The Promise Rejected

Chapter 16

The Rejected Promise

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From that incident, I am not calm. I've impregnated a girl. I wanted to see her, but I was afraid of her parents. I called him, but he didn't return messages from me. Maybe he was disappointed and hated me.

I haven't seen him in college in a week. I got worried. I have always been haunted by guilt. Even to the point of entering my dreams. I encouraged myself to talk to Dad. I'll be honest with them, if I've made Intan pregnant.

They were surprised when they found out that I had made Intan pregnant, especially Mama she was very surprised when she heard my words. Even they scolded me all-out, I almost got battered by my father, but Mama held him back.

In the morning they took me to see Intan's parents. When I got there, I began to explain what I had done. They knew that her daughter was pregnant. After Mom asked for Intan's whereabouts.

It turns out they kicked him out. So this is the reason why Intan didn't go to college.

" Where are you going Intan" My inner self.

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For months I searched for him. But I don't know where he is. Where the hell is he going?. He went to take my son. Where else should I look for her?. I called her number many times, but she was inactive.

" I'm sorry Intan! " Mygot.

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I started to feel pain in my stomach. Immediately I brought a bag containing my maternity supplies which I had prepared last month. I got in the car slowly and immediately went to the Midwife's house. I have to endure this pain so I can get to the midwife's house. Now that I have arrived, I ask the midwife for help to bring my things.

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I am now fighting between life and death. I fought long alone. And I gave birth without a companion, husband does not have, parents do not exist. There is no encouragement. There was no hand holding my finger. Is this what it feels like for a mother to give birth?.

I remember Mama, Mama must have felt what I felt right now. I've let her down, made her hurt.

" Mah, forgive Intan "Lirihku.

Thank God, my baby came out safe, healthy, and there was no shortage of anything. Put that red baby on my chest. He was looking for his food source. The pain I felt now disappeared somewhere. But, sadly, I'm not missing. My son was born without a father, Dito should be here to accompany me, give me encouragement, and be able to prosecute his daughter.

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Now I can't sleep well at night. Eating is not on time, let alone taking a shower, there is no time for me to take a shower or beautify myself anymore. It's good to be a young mother like me.

Two months have passed. There are many obstacles I face. I take care of my daughter alone. It's not easy for me to take care of a baby alone, so much so.

Today I want to take Adira to the city. I want to see Papa and Mama, I miss her so much. Although I did not visit his house directly, but I wanted to see it from a distance, to treat my longing all this time.

Adira Prima Rahardja is a beautiful name, right?. Even I still pin the name Rahardja. Because now Adira is part of my family.