The Complicated Life Path

me and my mass

This morning is very disturbing life yollan with a past that is difficult for everyone to guess, because when outside the house he will never show how real life and what he feels.

My name is Yollan Dwi Larasati, the 2nd of 5 children but I am the most independent among my family, and I am a little bit indifferent about my appearance.

as usual I always wake up at 04.00 wib, but there is something that bothers me about my past.Helaan breath blows heavily out of my nose and pain in the heart.

I want to feel crying right now but I look at the beautiful face of my son is still asleep, yes he is my encouragement.his name is Yuna Anindya Khairunissa, I usually call Icha...

I woke Dy up to perform the dawn service, yes, I want to educate him to be obedient to HIS Lord.

"Icha, son's body. Let's get up baby.." while opening the blanket, he just muttered but still closed his eyes "mother, a little while longer"

ah. he is 7 years old is still very spoiled and quite active if he is awake, but he really never missed worshiping from he was 5 years old.

"ayo Cha.., in view of what the teacher said, do not delay the prayer, will Icha want to enter the mother into God's heaven if we invite God later." I said

"yes yes, Icha wake up but we pray both ?"doorways

"let's go, pray in the mother's room only y, take ablution continue to bring the mukena and the alphabet to the mother's room"

"ok nda kuuuuu.

15 Years ago I was 18 years old and had worked in a company to become an ordinary worker because my diploma was only a graduate of SMK without continuing college because of the limitations of the family economy when I was getting help for continued college but I refused because I could not bear to see my family were right2 minimal economy and most importantly my sister who was far below my age, still under 5 years old and very much cost.

I gave up not continuing my education for my family,

a lined mess that the company provides for single employees is devoted to being on time while working.

my life is monotonous, rarely play. only work, sleep and silent in mess , but occasionally out playing because my friends forced to come along while we were off work.

I had a cop's girlfriend, but indeed we never walked together and also rarely communication only occasionally, he said, if Dy has time to always meet me in front of the mess without being able to take me away because I don't want to date more, but I'm the type of person who is loyal to the couple, there are so many people who come to make me a girlfriend.

I used to tell him to get him to find another girlfriend, I kept him in the same way because I'm not like my friends whose dates can hold hands or even more.

if you think about it, he even chased me for a long time until I finally accepted him to be my girlfriend, whether he was patient or indeed he did love me.

I am even very indifferent when many men want to get to know me, not because I sell expensive but I do have the principle not to hurt my partner even though I do not love him.

my life was a mess after working for 2 years in this company because this is where I first got to know the man who made me hate my life for what he did to my life.

# Yollan twi Larasati#.