The Brain of a Duke Princess

A Complicated Feel

“Sorry, I seem to be drunk too much. ”

I thought Grandpa would be the only one this morning, but Ryle and Dida also came along. Grandfather sometimes tended to be somewhat excited, so the two were taken with him because escorts were inevitable.

"Well, can you make sure they get plenty of water?"

“Of course. ”

While directing the request to Tanya who had been standing by my side, I sat on the chair opposite to Grandpa.

“Grandfather, even if it was you, drinking too much would be bad for your health. Shouldn't you cut down on the amount of alcohol you drink? "

"Kuh …"

Grandpa grimaced .. He does love alcohol.

"So, how much did you drink last night?"

"I drank with the men of the Order and the Army. So …. I probably had too much fun and decided it wasn't enough, so I took both and had a drink. ”

"Oh my goodness. . ”

The reason was that last decision. Long ago, Grandfather would take the two out drinking, trying to teach them their limits, but the two would go back unconscious at any moment. Grandfather liked them both so he sometimes forced a drink after drinking.

“... Please excuse the interruption. ”

"Oh. Tanya, what's wrong? ”

“Rudeus-sama came to pick up Sir Gazelle. ”

"…What!"

Grandpa suddenly panicked. Since Grandfather rarely showed his side, I laughed.

"Tell him I'm not here. ”

"…But…"

When Tanya thought of how to convey that information to Rudeus, she emerged from behind him.

"So Grandpa .. I've heard that you drink dry in the store again. ”

"No, that's …"

“How many times do I have to tell you to hold back? You are a very influential person in this country. It might be peaceful now, but if you were suddenly attacked while you were unconscious, there would be nothing we could do. I'm begging you to drink less outside! "

Hearing Rudeus' argument, it seemed like Grandpa's shoulders were shrinking even smaller. Rudeus was the son of my mother's brother. . He was basically my cousin, the head of the household and heir of Anderson House. Incidentally, Marquis Anderson often said that since he was weaker than Grandfather, he did not want to be affiliated with the Order or the Army. Similarly, Rudeus was not affiliated with either and only learned to be his successor. Although I don't know what he learned specifically. His athletic ability was similar to Ryle or Dida, and his physique was slim but stocky.

“A long time ago, Rudi. ”

"It's been a long time, Iris. Ah sorry . Although this was a long-awaited reunion, we met for reasons like this. ”

I was 2 years older than him, so we met for a year at the Academy. But since we were in a different year, meeting him was difficult, and in the end I was also expelled from the Academy.

"It's okay . I also told Grandpa that he should drink less. ”

"Is that so? I am grateful that Iris told grandfather the same thing. Grandfather will not listen to what I say, but of course he will listen to you. ”

“Surely it's not true. Oh, would you like some tea too? ”

“I would love to accept this rare opportunity, but I have to do something afterwards. All right, Grandpa, time to go home. ”

"Ughm. . ”

"Ughm. . ”

"Grandfather, thank you for bringing Ryle and Dida home. You should also go home and rest your body. ”

"Can't I stay here?"

Furrowing his brows, Grandpa begged.

"What did you say? We're going home now. ”

Rudeus shot Grandpa's wish. I think the conversation between them is funny.

"Iris, let's talk again next time. ”

With that, Rudeus pulled Grandpa out of the room. I thought to myself, where Rudeus hid such power.

Like a passing tornado, the surroundings became extremely silent.

"… Ask, can I get one more cup?"

“Of course. ”

"Can I join in too?"

"Of course . Sit down over there. ”

At my word, my personal servant, Tanya, placed a cup of tea in front of Berne.

“It's been a long time since we had a conversation like this. ”

The last time we met was when the Foundation Day party was held, and even then I didn't talk to him. I have my own duties to attend to while Berne follows dad around doing work.

"Yes it's true . ”

"Yes it's true . ”

Berne nodded in agreement, and drank some tea. The tea fit perfectly into his palette and his expression relaxed.

"I thought you'd be back in your territory soon. ”

"Yes nih . I've been away from my first place for a long time, maybe it's time for me to come back. … So, how are you, Berne? ”

“…. I've learned a lot working under Dad. I need to recover the time I have wasted until now. ”

“It's not that you've been playing around so I thought it was okay, right? And since it is something as unique as academy life, I don't think it's too bad. ”

I look back on my previous life. If I remember correctly, school life is one of the vital moments. You don't realize it until you enter the workforce. You work with, learn with, fight with people of the same age .. You sometimes have bitter moments, but in the end it's fun. In my opinion, the time when you finally understand the joys of teenagers is a bit after you finish your school life.

“... But I've stolen that precious time from you. ”

"…?"

I couldn't hear Berne as his voice calmed down. His facial expression changed so I understood it was about something bad.

“... Nee-san. I have something I need to apologize for. ”

"I was thinking about what you were going to say, but what exactly are you apologizing for?"

Even if I didn't ask what the reason was, I could see that he was talking about my expulsion from the academy.

“... Expulsion from academy. ”

I asked the question because I wanted to know his motive.

“You don't have to apologize for that. It was my fault that I was stubborn. So it's my fault, not your fault. ”

"You said that last time too. But I don't think what you're saying is true. At that moment I moved solely because I wanted to be loved by him. Working only from my emotions leads to where we are now. ”

"So what you want to show me is that you're eyeing the Prime Minister position, and this apology is to show your determination for that?"

"You said that last time too. But I don't think what you're saying is true. At that moment I moved solely because I wanted to be loved by him. Working only from my emotions leads to where we are now. ”

"So what you want to show me is that you're eyeing the Prime Minister position, and this apology is to show your determination for that?"

I interpreted his apology as, "I won't be affected by my emotions anymore". He came to that understanding while working under Father most likely.

“That's one reason, but not just that. ”

"…Especially the one there?"

“When I am attracted to her, I move on to something other than emotions, similarly, I act condescendingly to you acting on her own emotions. You also have your own heart, and I fail to understand that your heart must also be broken. Knowing that, I would like to apologize as a family member. ”

“…. ”

I have no words about Berne's reasoning. I feel a bit annoyed that he is noticing right now, but I also feel a little happy.

From that end, I could not see Berne as a family member. During that time, at that time, Berne had chosen Yuri over me.

In my previous life, I thought that siding with the girl you like was obvious, but at that moment myself when Iris shouted, “Why! Why don't you understand. I love her so much. Even you Berne, why did you throw me away? ”. I can understand my feelings more than I can understand on my own. I sympathize with the screams within me.

To be honest, I don't really care about Dorsen or Van because they're less involved. But I feel different about Prince Edward and Berne. Since I was engaged to Edward, I felt attached to him. As for Berne, he is a precious member of my family. And when the two sided with him, I felt surprised that I had been banished so easily. I was further humiliated by both.

I was attacked in front of a lot of people. It is good that my memories of my previous life reappear, but if that does not happen, I may fall into a state of panic. Here and there, I also swore that I would never fall in love again, and on top of that I would never fully trust people. I was even dumped by someone I considered family. Events that turned me into me so that I could not forgive them.

The cold part of me couldn't help but think "It's too late now", but the other side of me wants to forgive him.

“... I accept your apology; however, I cannot forgive you just yet. ”

If it was him .. If it was Yuri, would he immediately forgive her? A useless thought arose within me.

“That's enough for me. ”

With that, Berne accepted my apology as it was.