The Passion of Love of the Racer

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“This what drug?” asked Keanu who managed to take a small bottle containing many small grains of pill.

“It ... Hm ..” Jihan paused her words. Kepalany is thinking of stringing the right words so that Keanu does not misunderstand his decision.

Keanu looked at the wife's nervous face while frowning his fingers. The man approached Jihan.

“What medicine, Ji? Are you sick?” ask Keanu again.

Jihan immediately shook her head quickly. “It ... medicine ..”

Jihan's throat felt choked due to that intimidating look. He stared fixedly at Keanu's curious face.

“Kean. I'm sorry,” said Jihan slowly.

“For?”

“For this drug.” Jihan held the bottle Keanu held while still looking at the two eyeballs. “I postpone it.”

Keanu squinted his eyes. “You mean?”

“Hm.. You know, I was born without a father. From childhood, I was often in the bully. And, I don't want my son to have the same fate as me later.”

Keanu was getting confused and did not understand what Jihan said.

“I postpone pregnancy by taking this pill, until your family bless us.” Jihan explained carefully.

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Like being struck by lightning. Keanu shook his head. “What?”

“Sorry, Kean. I'm just afraid, when I got pregnant, we split up. I don't want our kids to grow up with single parents like me. That's very unpleasant.”

Keanu disappointed. He stared alternately at the small bottle he was holding with Jihan's face. “So this pill KB?”

Jihan nodded.

“So all this time, the effort we do every night will not work?”

Jihan shook her head.

Keanu increasingly distrusted with the actions of Jihan. “so all this time, I hope while you break that spirit?”

“Kean, sorry.” Jihan hugged her husband's body. “Sorry.” She was crying too. “Really I didn't mean it that way. Really!”

Keanu. He stood without sound and without movement. While Jihan continued to hug her husband tightly.

“I no longer drink that. Really am! Starting tonight, I won't drink it,” said Jihan so Keanu doesn't get angry.

And, yeah. Keanu was not angry, but the man chose silence.

“Kean, talk!” Jihan tried to shake the body of Keanu who had been staring and no longer making a sound.

Really, Jihan felt very guilty about this decision.

Tok .. Tok .. Tok …

Jihan's cry came to a halt as someone knocked on their bedroom door. Keanu also reflexively directed his face at the sound of the knock.

“Ji,” call Lastri.

Jihan wiped her tears and replied, “iya, Bu.”

“Let's lunch first! You guys just got here and must be hungry. I have prepared lunch for you,” said Lastri again from behind the door.

“Mother wait yes!” lastri said again.

“Iya, Mum.” That was Jihan's answer from now on.

Jihan looked at her husband who was away. Keanu distanced himself from Jihan. He placed the small bottle he had been holding onto the dressing table along with Jihan's skincare. Then, Keanu's steps approached the door.

Jihan ran over to her husband and hugged Keanu back. Really, he was scared. Jihan is afraid Keanu is disappointed and leaves. He could not lose the man, although Keanu was already disappointed to know this fact.

“Don't go, Kean. I beg! I'm sorry.”

Keanu was silent. He did not return the hug. Though usually it is Keanu who often sticks and hugs his wife first.

“Kean,” call Jihan while turning her head to look at Keanu's face with a sorry look.

Keanu was still silent and had yet to return the hug. Instead, he still raised his hand to hold the door handle and opened the door.

“Where are you going?” ask Jihan scared.

“Eat,” reply Keanu flat. “Your mom asked us for lunch right?”

Jihan relieved. He took off his embrace at Keanu's waist and followed the man towards the dining room.

****

Tonight, not like the usual nights. Usually every night, Keanu and Jihan would fight before going to bed, making the bed sway and bolster pillows and blankets scattered. But tonight Keanu sleeps faster. He did not even hug Jihan and did not rub his head.

Jihan's heart felt sliced. He knew that Keanu was disappointed. He did not expect that his decision would have such a negative impact. Jihan is aware that she is selfish, even though Keanu has fought for her so much that she is willing to leave the people she loves to be with him.

“Kean,” call Jihan while bringing her body closer to the body of Keanu who is behind her. “We didn't fight tonight?” tanyanya polo's.

Keanu did not answer. The man pretended to close his eyes. Indeed, Keanu is still upset by Jihan's decision to delay pregnancy when he really wants to have the fruit of love from the love they have that is channeled in a passion and unification.

“Kean, don't leave me!” jihan said softly as he hugged Keanu's waist and focused his head on that slanted shoulder. “Kean.”

Since the incident last afternoon, Keanu has not spoken to Jihan. The man chose silence and did not scold his wife.

“Better you get angry with me, rather than silence me like this,” said Jihan again. This time, with tears.

Jihan came back crying after noon because she was caught. Although Keanu was disappointed, but he could not yell or scold his wife. Therefore, Keanu chose silence.

Jihan's tears rolled down Keanu's burly arms as Jihan's head was still resting on her slanted slumped arm defending her.

Keanu can't sleep. It just closed its eyes. His heart was also sliced when he heard his wife's cries and the tears that he felt soaked his arms. However, he wanted to teach Jihan a little lesson by staying quiet and not easily forgiving. Although in fact he had forgiven and understood the explanation of Jihan to take this decision. But at the very least, Jihan should have talked to him first about this and not made up her own mind.

"Kean, talk to me. I don't like to be silenced" Jihan said in a voice that sounded spoiled.

Keanu was still and motionless. He was still with his position lying on his side, turning his back to Jihan.

"Honey," call Jihan again.

Now with the name of love for the first time. And behind that, Keanu smiled faintly while keeping his eyes closed.

Jihan continued to persuade her husband by staying asleep on that arm. Jihan's fingers moved through Keanu's checkered stomach. It was actually a torture for Keanu because Jihan managed to get him excited with that gentle touch. But, Keanu still held him back for the sake of a prestige to show that he was disappointed.

"Kean, I know you haven't slept. You can't sleep before you make love, right? Let's get laid! I'll serve you as long as we want."

Jihan again persuaded her husband, making Keanu again comment on the thin smile from behind Jihan's body.

Keanu's heart is at war between accepting the tantalizing offer now but there's no deterrent effect for Jihan, or holding it back but it's a pity to miss.

"Huh, you pervert." Keanu cursed himself in a heart that could not help but be tempted by Jihan's charm and body.