The Night Hugging the Stars (The Ghost Mystery of the Dark Forest)

Solitude Without you

Today is the day that a million warmth from the figure of a husband has gone away. The morning before his departure made me want to cry but I didn't. I released with a big heart so that his heart and work became calm. I'm a simple Nawang woman who somehow got the durian collapsed suddenly. The presence of my husband was unexpected, the meeting took us to a serious step. It was only a week of our introduction, and God soon united the bonds of love through a marriage.

Not knowing then no dear, an ancient saying that still applies to me, I do not know him at all but that brief introduction made a change in my life. I'm very lucky to get a good man and be able to appreciate a woman like her. Mas Oci is the one. The figure of a gentle man, black-skinned and thin-moustached. Thank you for coming into my life. Your presence makes my bleak life color.

The clock has shown at 6am that it's time for him to leave my arms. Only solitude and the rest of the sadness I now feel.

"Darling I'm saying goodbye, take good care of myself as long as I'm away from you. "

Last words before he left for the city. Now the warm house is only quiet.

This house was made because he wanted to live independently with me. Until there is good news that graces our lives. That child candidate who made my days with Oci more colorful. But God only left him in my stomach for 6 months. Until the incident ended all the colors that I have tore with mas Oci and my future son.

He went missing carrying all his 6-month memories. Now the colored paper we both painted was gone and left only blank white paper. And on the white paper there is a point in the middle. That point now symbolizes my current self. Just the colorless solitude I've been through since my future son left and Oci's mas out of town. One night without her felt so slow, the warm memory debris I painted with her felt like a wall painting. Seen but not alive. The sad feeling I went through without my husband.

My heart aches like a dagger accidentally pierced my body. The intangible pain.

A day, two days, three days was hard even though Pakha and Boy were sometimes visiting to comfort me. Although from the outside I am strong but from the inside I am very fragile.

My heart is firm, heal quickly so that your body recovers. Move on said people are difficult, this is not about dating break up keep moving on. But it's about the heart that can only improve as time goes on.

The fifth day since Oci left town was the schedule I control to the hospital.

I went alone without being accompanied by my husband. If I had asked my family to be with me, they would have been ready at any time, but I didn't. Let this pain go through myself. I did keep my control schedule secret with my family including Mas Oci. I just don't want to be a burden on them. When the problem I can still face myself I will do it myself.

Reality is more important than my ego.

The day I was in control of the hospital alone was a pregnant woman passing in front of my eyes. Somehow my hand still reflexes as before unconsciously I stroked the stomach but now different not distended like before, on average feels empty mlompong. Unknowingly my eyes were dripping clear water that kept flowing accompanying the long queue I was waiting for.

It's not that I didn't let go of her but the pieces of memory made my chest tight.

I don't blame anyone for that, God's destiny made him go. All things of his will, Allah is almighty.

I'm actually afraid of being alone. But I have to be strong with this situation. You go, I'm alone.

Don't know what to do without you. But I know your heart is for me. Trust it.

I miss you so much here. A week I think a year I don't know what I'm going to do to fill this void.

"Naee why are you? let me help you." That time I was helped to stand.

He was my old college friend and he's also the man I had in my life 2 years ago his name was Dandi.

I talked to him for a while, talked about the past and he didn't know I was married. His eyes were still as warm and comfortable. I used to avoid him not because I hated him but because he and I were different castes. I'm just a country boy with a college merit scholarship but he's the son of the rector of the college. I was afraid of being humiliated and humiliated in the eyes of my family. I'm nothing with him that's one of the reasons I stay away from him.

"Naee you're so dumb, so how are you now? "ask dandi about my current situation.

"I'm fine and, "that's all I answer. I don't want to tell you all my grief that I just experienced let me keep this pain tight with my husband's Oci mas.

"When I'm married, "

"Hahaha naee you said what the hell, "dandi said he could not believe that I was married.

Naee my nickname is from Dandi. I don't know why he always calls me that when all my friends call me nawang.

"I'm really married" my words repeated steadily to make her sure .

For some reason the look on his face changed instantly after he heard my words. It was as if I had torn apart her important body part that made her sad. He only spoke a thousand languages while sitting next to me. What really happened to him. What my words hurt her heart, but I just told her that I was married, just that it was nothing less and nothing more.

After the sun began to rise above my head I began to say goodbye to Dandi but still the same she fell silent without replying to my saying goodbye. But when I stepped a little away from him, he called me.

"Naee. "

His words made my heart ache like it was hit by a sharp metal shard piercing the heart. What did he do, didn't he know that I was married? .My heart is rained down by millions of bombs ready to explode at any moment.

"DANDI ENOUGH.Your love is wrong, I'm not like I used to be, don't expect too much for the love you'll never get, I now belong to someone else. "

After I said the words that would definitely hurt her heart, I immediately left her who was silent at the bottom of the tree dancing in the wind.

I know that I hurt her a lot, and I was too selfish when I accepted Oci's application to a man I didn't know at all. But I fell in love with Mas Oci because he was very good and religious who is now able to change me into a good person.

Dandi I'm sorry, I know you're the longest man to have accompanied my days but fate says otherwise. Sorry a thousand sorry.

Quite first yes the story of the life of the nawang which has also been no less interesting to read. Look forward to other unexpected surprises in the next episode. Reading spirit.