The Father's Choice Husband

Chapter 35 (Last)

My heart was pounding, waiting for news from Mas Aak who rushed to the Jasmine ward after getting a call from the nurse of the newborn ward who needed special handling. In my heart I could only continue to pray, hopefully nothing bad happened to my daughter. Although for some reason, my mind still thinks badly, it is impossible to be called at this hour just to take care of administration, right? There must be some important news that must be delivered to us immediately.

After being tormented by waiting, finally Mas Aak came with a hunting breath.

"Where, Mas? What's up?" I asked directly to Cook Aak.

Mas Aak rubbed his face rough. I could see the anger on my husband's face, maybe it was a bad thing, but he was confused to tell me or not.

"No papa, Mom. Tell me, what really happened! You don't have to worry about me" I said again, reassuring my husband.

Cook a deep breath, "Our son, Deck. It had stopped breathing, so it was pumped with the same 100% pressure as the nurse. At this time he can still breathe with the help of the tool, but his body began to stiffen, his skin turned blue, there began to be bleeding also in his airway," Mas Aak replied as he took a deep breath.

My tears immediately fell down without being able to be dammed again. Who would not be saddened to hear this terrible news? I haven't even seen my daughter's face yet, will I not be able to see her?

"So the nurse I was asked to decide, like it continues, or just let it happen if the worst thing happens. Because if it continues, it will not be good for our baby. Fear that his lungs are damaged if pumped with maximum pressure continuously. I can't decide, so I'm asking your opinion, Dek." Aak continued, explaining the point of the conversation with the nurse.

Honestly, I still can't accept it, but I also think that my selfishness will actually make my baby tormented longer, right? I weighed the various things from what Mas Aak said, then took a deep breath before issuing my opinion.

"Yes already, Mas. It may not be our fortune to have this child. If our daughter dies at last, I'll try to be sincere, Mas. As strong as he is, we do not need to impose, rather than the condition is getting worse, pity him, Mas," I said still with tears.

Anyway, it's a tough decision. But as a mother, I really couldn't bear my son to be in constant pain.

Mas Aak hugged me, "Well if it's like that, hopefully it's the best decision. Everything has been outlined. Hopefully he will be our savings in the afterlife, Dek," said Mas Aak behind my ear.

I nodded, though in my heart I still blamed myself. If only I could control my mind all this time, this might not happen.

After getting my approval, Mas Aak returned to the Melati ward to sign our decision. I can only give up, second by second it feels so long. Not a single eye can be closed.

Cook Aak hasn't come back yet, when he says my ward and baby ward are next to each other, so it doesn't take much time to walk there. But why so long?

I saw the wall clock installed on the wall beside me, it has been an hour more Mas Aak has not returned. I'm really worried. Lucky not long after, Mas Aak is back.

"Where, Mas?" ask me again, I don't know what answer I really want, but I'm very curious.

"Take care of our daughter, Dek. God loves him more" replied Mas Aak with eyes that were still red, a sign he had cried early.

"House's been told, Mom?" I asked when I could manage myself.

"Here, my mother also told me. They send a message, you have to be patient and strong, yes," my husband replied softly. I nodded, though I still could not stop crying.

"Mas, I want to go home today. I have to go home!" I said in between my cries.

"Prophey, Deck. Later Mas try to tell the nurse, so we can go home together," replied Mas Aak calmed me. I nodded back.

Luckily, soon the nurse came into my room. This is not a nurse's visit. It turned out that my ward nurse already knew about the news of my baby's passing, so offered me to come home or not. Of course I chose to come home.

I went home in an ambulance provided by the hospital. I sat next to the driver holding my baby wrapped in a full-length cloth. I was crying all the way home.

"That's it, Mom. Let's just say, this is the will of the Almighty," said the ambulance driver.

"Yes, Sir. I still need time" I replied slowly.

Arriving at my in-laws' house, I was welcomed by the family, including Mas Aak who had returned home on a motorcycle. They quickly caught me who was walking weakly. Someone also took my baby from my sling.

I chose to go to the room, again washed away in my sad feelings. I couldn't see my daughter's face, which must have been pale. I'm afraid I'll make bad memories if I force you to look at it. My mother and my mother-in-law kept strengthening me.

"Alright, Mel. This has all been outlined, you do not need to be sad for too long. Sure, all this must have been his silver," said my mother-in-law, rubbing my shoulders.

"But, Mela thinks this is all Mela's fault, ma'am," I replied, expressing what I feel right now.

"There's nothing wrong, Mel. This is his will. Perhaps God saw that you were not ready to receive the deposit, so God took your daughter back. You must be sure, he will be waiting for you in heaven" replied my mother-in-law again.

"Rubber, Mel. It's hard, but you have to keep looking ahead. Life continues on. Rest assured, tomorrow will be replaced if indeed you two are really ready," said my mother confirmed.

I'm nodding. After a while, I was finally able to get back up straight, I also took my daughter to her final resting place. I saw Mas Aak very good at taking care of my daughter's body. From there I was amazed by my husband.

I recalled, when I was at the weakest point, in fact Mas Aak can think fast and solve problems well. I realized, maybe this is God's way of making my husband more mature, it also made me truly love my husband, so that our marriage could last forever to His heaven.