THE HARAMKAH?

I Just Want to Be Herself

"doctor, there is an emergency patient in the ER" shouted a nurse disperse the daydream of Aiyra who had been standing before the door of Ilham's office. It took Aiyra several months to heal herself from the turmoil of the heart due to the departure of Inspiration, but her determination to help the incapable was still a priority in her life. With determination and mental fortification he returned to work at Ilham Hospital.

The workspace of Ilham is still empty, there is no substitute that replaces the poisis Ilham to date. Every time Aiyra misses Inspiration, she comes to the room and stands at the door, hoping someone opens the door and hugs her tightly.

One knows, Aiyra still cannot forget Inspiration, whether she is in love drunk or love blind or maybe even she is stupid? That definitely did not despair the space in Aiyra's heart for others. Whether or not Ilham returned to this country, Aiyra decided to always wait for his return, even though she would go home with the worst news.

Aiyra did not want to turn away from Inspiration before she heard herself directly from the mouth of Inspiration, that Inspiration no longer loved herself, as long as it had not happened then nothing could change Aiyra's day.

The patient in the ER room was well resolved, until the time showed Aiyra's home hours.

when opening the car door, Aiyra saw in the parking lot specifically for Ilham there was a car that was familiar to her. Without a second thought Aiyra ran up to the car, Aiyra flirted around and made sure the car was really Ilham's. It is no mistake that it belongs to Ilham.

Aiyra turned away, only a few footsteps Aiyra stepped, the car door opened, Aiyra's step stopped instantly.

" hi "

Aiyra was silent for a moment, her heart that had been beating so fast was now starting to normal slowly.

" there's something I can help you with" asked a stranger who Aiyra had never met, but how could she use Ilham's car?

" ah.. eu. that's"

"i'm Adnan, I just arrived yesterday in this city, I'm the one who replaced Mr. Ilham"

" i'm Aiyra, the doctor who works at this hospital"

"oh ok, nice to meet you doctor Aiyra"

"alright, then excuse me, Mr. Adnan, I happen to have finished my work hours"

" well, heart on the way"

"thank you"

Adnan stared inside Aiyra's back until Aiyra actually got into the car and disappeared at the gate of the RS

Aiyra continued to exhale strongly, she tried to calm her heart and mind. How disappointed he felt when he saw someone who got out of the car Inspiration was someone else.

He tried hard so that his tears did not come back down his cheeks. He would only cry when Inspiration came and bring his wife before him directly.

****

"Aiyra, how many years have you been like this"

"Come dok" Aiyra replied to dr. Hilda as the two eat at a restaurant after a long day of service in a remote village, opens up free treatment for those away from the hospital.

"Aiyra, I don't want to be pretentious and patronize you, but I think forget about it and find a replacement, don't waste your life on someone who's not clear"

"it's okay, doc, the doctor's like a second mother to me" Yes, indeed their age is very far adrift.

"Aiyra, try to think, when you love someone so much, then how are you doing with the person who loves you too, what about Bram? he also has the same great love for you, the same great love as you love Inspiration"

" Bram?"

"he deserves love from you Aiyra"

" He's too good for me doc".

"it's not too good, but he loves you too much Aiyra, think a little about him, he sacrificed too much here. If you continue like this there will be two hearts hurt, he said, but if you open your heart to Bram, I'm sure you'll be happy, as time goes on you'll definitely love him"

"Either doc, for now I just want him, not the others".

"alright, I just want what's best for you".

"Yes, thank you" Aiyra smiled faintly, while continuing her show filling her stomach.

Brams?

Yes, until now she is still waiting for Aiyra, she still faithfully accompanies her Aya, accompanying her every need, she said, no matter how far and how much he had to spend to be able to always accompany Aiyra. Even in the most important moments Bram will leave for Aiyra.

Although Bram knows Aiyra's heart is still closed to him but he still continues to be patient. Hopefully one day Aiyra will feel tired and desperate waiting for Inspiration and then will happily embrace Aiyra, it's okay even if it's just an outlet, is not love a sacrifice? Bram would sacrifice anything for the woman he loved. Uh! Bram.

The day goes on as usual, there is no change in Aiyra's heart and self, she is still busy with her routine as a doctor, even now she is more active in social, social, he participates in various organizations in the social field, every disaster or social problems, Aiyra is always responsive. Fortunately, the RS always helped support funds for every activity that Aiyra did, whether it was a sign of the guilt of the Ilham family or not, but for Aiyra he meant as a love for her, he said, Aiyra thinks they still recognize Aiyra as her family, even though the Ilham family does not want to see Aiyra including Mammy. Only occasionally Abel wants to meet Aiyra that can be counted using the fingers in a year. Even so Abel will remain silent when Aiyra asks about Ilham and his little angels Rere and Reno.

"Hallo,," said Abel. Aiyra hugged Abel so tightly, though she realized it would not change anything but at least she could feel the blood flowing in Abel's body, wasn't their blood the same? Aiyra like her is already insane.

" what is kabara Kak?" abel asked after their drink came.

"Well Bell, how are you?"

"i'm good, sister, Mammy and Dad are also good"

" Abel, I will not ask you anything this time about Inspiration or our angelic angels, I just want to tell you something and tell you that I only want you in this life, he's my first love and will be my last love, there won't be another man in my heart and my life"

It looked as if a crystal was dripping in the corner of Aiyra's eye. His lips trembled, his hands tightly intertwined, as if he was bracing himself which was actually very fragile.

"Sister, please....! forget Brother Ilham"

" no! Don't ever tell me to do things I can't do, she goes to take my life, if I have to live then she has to give me my life back first."

"Sister..." Abel

"i still have social service Bel, I have to go."

Aiyra left Abel, still confused by Aiyra's attitude, as Abel's woman could feel what Aiyra was feeling.

"Sir Ilham, you are hurting half the women in this world" whispered Abel Lirih as his hand squeezed the cellphone in his hand.