The Girl as Cold as Snow
Special Chapter 3: Miko's Feelings [END]
After remembering Jaka, Nuge runs his bike and talks to me.
"want me to take you to your house ?. I'm not a bad eagle anyway"
"What the fuck are you sure to be a shy Wibu" I said, holding back a laugh.
"heh?. How do you know ?" asked Nuge in surprise.
"heh?. Are you really Wibu ?" reply him.
He drove me on his bike. While enjoying the afternoon breeze that blew through I thought in my mind. Maybe it's time I changed myself a little bit.
...****...
The next day, people were so surprised to see me dressed up as a student, not a delinquent anymore.
"Ooii..is Miko this beautiful ?"
"doesn't it look like Japanese girls ?"
"if this is mah, Anya also lost far"
"wah wah waaahh.... Auto so Waifuku this is mah" said the male student who saw me.
I don't care about it because I do it, for the man I love, Jaka. I saw him right in front of me. I'd love to walk with her but, I'm a little embarrassed. But suddenly, two hands that pushed me forward turned out to be Dane and Sanjaya.
"Go away... Miko.." said Sanjaya to support me.
"you can definitely Miko." continued Dane with a smile.
I smiled at them and went to approach Jaka to meet their expectations and also my hope of getting close to him, so that Jaka could forget about Jane and just focus on me.
"Hy Jaka, good morning." I said to him.
"Congratulations Paa.." replied Jaka whose words were interrupted.
"Who ?" ask Jaka to me.
"this is me Miko"
"Hehh ?"
"Until we finish this school, I'll make you pay attention to me. I'll make your fake smile into a genuine smile for me".
hearing my words, Jaka was surprised and smiled at me.
"just do as you please. After all, you look beautiful with that look" Jaka said and left.
Though I wanted to make him pay attention to me but, it was precisely he who made me ashamed until my face reddened.
Stupid Jaka...
Basic insensitive....
The days go by I always get close to him when the opportunity arises. Although sometimes my heart aches because he never stops talking about Jane, but I have not been desperate to approach him, to comfort him, to talk to him, to be in line with him. Until we finally passed the High School National Exam. I tried to find my name and after finding it, I wanted to talk to Jaka but again.
...****...
On my day off, I mourn my sorrow. I can't seem to get his heart. I tried in a way that was not cheating.
Haaahhh...
I decided to change but...
I seem to be becoming more and more of a real woman....
On holidays, I took my mom's bike to the garage and I met her again. One Eagle the Wibu, Nuge. Turns out he works in a garage.
"Heeehhhh... You didn't continue your studies ?" ask her.
"Ohh Cewe Blaster, that's it. I live less well because at home there is only me and Mom, so I choose to work" he replied.
"Heehh... Whoi, what the fuck is a Cewe Blasteran called ?" just pissed.
"after all, I love this job so I don't regret it because I'm an automotive hobby. My target is to assemble my own car"
"did you hear me, Wibu ?"
"and also, not further study doesn't mean I'm weak. Indeed I parted with Ilyas but... parting does not mean we do not know each other anymore right ?"
Although he ignored my frustration, what he said was true as well. He is not just an ordinary Wibu.
"Your words are true, too." I said to him.
"Didn't you ?" his reply was bragging.
"So, I mean Cewe Blasteran what's the basis of Wibu ?" my question is still angry.
"still in the discussion dong" he was fed up.
"HAAAHHH !!!?. HOW CAN IT BE !!!?" annoyed.
And in the end, Nuge fixed my bike I paid for in the least. Not worth paying. Hehee...
...****...
It's time to finally have a Farewell event in the School degree. The show was very smooth under the direction of our underclassman Osis. And this very day where I ventured, I gave Jaka a message to come behind the school under the tree right where Sanjaya once confessed her feelings to Jane. I waited a long time for him to finally come.
"Ahh Miko, did you wait a long time ?" ask Jaka who just came.
"not really, I want to talk to you about something important. May ?"
"let's just say it..."
I held onto my chest which was always beating fast and my misgivings. I emboldened myself and remembered the support of my two best friends, Dane and Sanjaya.
"Ja.. Jaka... actually I've liked you for a long time.. In the beginning you saved me that time, you were my First Love.. So.... I beg you, GO WITH ME !!!" I said I expressed my feelings to Jaka.
After saying that I closed my eyes because I was afraid of my own words. But looking at her expression, she ignored me like she was unwilling to let me down.
I've guessed....
I've got the answer....
"Mii... Miko. Actually.." I haven't said it yet, I covered her mouth with my hands.
And I kissed the back of the hand that I was wearing, Jaka shut up, it was so sad. But, if I don't say so then.I'll hurt myself for weeks.many months, I held both shoulders and breathed heavily.
"it's okay, I already know your answer. It's just, it's quite obvious that I didn't reveal it"
She was surprised by my answer even more I was surprised because I could finally see her genuine smile without the slightest falsehood.
"You are a great woman, like Sanjaya. You two are love fighters and not cowards like me. Until it makes you confess your feelings like this. I'm stupid..."
"Cih... realize you are very slow Jaka, hunt and pass you realize"
"hehehee. sorry"
Suddenly the voice of Jaka's phone rang in his pocket.
"from Jane yaa ?"
"Yes, next month he will graduate also in his country and we have registered at the same Campus"
"Heh ?. Jane want to go back to Makassar ?"
"Yes, with her mom and dad. They want to live in Indonesia"
So yaa ?.
It's a shame I didn't have a chance....
Turns out... So yeah...
I hit Jaka's shoulder and gave him support.
"You guys are lasting ?. There's a call, he's waiting for you"
And Jaka smiled as he left me.
Haaaah..... I was rejected....
This seems to be what it feels like to refuse ?. Sanjaya was upset at the time. It felt....
Really painful....
Suddenly they appeared behind me and held both of my shoulders. I turned to look at them and she smiled at me.
"It's okay Miko, don't hold it." said Dane, who took his eyes off me.
Just get it all out, we're your best friends, aren't we ?" sanjaya smiled at me.
It was sickening for them to say that to me but I couldn't hide my feelings for the two of them, only for the two of them, I ended up crying loudly while hugging him. My heart really hurt like it was burning and being pushed hard. I was completely rejected by my first Love, and I do not regret having expressed this feeling to her...
...****...
Once decided, I make this time of my heartache by studying while helping mama in her market trading. The days I went through were day after day without letting myself have a chance to lament my grief. And my target is to study abroad. After studying for 2 years, I finally received a scholarship in my mother's homeland at the private University of Tokyo Japan, Waseda University.
Fortunately, I previously learned Japanese with my mother from childhood until now my Japanese language is safe. I moved away from Makassar and even Indonesia to start a new life. Leaving my memories with Jaka, and making new memories in the land of Tokyo. Although it's bad but I have to admit, I can get here because of Jaka. If I hadn't been hurt, I might have wanted something like this.
"Yoshh, from today on we will fight Miko." I said as I raised both my hands.
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