
But what if there's a far worse plan than a political marriage?, or if Mr. En's safety is at stake here. It is true that master En can martial or other self-defense skills, but if about tactics, the empress is a fairly reliable opponent. Even a trap for me would only take a day. How'this?.
The more I think about it the more I can't ignore Mr. En. Maybe this is a retaliation for all the comforts and lives I've had all along. Containing her child is at least quite break-even.
I will tell Brother Lu about my decision, it might be possible to give me a little help to make my sense of courage even greater to defeat my anxiety. I need potions like that. I told Cila to set up our meeting tonight. The time I have is getting smaller.
“cylinder Zen, what's the need to ask to meet me?”
“ emm, actually I do not dare to say it, but after considering it I think the advice from Brother Lu seems to be better indeed. So I, agreed.” Overshipped. I couldn't lift my face when I said it, it was embarrassing.
“ pregnancy suggestions,?really concubine? Did the crown prince already know?” I shook my head slowly. Like a child admitting his mistake, my head was still bowed.
“ actually before this problem happened Mr. En already wanted a successor from me, so,”
“ so what?” I'm still ashamed to say it. Do I just ignore my intentions. I raised my face. Brother Lu looks to be waiting for a response from me seriously.
“aa, is there, a herb for, arouse my courage, so as not to worry easily?” I whispered, even very slowly when I said it.
“ what courage does concubine mean?” brother Lu looked confused in understanding my sentence. I was also confused how to say it.
“ potions to dare to do it” whispered me. It's all gone my shame. Maybe right now my face is turning red, fortunately it's night so it can be a little covered. I hope Brother Lu can understand my point. He seemed to be thinking seriously, I could only wait. After a long while Lu looked at me, like there was a sense of surprise then a change of disbelief. Brother Lu did not answer. I'm getting shabby.
“ what crown prince told concubine to ask this to me?”
“ of course not, this is my own decision. So how's kak?”
“ I dare not answer it, if anything bad happens to the concubine I can not bear it.” Brother Lu looks scared. How to explain to her about my situation.
“ brother, help me. I promise I won't drag you down if anything happens to me. Only brother can help me” I beg with as much sorrow as possible. Hope to change your decision, Brother Lu.
“ if the concubine approves the suggestion from me, it is better to say it directly to the crown prince. All problems will be finished”
“ is not that easy, the problem is with me. I was afraid that when I said it, my worries came back. As Brother Lu said before if master En will not force me. So, can you make me a potion so I don't feel worried.” Long-term I said it. Hopefully you can make Brother Lu understand.
“ actually there is a herb to increase the turmoil of love, but,”
“ can it drive away my worries?”
“ seems to be able” replied Brother Lu in slight hesitation.
“ alright, give me the potion kak”
“ but, remember whatever happens the concubine has to bear it herself, do not follow me if there is a problem” as if to lecture me, Brother Lu looks very serious. Now I'm a little relieved. One problem is over, I just convinced myself to keep taking this step.
That night the meeting was completed satisfactorily. Brother Lu said he would prepare it later. At least the day after tomorrow there will be results. May my choice be right and not make me regret it later. Although it still feels doubtful but somehow I even heavy if I have to be selfish. Letting go of the sense of return, maybe this is the most appropriate way.
This morning I was surprised by Mr. En's arrival. I was still wrapped in a blanket on the bed. Hearing Cila announce her arrival made me feel the fog ready. Mr. En asked for breakfast in my palace, so the kitchen waiter was shocked and hurried to prepare an additional menu.
“ your password is quite convincing” mister En quipped when I got beside him. Sit at an empty dining table. All the servants were busy preparing it. There is only tea and light snacks.
“ it concerns my life, so it must be done correctly. Isn't that so, Mr En?”
“ the smarter my concubine” Mr. En rubbed my head slowly. His mood seems to be good. He smiled pretty sweetly at me.
“ what these days is something happening?” what do you mean, Mr. En, does he know the secret between me and Brother Lu. Not being used to lying to him made me fear myself.
“no sir, everything is in good condition” I graze my tea while looking for the whereabouts of brother Lu. But not to find.
“ Lucien is working on the task I gave” suddenly Mr. En chimed in on me. Is it so obvious if I'm looking for Brother Lu.
“ who's looking for it?” kilahku.
“ the corner of your eye from earlier moved to and fro, if not look for it, what are you doing?” with his casual tone can make me ungodly. Caught wet trying to lie.
“ s.I was looking for a waiter, wanted to tell him to quickly prepare breakfast. Mr. En do not like to draw his own conclusions” smart once this reason, so reasonable. Nice Zen.
“ alright” is just that. Mr. En is still busy with his drink. He also brought some books on the table. This caught my attention.
“ mr En is there a big task?” looking at me with a little confusion. Find a reason why my question is a little strange.
“ I mean the books, is Mr En in the hunt for duty so take him when visiting?” while looking at the table.
“ no, this is for you. All of these books are about pregnancy. Read it must be useful later” I feel more tense, whether Brother Lu can really keep our agreement a secret.
“ mean mr En what? didn't I not really,,”
“ you are a woman, someday definitely pregnant. There is no harm in learning from now on” is right too. Maybe I panicked too much. It is easy to think no.
“ mister En really attention” I picked up one of those books.
“bacalah”
Soon the waiters came and brought the breakfast that was waiting. I was still reading until Mr. En told me to start eating. Looking at all these menus my hunger continues to crumble. Without waiting for long, I started taking one by one side dishes from there. Don't forget to take it for Mr. En. We eat quietly and eat well. Me especially.
“ sir is tomorrow night busy?” after finishing breakfast we had a short chat on the front balcony.
“ what are you asking?”
“ I plan to have a meal together, at least welcome the arrival of Cila, in addition to entertaining him also makes it more comfortable in palaces” my real reason is to want to find time to discuss the advice of Brother Lu. The day after tomorrow was the perfect time when the potions were finished.
“ don't need to overdo it, he's been lucky enough not to be in law” heh, how cold his attitude. It's always like this if it's not what he wants.
“ sir, however that time was a misunderstanding. To strengthen the relationship dinner together quite effectively. How, agree?”
“ where is it?”
“ where yes? At Mr En's place how? So after completion Mr. En can go straight to sleep, do not make tired with travel”, I replied. In my palace there must be a lot watching. If in the crown prince's palace must be all under master En's control.