The Primadona

Chapter 27 Vacillating

Oscillated

Throughout the journey my mind recalls all of Bianca's words. The woman I thought was perfect showed her battle. I just need peace and trust. Appreciated as a man, I was dirty. But still have self-respect. This head just feels like it's gonna break. The fight was still raging in my brain.

"Don't touch me, again. Go!" Bianca rebuked while pointing a finger right at my face. I instantly reflexed and slapped his face. No one can do that to me.

A plaaakkk! A hard slap landed on Bianca's cheek. His eyes were staring into my eyeballs, maybe he couldn't believe what he was receiving. These eyes are red, my hands are clenched. Want to hit the wall to get a little angry.

"Never show your finger on my face!" my grit. My eyes were round as I clutched his jaw.

"Auhkh, sick. You're cruel, Bum!" she screamed and clawed and hit me. No more soft words. Bianca is very different. Makes me sick for a moment.

"yeah. I am cruel! Because you don't understand what I need right now!' my reply is full of emphasis.

"I don't want to see your face again!" Bianca's screams seemed to slice this heart. Frozen my race like it was suddenly warm. This chest rippled, this anger was gone. Bianca was torn apart, her hair was a mess from the slap. Repeatedly he rubbed his cheeks, a hint of blood peeking at the slit of his thin lips.

"Bi, pardon .. me," I softened as I reached him. But Bianca is in revolt.

"Don't! Nay! Don't come any closer, Bum!" emphatically. When I forced myself to reach her waist. Hope his anger subsides. But nil, wrath again reigns over this heart.

"Whatever, if that's what you want. I won't wander anymore." I said as I raised both palms up. It's enough as a man I've been to village women like him. Bianca was flabbergasted, not knowing what she wanted.

Bianca walked towards the closet. I looked at him, there was pity in this gap of hearts, but .... Bianca just threw away strands after strands of my clothes until there was nothing left at all. All he threw about my face. I don't think he appreciates this anymore.

"Fuckers!" this curse is rough.

"Go! I don't want to live with a dirty traitor even so disgusting!" Bianca belittles while throwing out the salivary.

"What?" Huh! What, you saying? Dirty .... You are dirty and cheap!" my reply was to hold his jaw, and then strangle his neck so that Bianca could not say a word. Only his hand was trying to release the grip of this hand.

Striking Bianca's body hard to fall on the bed. He fell on his stomach. Her crying was high, but I didn't care anymore.

I began to put one by one my clothes in a large suitcase.

Bianca came back crying, maybe she regretted what she had decided. Without caring about him anymore I went out while carrying a suitcase to the garage leaving the house owned by an arrogant person.

I went to my parents' house.

*****

Various kinds raged in this mind.

Arriving at Abah's house, I immediately entered without carrying a suitcase.

I hide the problems that are happening to me.It is not nice to bring problems to parents, just swallow yourself bitterly bitter my fate.

"Main nyelonong, yes. Which wife? Kok ngak follow," Ambu asked immediately to make this step stop.

"Oh, yes .... Bi, busy." Suddenly, this tongue is twisted.

I can't bear to see Ambu, let alone tell her what happened. My body was dazed and bowed lethargic on the dining room chair. Ambu looked astonished.

"Eat, gih," the Ambu commandment.

"Still full" I answered briefly. I was stunned for a moment to play the phone on the table.

"Mom, I'm going to Jakarta again. There's important business." Suddenly this tongue was eloquent.

"Huh?! Did you not hear wrong? With your wife?"

"Yes-no. I'll just go alone. Bi, busy. Where can leave the fields, many workers need to be monitored. Where is the harvest," I explained.

"There really is, business?" It looks like I keep a lot of questions.

"Yes-- There was a sudden business today as well I decided to leave, so as to quickly finish business and go home," I explained.

Hearing the explanation, he gave his blessing as well as Abah. From this instinct it seemed like they knew his son was in a state of not being okay. Repeatedly Ambu and Abah exchanged lyrics.

I cling and hold tightly to the woman who gave birth to me. Repeatedly again and again I have made the old man again swallow the bitter pill for my failure to try to build the household ark. Just wanted to leave, that's all. Without scraping my wounds.

