The Five Billion Rahim

RLM chapter 43

Why are you the most hurt here? So you have the right to go and leave me broken to pieces. Don't you realize why I married you until he left me and you did the same.

You think you're the only one hurt? Only you are broken? Didn't you just once see my destruction even though I didn't say it? I'm sure you know the meaning of all my attitudes, my touch, but in the name of wounded selfishness trumps your common sense.

I admit that I am guilty, I ignored your trust in your sister, and I was guilty. But should I be punished like this? Isn't it breakeven now? You lost your brother and your son and I lost my son and you, hasn't that punished me enough in a year's time?

But, to this day you never come back, you've never been seen, even if I'm looking for you you never existed, don't you want to know how I am, how I live my day without you, is that how much you hate me?

Look at me, look at me! I always cry for my son, I also always cry for your departure and fall in regret for ignoring your sister. I wanted to die, but God never supported me.

Come back, come back, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Let's treat with the wounds of our hearts, don't do this. I can't, I really can't.

Every day Byakta sat pensively in his room, occasionally he pondered and monologued himself and cried.

After Audrey's departure that day, Byakta fell ill the next day for a month, the burden of thought and adversity united to render him helpless.

At that time he wanted to fix everything, but he was late. Audrey, the girl has left, Byakta who was not yet fully healthy, to drop back to find Audrey has returned to her mother's hometown.

There's been a lot going on in a year, since Audrey's departure, Byakta's like an undead, skinny and unkempt. He no longer goes to the office, his job is just sipping alcohol and cigarettes to relieve his stress.

Aunt Lauren had advised him to be strong and not infrequently the old woman told her nephew to follow her, but Byakta's answer was always the same.

"He hates me, Auntie. He'll run away if he sees me coming, he'll never forgive me"

The blank look that Aunt Lauren always saw, sometimes made her want to go pick up her daughter-in-law, but Bastian always said, who will take care of her, then what business office if I go.

But this time Bastian was desperate to leave, he handed the office business to the Secretary's staff, because in the next month there was no project they handled, so as to make Bastian leave.

As fate does want them to meet, God manages everything well, Bastian finds it without having to look for it.

"I don't want to be healthy Auntie" said Byakta flatly without seeing Aunt Lauren put her food on the table.

"Will despair bring him back, use your brains!" Aunt Lauren is ignited by Byakta's almost daily answer.

"You see Bastian, don't you feel sorry for him! He takes care of the company alone, while you? Silent daydreaming like a fool, "he raised Aunt Lauren's voice, it's exhausted her patience this time.

"You know where Bastian is, right now! He picked up your wife, he found her now. While you? Just shut up like crazy."

If usually Aunt Lauren's nagging doesn't make her react, but this time it's able to shake Byakta's body and soul.

He looked at Aunt Lauren's angry face, "you didn't lie? Found her? Tell me you're not lying, Auntie!" Byakta sparkled, his heart pounding hearing his wife called.

This pity on his messy niece, Aunt Lauren softened, "yes, son. Prepare yourself, Bastian's arranging your flight tomorrow,"

"Why tomorrow? I want tonight, Auntie! Tell him tonight I'm leaving,"

Not waiting for Aunt Lauren's answer, Byakta went straight into the bathroom, intending to clean up and prepare to go flying tonight to Indonesia.

In the bathroom Byakta stood in front of the mirror looking at his face, he held his chest, the pounding back again after a long time disappeared.

Then he touched his face, it was not really him, he was never like this, even his beard was this long.

With a passionate heart, Byakta cleansed himself, preparing himself for meeting the long-lost idol.

Indonesia I am coming ……