The Ex-Personal Line

the first broken

Ima was desperately trying to numb her painful feelings. All he knew was not to meet Satya or hear the news about her.

Ima was confused by her situation. It has been almost 6 years Ima only knows Satya as a male figure that he can like. Not being close to a boy friend at school makes Ima clumsy with a boy. But once Ima was an adult even abandoned married.

Like a room, it was empty and filled one after another with photos of Satya to the full and now it must be emptied again.

All takes time, so does Ima who must rearrange her heart to remove Satya from her life, her heart and her mind. After more than 6 years filled by the words of his parents.

I felt the void afterwards. But the pain of abandonment is still there. Ima has not been able to treat it, can only distract with other activities. Whether it's on campus, school activities are free for street children or with new friends.

Even throughout the mass after her Ima just forgot her pain. Not cure it because Ima has not been able to overcome it.

Meet new men, sometimes in the heart of Ima there is a fear that He will be abandoned again. So all he can do is make friends even though there are finally some men who make Ima comfortable and relate to more than friends. But whatever the power, until now still likes to be thrown down, abandoned and forgotten.

*

Now having reunited after 5 years of not meeting, Satya's attitude changes 180 degrees. Previously always avoided from Ima, now his hands are very light to dare to stroke the head and back sometimes embrace the shoulder also grasping the hand. Even Satya dared to kiss Ima's forehead.

'Previously said little boy, now play nyosor aja'

'you want to stay the same now, different ages will not change'

'This heart used to be hurt now what does it want?'

'You want a date or a wedding?'

'How to try his attitude'

Ima rubbed her face back and forth

'It's a heart like glassware, it ever cracks just like you. Now even the good-natured snobs'

Ima hit her chest to reduce tightness

'Yes, you have karma. You left me now you're abandoned'

'But that doesn't mean after you're left you want to turn me back on'

Ima sobbed herself, her voice held back so as not to wake Mila.

'The pain is still here'

*

The sun has risen, Ima has not slept from last night. Ima rushed to clean her body to make it fresher. There were eye bags from crying last night, applied thin makeup that was always available in her bag.

'I also deserve to be happy' Ima looked at herself in the bathroom mirror inside Mila's room.

*

Mbah Sari knocked on the door to open Mila. Ima opened the door last night and locked it.

"Loh, neng geulis is neat again"

"Yes, I still have to go to work Mbah"

"This Saturday night"

"Saturday also comes in after the day"

"I wait in front of the terrace ya Mbah, waiting for ojol come" Ima ordered ojol to deliver it to the Bogor train station

'If directly to Bekasi is very expensive'

'Forced to take the train first only later to ride again'

'Excessive, the maker again'

'Don't remember what first, I'm disgusted to see me' Ima is still busy with his phone to order ojol

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