The Fate of Love of a Misanris

46. I Lost Control That Night

Alina spread her gaze throughout the room. He did not find Zayyad's nose. The desk where he works is empty. The atmosphere was silent as if there were no people. Is it possible that Bakri was telling the truth?

Alina originally wanted to turn around to leave. But when his gaze fell on one of the doors in the room, his steps came to a halt. Slowly he approached the door. When he opened it, he saw someone curled up on a mattress wrapped in a thick blanket.

Alina bit her lower lip holding a smile. He already suspected that Bakri was lying. Turns out to be true, Zayyad was really trying to avoid her.

Alina went inside while keeping each footing so as not to make a sound. Slowly he closed the door again.

Finished closing the door, Alina slowly approached the mattress where Zayyad was lying. His sluggish steps made him look like a thief.

Get to the edge of the bed. Alina reached out her hand to pat Zayyad on the back who was turning her back. His intention was to surprise the man.

Puk!

Zayyad who was curled up on the mattress, with his body drowned in a blanket, felt a little surprised when his back was like patting someone. Is that just his feeling?

Look at Zayyad who didn't respond to anything. Alina thinks that she is asleep. Pulling both corners of her lips, Alina gave a petty smile. He felt tempted to harass Zayyad further.

Removing a pair of high heels from his feet. Slowly he sat down on the edge of the mattress, lifting his pair of legs up slowly, he began to lay down his body. His movements are made as light as possible so that Zayyad is not aware of its existence.

Alina slowly turned her body sideways, facing off against Zayyad's back. Closing his face to the man's back, the heat from a man's body filled his face.

Slowly he moved his body closer to Zayyad's. He stretched out his hand to hold her from behind. His face slowly sank further down the man's back.

Although Zayyad was wrapped in a thick blanket, it did not hide the very strong scent of lavender from his body.

The smell of lavender is soothing, mixed with the distinctive masculine aroma of a man. Taking a deep breath, Alina felt very comfortable with the fusion of the fragrance.

It calms her very much, relaxes her mind and almost makes her sleepy. Had it been like this at night with Zayyad, could insomnia have disappeared?

"Darling..." The flow is smooth with a muffled voice. Because his face was buried in the man's back.

Zayyad felt his headache growing. His limp body slowly shivered. When I feel like someone is holding her from behind. Zayyad thought, is it possible that he was hallucinating?

But when he heard the soft voice of a woman who felt so real behind his back. His shivering body instantly stiffened.

"Why are you telling Bakri to lie to me if you're not here!" Alina raised her hand, hitting the spoiled back of the man. " Are you angry about last night, so you intend to avoid me?" Continue Alina with a spoiled made-up voice.

Zayyad jumped out of bed. Because he was not careful, accidentally his body fell to the floor because of tangled blanket. "You" he said in a voice trembling with fear.

Alina had expected Zayyad's reaction to be like this. At first he wanted to smile at the man. Intend to tease him further. But when his gaze fell on his pair of brown eyes that were trembling in fear. Both corners of Alina's lips stiffened, her smile dead.

"P-go!" Zayyad lowered his face. Raising both of his hands, he hugged his head in a defensive manner. "I said go!" Her screams were hysterical with her body shaking in fear.

Alina fell silent. That look was extremely appalling and slashed his soul. Looking at her further, Alina was like reflecting on herself.

A frightened face, a body that shook violently and a hand that was being so defensive protected his body. Unknowingly both of Alina's hands squeezed the blanket tightly. His eyelashes were shaking, his black eyeballs were glazed over.

The vague body of Zayyad that was down there, turned into a helpless little girl in his view. Alina's pair of eyes flickered, the instant her tears fell. His mouth was half open and shaking.

Blinking his eyes a few times, he again saw that down there was Zayyad. Then she turned back into a frightened and crying little girl. Turned into Zayyad and changed into a little girl again. It continued on until it made her tears drop even more profusely.

Zayyad initially wanted to get up and immediately ran away leaving Alina who in his current view was a monster. A terrifying monster figure, which could snatch his soul at any moment.

But his head was getting heavy. His body felt limp and he could feel the cold sweat that began to wet his temples. Therefore Zayyad is not at all powerful to wake up. Raising his helpless gaze towards Alina. He breathes with gasps.

Looking at that woman who was crying sobbing. He felt very surprised. His thin body shook as his cries sounded. His white face was already flushed wet from tears. Her brownish-red lips twitched.

Zayyad was astonished by Alina's mood swings. Soon her gaze that originally saw the woman as a monster, slowly turned into an ordinary woman.

A weak woman who is crying.

Alina who felt the emotional change in her. Slowly calm himself back. Sometimes when the shadow of that dark time comes across. He couldn't bear to not cry. Raising his hand, he slowly rubbed his two cheeks that were already wet with tears.

Slowly he got off the bed. Approaching Zayyad down there who looks much calmer than before.

Lowering his body slowly, his knees bent on the floor. "Pardon"

A pair of Zayyad's brown eyes were rounded in surprise. He would never have guessed that Alina would apologize to him. The woman had already seduced and harassed him several times. But this was the first time he apologized to her.

"I lost my control that night" Alina said that while bowing down regretfully. Maybe he was wrong to take his revenge.

It should not be explained to someone who fared not much different from him. "Then I'm gone!" Alina slowly got up.

In the end, everything happened unlike the original plan. Maybe he should wait for the situation between them to improve. Just talked about...

The conversation this morning came back to his mind.

"Grandmother don't talk about such things anymore" Alina grabbed her grandmother's hands. His eyes stared with a glare at her. She couldn't bear it if her grandmother talked about death.

"Grandmother must know what Zayyad's situation is like, so of course it's not easy for us to be together" Alina tried to give understanding to her grandmother. But when he saw the expression of sadness on his grandmother's face. He really can't stand it.

In this life he only had three people who were very in unfortunately. His mother, grandmother and Maya were his best friends. His mother had died long ago since being treated in a mental hospital. Maya lives far away in the city of Z. And his grandmother was the only one he had. Who was by his side, near him and accompanied him.

Therefore he always tried hard to do whatever made the old woman happy.

Taking a breath, he slowly stopped him. "Well, I'm going to try to treat Zayyad better, let him know that not all women are monsters like the ones in his past. That way, who knows, he can slowly accept me"

"Alin really wants to do it?" Ask her grandmother with her pair of teary eyes full of water.

Alina could see the mood change on her grandmother's face. It instantly became bright, like the sun that had just risen after sinking all night. It was very lively and happy. Both corners of Alina's lips widened, smiling gently.

He was happy to see his grandmother like that.

"Yes, I'll do it" Alina slowly nodded her head. "Grandmother pray that the little one will soon be present among us" A sincere smile of Alina, expands further until it reaches the bottom of her eyes.

"Yes, sure!" Her grandmother excitedly nodded her head many times. Slowly they embrace each other.

Initially Alina wanted to talk about it on the sidelines accompanying Zayyad to eat. But it looks like he has to postpone it.

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