The Little Steps of the Dream Warrior
Chapter 11 Pupus
Dupus
The noise of the familiar pot began to be heard crowded in the street in front of Abil's rented residence, which was, some of the nomads who have started off from work began to leave the city to return to their hometowns to celebrate Eid al-Fitr. Today is the twenty-fifth day of Ramadan, exactly five days before Lebaran arrives.
Today Abil plans to return home with Apri, a friend who lives in a rented room next to Abil and a village with him. They plan to leave after the issue by using – motor each. Abil is off for the next two weeks, and this is Abil's first holiday overseas and his first homecoming is also for him, so Abil is very enthusiastic about this.
Abil has prepared the needs for homecoming in week – last week, starting from the readiness of the vehicle and other supporting needs. After sleeping about an hour after work last afternoon, Abil and Afri then left at about eight p.m. Travel as far as approximately four hundred and fifty kilometers they will pass with a duration of time if smoothly about nine to eleven hours, or if there are obstacles to traffic jams it certainly takes longer.
Traffic is fairly smooth for going home this year, only because this is the first time Abil traveled quite far with He drove his own vehicle, quite a lot of time they used to rest, he said, until finally around nine in the morning they just arrived home. But it's okay Abil said, after all Lebaran is also still four days away, hunt – hunt is even more risky to safety.
Arriving at home, Abil greeted his mother who was sitting casually with Pak Lek and Bu Lek on the front porch of the house. They look happy with the return of Abil who has not met for about eight months, Mother also looks very happy today after the return of Abil. Abil then went inside the house and cleaned and rested, in addition to eyes that were still sleepy, waist, legs and hands Abil also felt sore once after thirteen hours of driving.
Day – days before Lebaran Abil use to re-enjoy the atmosphere in his village, He sometimes went around in the area around his residence while ngabuburit waiting to break the fast while looking for a certificate to break later. At night, Abil with other young people in his village made preparations for the traveling takbir event, in hopes that this year's Eid can be more lively.
Until finally the night of Lebaranpun arrived, a lively atmosphere enveloped the village where Abil lived. Starting from the traveling takbir held, fireworks, oncor and lanterns make the night takbir eid this year increasingly crowded. When the day of Lebaranpun Abil and his new age friend in the first year – after wandering around feeling very enthusiastic about the moment of Lebaran this time.
Until the fourth day of Eid after the friendship with Abil's family and relatives was completed, after Maghrib Abil went on his motorbike to Venti's house. The woman who Abil taxed from Middle School, Abil promised to himself if in the future he got the opportunity and had enough readiness to be able to express his feelings directly to Ventin, then he will do it by directly asking for blessing and permission to the parents of Venti.
Before leaving earlier, Abil had confirmed that Venti was at home and could be met tonight. Rumah Venti is about fifteen minutes from Abil's house by motorbike and is near the main road connecting the sub-district. Arriving at the ruma Venti, Abil then ventured to knock on his door. Welcomed Venti who opened the door and allowed Abil to sit on the bench of the living room.
They both look awkward with each other, in addition to not meeting for a long time, they also only occasionally communicate with the phone, it also uses text messages. It had been about four years since graduating Junior High, and this was the first time they met in person after such a long time. But because it is also the atmosphere of their meeting becomes special, which they with their experience of – each grow and become more mature.
They discuss the year – years back from the graduation period to the future life plan. The enthusiasm of the discussion is seen between the two, whether it is because they are old friends or there are other feelings present when they talk to each other. Until arriving – arrived from behind the horden of the middle room of the house Venti arrived – arrived open and looked a large tall figure using a short-sleeved shirt and a glove came over to Abil and Venti who were sitting.
The figure is Dad Venti, it seems he wants to make sure the guests who come. And smiling at Abil, he sat down on the bench next to Venti and focused his body and eyes on Abil as he said,
“How are you doing Mas?” Ask Dad Venti to Abil
“Alhamdulillah well Sir, Mr Apakabar?” Abil replied while asking about Venti's father
“Alhamdulillah is good too, you are right from his next-door village?” Ask Dad Venti again to Abil.
“True sir, in the village north of SMP Negri precisely” replied Abil clarifying his residence
“Ohh in the village end of this village yes, you know Mr Sita dong?” Ask Dad Venti again
“Iya Sir is right, I know Sir. Coincidentally it's my Mr Lek, what's wrong Sir?” Abil asked in astonishment at Venti's father's question
“Oh Pak Lek mu to, Nggapapa Mas only. Your father means Mr Tino huh?” Venti's father continued his question
“Iya Sir right, that's my Father” said Abil answer Dad Venti's question. “Siall, looks like Dad Venti knows my father. Yasudah it is indeed the reality” said Abil in the heart, who by knowing Dad Venti with Mr. Abil must have a negative impact on Abil, who, whose father is quite famous in his area lives because he is one of the troubled people.