Bianca the woman I had thought would understand on the dark side, also wrong and khilaf during bachelor, but the same! The village woman who spoke the soft word was the same! It's not like a metropolitan mess. Apparently his mouth was like a wolf was extremely cruel!Bianca feels like I'm a dirty husband. It is no longer worth touching him, what is again the owner of his heart. Impossible to endure what else to explain. In such a woman, it makes this heart sick. I hit the car handlebar many times.

I wonder why they are always fighting over things that have passed. Why is it that no one wants to embrace in order to leave the wall of sin? Slowly there was a feeling of disgust filling my mind. "Bundal! Women are the same, not even the townspeople! The same!"

I hissed, the shadows of those women were disgusting.

If it is not attractive, maybe the women will want me. All hypocrites, the same. No one can understand a man's heart. Just demanding perfection, holy-suck!

***

Back the frenetic Metropolitan city began to play with the memory of bringing it back to that time. The time where I was revered as the prima donna with the most expensive pay. Satisfied napsu se*s ladies with wild horses and thick purses.

I should be able to get back up from the current state of affairs.

I made the wrong decision. Just think, treasure is only a momentary pleasure, but in fact living without material ripples is not easy!

When I sincerely help Bianca. But what reply did he give me? Finally got out of his house. As if I had no self-respect as a man only I made it. Even though I apologized! Bianca underestimated this self.

All the way loud music accompanied me. I hummed every now and then to let go of all the memories of my first love that had re-entered for a moment.

Light a cigarette while driving with a loud bang music. I felt as if I was carried away in a boisterous discotheque.

Ah .... The body curves of wild horse women playing mock. It really made me swallow the saliva. Hmmm .... Looks like we have to get back to teeth. I smiled remembering that moment.

I grabbed the phone lying in the seat. Started reactivating the contact numbers of the women who booked my services first.

The journey felt pleasant, one by one they quickly responded. No exception Adie, he was happy to hear from me by phone.

"Seriously, you know. No delirious?" he answered when I called him and told him.

"Damn it, don't believe it. I'm on my way, Broo!"

"What a Bum! Thank goodness many asked where you were," Adie explained to me.

"Udah. Just get me Die! I am ready to serve them. Haaa ..haa!" My laughter followed Adie at the end of there.

I asked Adie to inform her that Bumi Respati "the prima donna" will return.

I have to get a client as soon as possible because my situation is really falling. Go not have time to ask for a penny from Bianca. Only a little savings are left for temporary living capital.

****

Adie asked me to stay with her first, for a while. Before getting clients and being able to rent an apartment again. His offer was immediately also I am Aminni. Adie's the best friend.

Glittering lights, rows of tall buildings as if greeting my presence back. The disco lights, the usual cafe where my hangout used to be, seemed to help restore the memory in my head. I laughed it all in front of my eyes.

Arriving at Adie's apartment. It looks like Adie's been waiting for me in the lobby. We entered without much ado. Ah .... Apparently Adie already has already had Beby with her partner's foreign woman first. He was successful in his decision.

"Lo, holy grail. Bum," he said shortly after we sat down and enjoyed a cup of coffee made by his wife.

"Now .... What's?! You're back to being a badass. Wearing!" taunted Adie.

"Ah. Nevermind, Die. Don't make me remember all the memories about .... Ah, Nevermind. Now I'm back that's all." I didn't like it when Adie gave her silly talk.

The draat!!

Adie's cell phone turned on several times. Seen Adie check the row of WA notifications. Adie throws a smile at me while showing her chat.

"Thank you Die. You are my best friend and God to me. You're a helper at a crucial moment like this" I said, rubbing my face. Adie smiled at me.

"Welcome again, my friend! This is our world. Realize your dream, enjoy it," Adie said as she patted this shoulder.

"Hem."

"Gih .... Rest, tomorrow to the salon. Treatment, look at you. Wearing!" Adie stepped back into her room, then stepped into her room.

Huuff!

I took a breath and brought the suitcase into the room. The mirror in the room is welcoming, clearly visible from toe to head. Ah, you're right. I'm so worried.

"Stupid you, Bum!" my grunts dropped themselves on the bed.