The Journey of Love Hara

Decisions that Destroy

...16.30...

Not felt, the day is getting late. Hara and her friends still stay at the cafe while discussing the matchmaking problems of Mario and Nia.

“So, you still want to think about how it will be later, Ra?” ask Regis.

“According to me anyway, there is a point if you thinkin first, Ra. But remember, the longer you buy time, the heavier you also make accept reality,” Syera said.

“Ya, whatever your choice, Ra, we keep support lo. And if you need help, whenever we are ready to help, Ra,” added Renata who increasingly makes Hara want to shed her tears.

“Gue already have the determination tonight I think, and tomorrow I have to give you a decision how it will be. Because I also do not want to be disappointed my parents, and I think my brother will follow my decision,” said Hara who while trying to make his friends feel more relieved.

Soon, they decided to return home from the cafe. It didn't take long, Hara and Renata were busy walking down the street of their home complex while telling stories. While Regis was driving Syera home, because Syera's house was quite far from the cafe where they gathered.

“Ra,” said Renata while lowering her head.

“Yes, Ta? I'm fine, so don't hesitate to ask me anything,” said Hara with a bitter smile.

“Ck! Ra, I don't think you should smile, deh. Horrified to know your smile,” said Renata who felt a little afraid of Hara's smile. Hearing the words of her best friend, Hara was a little surprised, because this was the first time Renata commented on her smile.

“Instead my smile why?” he said with a slightly confused face.

“Kayak Joker, you know?”

“Yes times, you liken me to the Joker,” reply Hara with a slightly irritated look.

“If Chucky?” asked Renata with a serious face.

“Ta! I'm not a psychopath, kali,” said Hara annoyed.

“Then from that, because you are not a psychopath, you also do not force your feelings. Do not hide your sadness. Do not be strong, especially in front of your friends, and do not bear all yourself when you have a friend, who is ready to help anytime when you need,” said Renata while embracing Hara's shoulder.

“Ih, I mean lo, Ta? I'm still normal, kali?” said Hara pretended to be angry, and finally the laughter adorned their journey from the cafe to their respective homes.

Hara stepped into the house, and it seemed that her parents were enjoying dinner together.

“Hara came home,” he said upon entering the house. Hearing the voice of her youngest child, Rosita immediately turned her body, looking at the youngest child who was slowly walking towards her and her husband.

“Udah home, Ra? Come eat,” take him. Despite still having a little awkwardness with her papa, Hara steps up to her parents and enjoys dinner together.

“Night, pa, ma,” he said as he pulled a chair for him to sit on.

“Night, Ra. Where are you from?” in her heart Hara was surprised to hear her papa ask where she was from.

“Hara had played with Renata, Regis and Syera, pa,” he said with a lingering awkwardness, and a look that did not dare to look directly into the eyes of the father.

“Oh yes, brother Nia where, Ma?” in the middle of dinner, Hara ventured to ask her brother whereabouts.

“It looks like he hasn't come home from the office, Ra. What's up?”

“Ah, nothing, anyway. Just today Hara did not see Nia's sister at home,” he said and returned to eat her dinner.

After they finished enjoying dinner,

“Ra, papa can talk to you after eating?” shocked to hear the words of his father because it was still carried away by an awkward atmosphere, Hara and her mother spontaneously turned to her father and slightly widened her eyes.

“What are you talking about, pa? Mama also wants to know,” said Rosita who did not let her youngest daughter to talk directly with her husband.

“Ma, there are times when we should talk together, and there are times when we should talk in private,”, said Herdian trying to ask for understanding from his wife.

“But, mama also has the right to know dong, pa,” Rosita still insists on her opinion, she does not allow Hara to deal with her husband, she said, because in his mind he was afraid that Hara would run away from home again.

Gently, Hara clasped her fingers while nodding her head, a sign that she was okay.

“Hara can do, pa,” he said. In her heart, Hara still gathers courage to face the talk that Hara actually thought of, which is about the match between Mario and Virginia, her brother.

In her little heart, there was still little hope that the match could be annulled, or at least replace her bride, into her. But on the other hand, that hope feels very small when seeing the reality to date, namely the papa and om Haris who still insist on the matchmaking.

Seeing her papa walking towards the balcony of the 2nd floor, Hara walked following her papa from behind. Her father stood on the balcony looking out at the night view of the city, followed by Hara. The two were both silent for a while, looking for the right time to talk about the matter.

“Ra, forgive papa if since the dinner talk about the match between your brother and Mario, even until now papa also still continues to hurt you,” his speech immediately stopped, as if unable to continue the next sentence. Herdian stuffed his palm into his pants pocket, took a deep breath, trying to throw away the tightness that had begun to come to his chest. Both, both the father and the child are not facing each other, throwing away their feelings of tightness with blank stares fixed on the sparkling stars and lights that decorate the night.

“Papa tau this is heavy for you, so is papa. Papa doing this doesn't mean you don't love me. Precisely because papa loves Hara, papa must do this. Forgive papa, Ra. The match between your sister Nia and Mario must be done.”

Hearing his papa's statement, involuntarily clear details flowed profusely on his cheeks. The tightness that he had been holding, was now bursting in a crackling that was beginning to break.

“Pardon papa, Hara,” Herdian seemed so devastated by the decision he took himself. A decision that destroyed both of his beloved daughters at once. Decisions that will either be able to make their families return to how they were or not. And a decision that could have destroyed the lives of his two daughters, especially Nia, in the marriage that he had to do because of the matchmaking.

“Hara thought, papa would give Hara a chance to choose. Hara thinks this match-up can be canceled. But why, pa? Why just now? Papa knows during what relationship Hara with Mario, and papa also knows how Hara feels for Mario, even to this day,” he said while crying. As if hypnotized, Hara also directly revealed her heart.

Without being able to say, Herdian hugged his youngest daughter who was still crying, expressing all her disappointment and the distress she had been enduring. Even an apology can no longer be said of him.

...Hearing the voice of his youngest daughter who was hoarse because of crying, the more mind makes Herdian become deadlocked. Regretted? I don't know if this can be said to be an expression of regret or if this is the beginning of good for his family....

...The sparkling stars, the crowds of vehicles passing by, and the various colors of lights in the night as if to witness the conversation of Hara and her papa. The silent witness will end Hara's relationship with Mario which has been built for 4 years. A silent witness to the beginning of the destruction of his life and his relationship with his family. And, an uncertain silent witness will bring happiness, or even destruction in the lives of Hara and Virginia....

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