“Already, pretentious in continuing to talk, you stay inside first ya” Dad said Venti while getting out of the chair and then walking towards the inside
“Iya Sir, baik” replied Abil to Dad Venti
Abil and Venti then continued their chat, knowing now that Venti is continuing his education in nursing school in the area of Jogja, which He desires that someday He wants to work while still being able to help others in the field of health. Until finally Abil ventured to express what he felt since the school past until now, besides He wanted to keep a promise to himself for this, for this, He also hopes to live – days in the future with Venti even though they are now different cities in the direction of his career dreams.
“By the way Bil, yaudah gih just talk aja kok” Venti told Abil
“From the first time I was always insecure when I was going to say this, my condition materially was not enough for me to be able to dare to say this. I think I should commit myself first to something I'm going to do, including this time. Ven, I want to say that I actually like you, if I am given the opportunity to get closer to you, hopefully in the future I can really make you happy” Abil told Venti
Ventin sighed softly and deeply as he lowered his head, He momentarily fell silent to what Abil said. His lips pulled in and then looked at Abil while saying,
“Bil, earlier I thank you for being honest with your feelings. But I'm sorry, I can't answer your question as you wish. Honestly actually long ago I also keep a taste to you, one time I ever wished You said this, but not now but in the year – years ago. I also doubt that what I feel towards you is only I alone feel but not with you.” Titin explained the answer.
The atmosphere arrived – suddenly became awkward, Abil did not say a word with Venti's answer. Then Venti continued talking,
“Even truthfully so far I still have that feeling for you, before now I don't know because you didn't immediately tell me how you felt. But, but I'm sorry Bil, right now I Venti lips stop talking and arrive – arrive Venti eyes glazed – glass, it looks like There will be rain on a star-studded night).
“I've committed to relationships with others, honestly this is difficult, but living a relationship with commitment is also not an easy thing, and you are late, very late.” Venti continued his talk.
The atmosphere was quiet again, added Abil who was previously very optimistic now became lethargic. He leaned his body on the back of the bench, without justifying and forcing what was said, Abil tried to hold back his disappointment by sighing then smiling with his eyes closed and directing his face to the sky – sky house.
“Before I'm sorry I made you ever wait for Ven, and for your commitment to others I appreciate it”
This is the first time about Abil's love in the disappointment of his expectations, the imagination about a long journey with the person he hopes will be his companion arrived – arrived extinct just like that, even before the journey began. Even so, Abil who has guidelines does not want to force something that is out of his control does not show his disappointment in action. Regarding the results He always entrusts to God, He only tries to do what he thinks is appropriate to do for a wish or dream.
“Sorry with my coming even makes your heart become disturbed, not all things have been determined by God, I'm just doing what I can do including today with I came here and conveyed my feelings to you, forcing also will not make things better especially for matters of the heart.” Abil said trying to make their mood better during the discussion
“Sorry yes Bil, I was right – am sorry. Hopefully we can still be friends after this, you don't hate me right?” While making sure that Abil can understand this, Venti hopes not to lose a friend after tonight.
“Iya Ven, relax we are still friends. At least I don't hate what's real for me, only after I know you're with other people it's rude if I still interact for – things that are not for the purposes.” Replied Abil who was already feeling a little calm.
“Iya Bil, I'll understand that. Thank you Bil for giving me your time and feelings, again I also apologize for disappointing you.” Speak Venti with a soft tone
“Iya Ven same – same, thanks ever present with the same taste for some time. I hope your relationship can go well for a long time. Oh yes, I think the time is quite late, good I go home now yes, not good with your parents too if it is too late.” Said Abil who also wanted to say goodbye home.
“Thank ya Bil, yes it can but briefly I call Dad and Mom first yes let all say goodbye to them.” Reply Venti who then got up from his seat and walked into the house calling his Father and Mother.
Father and Mother Venti then came out to Abil, they looked smiling. Abil then stood up and shook hands and greeted them to go home because the time was quite late.
“Sabar ya Mas, easy – hopefully in the future can match with the person who is best for you. Everything we submit to Venti, we parents can only support the wishes and decisions of the child if it is good and be his choice.” Venti's father told Abil
“Iya Sir, thank you for being allowed to come home. Aminn, hopefully this will be a good step for me or Venti in the future. I also want to say goodbye to Father, Mother, thank you for the treats too. Assalamualikum. Ven pamit yaa.” Abil said goodbye to Dad and Mom Venti, also with Venti of course.
“Waalaikumsalam. Yes, heart – hearts yes home” said Venti and his family who drove him to the terrace of the house.
Abilpun then went home on his motorcycle, his heart became empty after tonight. The first year back home wander in the days leading up to Lebaran to witness that Abil suffered a broken heart after – years save the taste, the, He realized that the taste is not only to be stored but also needs to be expressed, of course by looking at the situation and condition.
Reclaiming a feeling that has been around for a long time is not an easy thing, but this will strengthen Abil, affirming that all things in life must continue to be lived as much as possible regardless of whether it works as expected or not. Abil's strong sense of pursuit solidified itself to be worthy if with Venti, without him knowing it turned out to make him go this far, berprogress with the aim of making the process through into a puzzle – part part that blends.
God's plan is full of surprises, planning for man is proof of a step toward hope while God's decision is the answer to what man plans for himself, regardless of the readiness of man, he receives what God gives.
