The Fire of Love the Great Goddess

Eps. 57: Pain and Love

Bai Feng Xian was still unable to forget the pain five hundred years ago when Dongfang Yue punished him in the Tianfa Hall. Although it should not be discussed again, but he has not been able to accept it.

After several days of silence in the Underworld Aru, Bai Feng Xian was finally willing to make a move. He returned to Qingqiu without bringing along A-Rou, as he thought A-Rou would no longer have to bear the burden of his parents' affairs. Moreover, it was not yet time for Emperor Bai Yin to know that he had a grandson.

Qingyun Palace in Qingqiu was always happy whenever welcoming their daughter home. But everything is different today. This time, all the servants in Qingyun Palace did not say much, they only greeted for a moment but their faces looked grim. Bai Feng Xian frowned, but a moment later he finally understood.

Ye Ming! That petty old dragon must have told everyone about him!

Bai Feng Xian immediately rushed towards the Qingyun Palace Hall. Ming Ye must have told the matter between him and the Celestial Emperor five hundred years ago to his family. Otherwise, it was possible that the aura of the palace could be this dark. Since long ago, when the sons and daughters of the Fox God in Qingqiu were in trouble, then everyone could see and feel it.

Arriving at the front door of the hall, he kicked it and shouted.

"Ming Ye's! I told you not to tell...."

But then he froze. Two pairs of eyes were immediately distracted, staring at him. One wore a strange expression, the other one was indescribable. The undefined figure immediately rose, followed by the other.

"A-Xians...."

Dongfang Yue's voice broke the awkward silence. Unexpectedly, the one who conversed with Bai Chi was Dongfang Yue, not Ming Ye. If he was here, does that mean it wasn't Ming Ye who leaked out the matter?

Bai Feng Xian should have been able to leave immediately, but in the presence of his brother, he could not just run away. Moreover, the person he faced this time was also a Celestial Emperor. Although Bai Feng Xian did not care about his own reputation, but he had to give Qingqiu face, right?

The not-so-talking Bai Chi seemed to have a thousand questions buried in his face. Bai Feng Xian immediately regained his senses, cleared his throat for a while while holding back the feeling of unease in his heart.

"Tian Jun, we're talking outside" he said later. Dongfang Yue nodded, then followed Bai Feng Xian who had first walked in front of him.

Bai Chi let out a small breath. He had never thought that his sister had such a painful past with the Celestial Emperor, even though it was all due to a test of the heavens. The Qingqiu had always been open to all the feelings in her heart, but her sister instead had to hide and endure it alone for five hundred years. As an older brother, he was very sad and worried about Bai Feng Xian.

"That little girl must think I told her the problem, didn't she?"

Ming Ye suddenly appeared from beside the Qingyun Palace Hall while carrying his fan. His eyes followed the direction of Bai Chi's gaze which led Bai Feng Xian and Dongfang Yue out of the palace. Bai Chi just nodded.

Ming Ye chuckled. No, it wasn't him who told Bai Chi about Bai Feng Xian and Dongfang Yue's matter. Dongfang Yue herself who took the initiative came to Qingqiu and told her story with that woman since it started eight hundred years ago. Dongfang Yue was always waiting for Bai Feng Xian at the Mirror Lake, but the woman did not show up until Dongfang Yue came alone to Qingqiu.

 Bai Feng Xian and Dongfang Yue were now at the entrance of Qingqiu. The vast meadow with its beautiful scenery, now feels very gripping. The two Great Gods who were in debt to each other again met in a fully conscious state, ready to take everything into account.

"A-Xian, why did you leave without saying goodbye?" ask Dongfang Yue. No one in the world understands how he feels right now.

"The Sky Palace is not my place, be it then, now, or in the future" Bai Feng Xian replied. Although not explained, both of them understand the cause of the current situation.

"A-Xian, I'm guilty of you. Can you forgive me?"

"No need to apologize. After all, can an apology put all that pain back in place? Can it bring back my broken heart? I don't care about those physical wounds, but I can't ignore my heartache. It burned all my flesh and bones, destroying all the trust I've built up over the millennia. Know it? I'm crumbling softly. That destruction was a nightmare that kept me awake all night."

Dongfang Yue's expression turned heartily. He knew, it was Bai Feng Xian's nightmare. It was he who gave the nightmare away and forced it to do something beyond common sense once again. Had he been able to realize it earlier, Bai Feng Xian would not have needed to drink Meng Po's wine and suffer twice. This is all his fault, this is his fault!

"I know you must hate me. A-Xian, if you can't forgive me, then hate me as you please until you're satisfied. But can you please not disappear again?"

Bai Feng Xian laughed discordantly. After everything became this way, what else could be expected? After all, there are only two options: to endure forgetting or letting go. For the first choice, Bai Feng Xian was obviously not going to take it.

"Tian Jun, our story ended five hundred years ago. When I decided to kill myself in the God Killer Well, our relationship was over. That bond should have been severed, Tian Jun."

"No, even if it was just a test of the heavens, but my feelings for you were not limited to that time and ended when the test was over. A-Xian, in this life, I'm just gonna fall in love with you."

"I know, but Tian Jun, I really can't. Do you understand my choice?"

Really, Bai Feng Xian now did not want to have any more relations with the Sky Kingdom, especially with the Dongfang Yue Celestial Emperor. The eight hundred years that passed were enough to understand everything. That place, as well as its inhabitants, did not really suit him. It would only hurt her even more if it continued to be forced.

"A-Xian, does it really have to end?" asked Dongfang Yue, who still did not accept that their relationship should end again.

Bai Feng Xian forced a smile for him. Perhaps, the last smile that Dongfang Yue and the rest of the world would see.

"It must be over. I will pay my last respects to you as my teacher. After that, let me go."

Dongfang Yue closed her eyes as Bai Feng Xian suddenly knelt down, bowed then paid three respects to her. At the last salute, Dongfang Yue could not help but hold back her tears. It dripped just like that from a lord of heaven.

Tight, chest tight. Bai Feng Xian actually forced him to stop chasing after her. In fact, the woman was willing to pay her last respects as the disciple she had taught eight hundred years ago.

Dongfang Yue was also powerless to look at Bai Feng Xian's face as the woman rose from her reverence. Traces of tears were still visible on her cheeks. Bai Feng Xian looked at him, a little sad yet he forced himself to remain steadfast.

Undeniably, he was also very hurt. It was not that Bai Feng Xian did not fall in love with him, yet he had to go back to choosing to take it off again. For him, this relationship would only hurt each other. It is better to end sooner than to continue being tormented.

Bai Feng Xian was about to leave the meadow, before Dongfang Yue's voice stopped him a moment later.

"What about A-Rou?"

Bai Feng Xian turned around, then a forced smile came back up.

"She is your daughter. You can still teach him anytime. As for where he would stay, let him choose it himself" Bai Feng Xian said.

Although he and Dongfang Yue were separated, they could not ignore the existence of A-Rou. Moreover, the little boy already knew about the problems of his parents. A-Rou is their daughter, and they can't force her to vote.

Dongfang Yue nodded even though he was eager to say that he wanted both. The mother and the child, she wanted it.

"Tian Jun, come back. The Sky Palace needs you."