The Little Wife of Arsen

Chapter 53: I want to die, Mas

"Mas Arsen"

Arsen looked up slowly as his name was called. Bi Ina stood on the doorstep separating the living room and dining room complete with two bags carried by the woman.

Arsen did contact bi Ina earlier. Asking bi Ina to stay at the temporary house to accompany Alea when she was not home. Arsen was too afraid to leave his wife alone.

Just like her, Alea's appearance also looked just as chaotic. Every stroke on her face showed that not only was the woman's physique extremely tired, but her soul was similarly tired. Probably more tired than what Arsen is feeling right now.

Being lied to, finding out if her husband's heart still belonged to someone else and the cause of the deaths of both parents, Arsen feared it could make Alea think of ending her own life. Arsen wouldn't be able to forgive himself for life if that happened.

"My wife's in bi's room. Kaya had not eaten because of drowning until fainting earlier. He did not want to squirm my face, so please be persuaded ya bi" pinta Arsen weak. His eyes looked at bi Ina who was now opening some provisions that the woman brought from the house in front of him.

"That needs to eat Alea bi"

"Mas Arsen also needs to eat to have energy to take care of all these problems. Aunt can help make food"

Arsen smiled hearing that. Come to think of it, it had been a full day almost nothing went into his stomach except coffee and candy this morning. True said bi Ina, he also needed energy to face all these problems, to still be able to hold Alea as heavy as before.

"Thank you bi. Arsen eat later"

"Don't later. Eaten now, while still warm. Yes, aunt up. Look at Alea"

Arsen nodded his head. Take the spoon provided by bi Ina and then start eating the available food. Tasteless. It feels tasteless on the tongue, his body is not good until all the food that enters as if it has no taste. But even so, Arsen continued to force himself to keep eating. Anyway, he has to find Marinka right now. Arsen even told Kenzo to drag the damn woman in front of him right now. If Marinka were to find out, then the woman would also have found out the truth.

The sound of weak steps descending the stairs made Arsen turn his head for a moment. His wife seemed to go down the stairs with bi Ina who helped him not to fall. Putting down the spoon, Arsen immediately stood up and walked closer to the stairs. Intending to help Alea down but instantly gets rejected with the woman's hand telling her to stop.

Arriving at the last step of the ladder. Arsen retreated a few steps giving way for Alea and bi Ina who were walking towards the sofa.

"Sit down. I want to talk to you" opened Alea when bi Ina had bailed back to the kitchen. Leaving behind a couple that looked so chaotic.

Arsen nodded and sat down on the long sofa. Alea sat on a single sofa until their distance was blocked by the wooden table in their midst.

"Yesterday. I saw Marinka mas"

Arsen closed his eyes. Her hands clenched tightly with a deep swearing as she watched Alea stare at the ceiling as if she was pushing away her tears from falling.

"He said something terrible. The pain can even make me forget the starting point of our quarrel because you still like mbak Dira"

"Belk"

Arsen wanted to wipe away the trace of tears flowing back down Alea's cheeks without excuse. Removing it with his palm and closing it by holding it tightly. Share the rest of the energy they have to be stronger to face all that is.

"The sentence scares me. I didn't believe it at first, but when I see you now, I'm a little confident"

"Listen to that, I feel like I want to quit this world mas. Make me follow mom and dad. But I'm afraid they don't accept me. Because, because the only child they had instead fell in love with one of the Yudhistira family members. In love with Arsenio Yudhistira. Falling deeply in love with you is the same"

Following Alea, Arsen's tears trickled along. His heart felt tight to hear this series of confessions of his wife. The real confession was reciprocated with the same feeling by Arsen. He realized Alea meant so much to him. Arsen fell in love with his wife after breaking her into pieces.

Can he make a broken glass?

Can he hold Alea back into his arms?

Sharing a story before going to bed. Share stories about each other's work and activities. Share a laugh with the silly things that happen on their day.

And could, once that happened, they would forget about this matter completely. Alea forgot how deep the knife scratches Arsen had given him?.

Arsen knows, the answer is no.

"They smile in the photo even now looks insincere to me mas. I don't know what to do"

Arsen rubbed his own tears "Sorry Dik. I'm sorry, mas and mas family are sorry for you"

"I'm sorry, man? Wh-wh-what for? Because in fact the word sorry will not be able to be a cure from existing wounds. Me, I want to go back to my family. Definitely not in the world, but up there"

"Al"

"I again thought of not doing that before I found out everything. I want to ask you what really happened, I just feel like I can't trust you. Because..." Alea paused her sentence for a moment to reduce the tightness in the chest. "Because Marinka told me what made my parents die was you" the sentence finally came out along with Alea's tears that broke out.

Arsen who saw that immediately held Alea tightly despite repeated rejections. Alea's screeching and roaring cries added to the scar on Arsen's heart. Actually, how big of a wound had he inflicted on this fragile girl figure?. Arsen did not know before Alea's push on her body felt so great that Alea's hold on Arsen fell apart instantly.

Arsen's pupils widened as Alea suddenly stood up while holding a small dagger around her neck.

"Are you crazy, Al?!!" arsen quickly took over the dagger from Alea's hands while making sure that his wife would be fine. And just as the dagger had already moved Alea's hand slumped with echoing cries. Arsen screeches made bi Ina immediately run into the living room and hugged Alea's body tightly.

"You want to die before my eyes? You want to scratch your pulse in front of your own husband Al?!!" don't want to fight and only hurt himself and his wife more. Arsen chose to snatch his car keys and get out of the house. Explaining in conditions that are not good, it will only add to the wound scratches in each individual.