The Affair With My Step Brother

Chapter 38's

My decision is round. Early in the morning I invited Darren to meet at the hospital parking lot.

"Darling, I miss you so much. Finally you have time to meet with Mas." Mas Darren hugged me right after I got into his car. Mas Darren looks really happy because I finally have time to meet him.

He must have missed me so much because during the past week we never met. Aunt Rena and om Reza should be treated alternately in the hospital because of their sudden drop in health condition. So there's no one to replace me waiting for Rey.

Laras has also started working at Reza's om company, so he can't come to the hospital often during the day. The barrel only comes at night, even if he is not overtime.

"So you said there was something very important you wanted to talk to Mas about. What is that, honey?" Mas Darren asked after releasing his embrace.

I didn't answer right away. To be honest I was confused and didn't know where to start telling Darren that I wanted to end our relationship.

"Kok quiet?" ask Darren. While I just keep my head down while playing my fingernails.

"Darling, are you weird? Did something happen?" ask Darren again.

For a while I was still silent even though Darren kept talking to me. But a moment later, I said quickly, "Mas, we broke up."

The atmosphere was instantly silent for a moment. I don't know what Darren's reaction is right now because I don't dare look him in the face, let alone look him in the eye. While mas Darren, he was just speechless and had not said a word. Maybe he didn't believe what he just heard.

"Honey-Honey. You ... What did you say? Didn't you hear wrong?" ask Darren. Just like I thought, Darren doesn't seem to believe I want to end our relationship.

And again, I didn't answer the question. There was nothing I could do other than just look down because I didn't dare to look at him.

"Darling, replied Mas. Do you really want us both to break up? You want to end our relationship? Hm," asked Darren, and I answered him with a slow nod.

Seeing me agree to the question, Darren sounded a sigh. Maybe he didn't think about my decision. No wind no rain, I suddenly wanted to break up with him.

"Key, answered Mas. Do you really want to break up from me?! Answer!" This time the tone of Darren's mas talk has risen aka half snapped. To the point that I was surprised. It's the second time I've seen the other side of Darren's like that. This is even worse than when he was jealous of Rey's brother back then.

"Why shut up?! Answer me, Kei, answer me!!!"

Hearing that Darren was very angry, I ventured to nod slowly and said, "Yes."

The instant Darren's breath was heard hunting, he seemed to be very angry. Sometimes he hit the steering wheel in front of him. Even the tissue box on the dashboard of his car was also targeted.

"Is it because of that comatose man that you suddenly took the decision to break up from Mas?! Huh uh?!"

"What explanation? Huh huh? What explanation?" This time Darren's tone was not as high as it was, but still he sounded very angry.

I went back to silence. I was really confused where to start to explain to Darren to understand.

"Kei, if you are serious about ending our relationship, raise your head, look at Mas and look into Mas's eyes if you are brave. Then tell me one more time that you want to end our relationship, if you want to break up with Mas." Darren sounded against me. Maybe he was very sure that I was difficult and did not dare to do that.

Yes, I admit, it's very difficult. Without even looking at her it felt like my lips were very heavy in saying that sentence. Especially if you have to say it while staring at the bead of Darren's eyes. I dare not guarantee that I can do it.

"Let's do it right now, why shut up? I want to see how you do it."

I took a deep breath, trying to gather strength and courage from within. It's hard, but for the good of many people, I have to dare to do it.

I began to lift my head, trying with all my heart to look at the face and look into the eyes of the man I loved so much.

Not saying a broken sentence just my chest already feels very tight staring at the face of Darren mas who currently looks very chaotic. Plus his eyes are red. Either reddened from anger or maybe because it held back crying. Or it could be both.

I'm back down. My tears have also escaped flowing down my cheeks. It's even harder than I imagined. I feel like I can't and I just want to give up. If only I could choose, I wouldn't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt Darren, Rey's sister, nor her family.

But if I give up, then what about Rey's fate, how does aunt Rena feel, om Reza, Laras, and others. Laras will definitely come back to blame me and really hate me if anything happens to his cousin.

I must be strong, I must be brave, and I must not be selfish. For the sake of recovery, Rey, for the happiness of many.

If for example I prefer Darren mas rather than Rey's sister, I'm sure, I will never be happy. Wh why? Because too many people I've made suffer, and too many people I've ruined their happiness.

What I have to instill in my heart right now is that I and Darren may not have been created to be together.

"Why are you back down? You don't dare, do you?" said Darren again when he saw me looking down after just looking at his face and eyes for a while.

It is true what Darren said, I did not dare. But for the sake of Rey's healing, for the happiness of many, and for the sake of blotting out all my sins and wrongs on Rey's brother and his family, I must dare to say it.

I took a deep breath back, wiped my tears, then tried to gather strength and courage to raise my head and look at Darren's bead-tight eyes.

For a moment we stared at each other because my tongue was still feeling weak, and my lips were still heavy to say. But out of nowhere, I suddenly said, "Mas, we just broke up."