay, it doesn't matter" I said,

[Lying, why should I lie] I thought,

"Sister! Let's go over there! There's a good game!" exclaims Iana while embracing the arm of Ritcher's brother, Ritcher,

"Ahh. yes yes~" replied Ritcher,

[How long have they known? It's close, ] I thought upset'

I just fell silent, saw them laughing, throwing jokes at each other, doing things that looked friendly.

[I'm like a fool accompanying them on a date, it sucks!] thought, me,

They keep stepping from place to place, tasting food, playing games, riding rides, and more. And I, I just walked behind them, followed where they went, ALONE!

[So, I came just to see their affection? I want to go home!] thought, me,

"Senior! I'm sorry, my sister just called She asked me to come home soon, so I'm sorry I have to go home first!" I said reasoned, though,

"ahhhhh.. Too bad, then be careful on the road!" he said,

[Lied! You're happy to be alone with her, ] I thought,

I didn't answer, turned around and left Ritcher's sister I didn't have to bother saying goodbye to Iana.

I continued to experience the same thing afterwards. There was no time for us just the two of us. Whether in the library, class, canteen, field, park, backyard school, locker or corridor. And after school too. I'm getting sick of this. Slowly I began to detach myself from Ritcher's sight. I began to move as far away as I could, rejecting all the calls he offered.

[My presence doesn't matter, wouldn't it be better to stay away? Why continue to torture feelings? Appreciate yourself! There's still a lot to do. Don't keep thinking about the hurt heart.] I thought,

As time went on, our distance grew further. Slowly I got used to it, no longer even remembering its warm figure. Two weeks later, something happened to them. Wellh.predictably, the quarrel between couples.

"Hey Yona!" call Ellie, call Ellie,

"Hm?" sahutku,

"I heard them fighting, really?" ask Ellie, please,

"Huh? Who?"

"Ck, the senior.." explains Ellie,

"Now, it's none of my business!" ketusku, though,