The End of the Betrayal

A Little Heart That's Hard to Understand

I kept swinging my legs even though Mbak Fany seemed to keep swearing at me, as if I was really sultry with the screams of Mbak Fany. Arriving at the court, I remained silent. Reflecting on what I have to do considering it feels bored as well if you have to keep in touch with Mbak Fany, not only bored but also embarrassed.

I was secretly trying to find job information from who as a maid, shopkeeper and babysitter, all of whom I tried to find info, he said, but again from the matter of payment of wages there is nothing that suits my needs. Well, only working in the company of Mr. Gala whose wages can meet my needs, and also I can send for my parents.

"If rich gini way I can not get out of the office, but if still one office with Yuda bored also every day suspected mending if not run over, if hit by the uninitiated also so know and could have them really consider me a household bully people," my inner more crowded. Trying to ignore also if in the crash and continue to be bored for a long time.

For the final decision to continue working at Pak Gala's company is the final decision. However, since the quarrel that occurred in the middle of the road I also chose to be a person who was more quiet and not too much gathered either with the Mission or with Tulip.

Well, although occasionally get together as well, but not as it used to be almost every day if not playing in the Tulip contract yes in the Mission rented, we even often sleep in our friend's room, we even often sleep in our friend's room, and tell stories that sometimes I don't know what's important get together.

However, since the matter with Mbak Fany who is out of who his accusations are, better securing the heart for me is already very important.

My entertainment right now is only Mr. Gala, well only that guy who never knew that I had a problem that I thought was very complicated. Only Mr. Gala has never asked me about my past, either the man really does not know or the man knows that I do not like to discuss what should not be my business. So that I feel comfortable, to just chat and joke together.

Well, different if I gather with Missions and Tulips they still often mocked me, or even still provide information about Yuda and Mbak Fany which only makes me more lazy to discuss it.

When I increasingly do not recognize myself, I am sometimes very strong and bodoamat with the surrounding environment, not even care about others, but my heart is still empty, and does not find my identity. It is precisely at other times that I am amused by people who do not even know me very well. When I want to quit my job and find another job that is far away and not connected to my past, Mr. Gala always gives me motivation and holds me back from working in his company.

"You're funny, good for conversation and not good for joking." That's what Mr. Gala says every time we joke. Well, I should have known from the beginning I was only close to Mr. Gala just lucky it all because I am funny the rest I should have known if it was impossible to be a lover or even a wife.

Not to mention the social distance that is too far the high wall that blocks us both, and also Mr. Gala considers me just a funny subordinate who can be invited to tell stories and ngakak together. So it felt too ignorant of myself that I was still expecting something that was obviously impossible to happen. Knowing yourself is important, let's not hurt anymore.

But the fact that regulating the feelings of the heart is more difficult, from the beginning it has been warned not to hope, do not take seriously but when my little expectations are not avenged but I feel disappointed.

My daily life was just going to work and coming home for a break, and nothing else could make me this comfortable. Comfortable only for work in the absence of other thoughts. Both Mr. Gala, Yuda and Mbak Fany.

Seriate....

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